I have a degree from 25 years ago & then took time off to raise the kids, got divorced, stopped being SAHM, only work I could find was as admin assistant. This work did not light my world on fire, but I'm not an ambitious person so kept doing it.
Finally a friend recommended me for a job as a researcher. I loved this job, adored my colleagues. Did this for 18 months. All in my dept were on contracts. The boss had, in February and prior said she'd like me to replace the head of our little dept if he left, but then he stayed. Boss (whose workload had been cut in half but salary remained the same) started finding problems with my work. The more she fussed the more anxious I got. She kept hectoring me to "be confident". But the fussing over details was doing my head in (my colleagues say that due to the nature of the work we all made mistakes). Eventually my contract was not renewed & I'm having trouble finding other work. I've applied for loads of things but do tend to now be Eeyoreish & think of all the ways in which I'll fuck up if I got any of these jobs.
Boss has form btw and apparently has driven a couple of other women out of there (voluntarily ran to other jobs or were not renewed). She's fine w men, could be a coincidence, but people note her fussing over female staff's work.
Anyhow, not sure what to do about massive confidence problem. I loved that work so much, felt proud for the First Time Ever of my work/job, and am a bit depressed about it. It's been 3.5 months and although the shock has worn off of going from heir to the throne to not being asked back, I'm just sad and hard on myself, every damn day. Ideas?
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lizzieoak · 18/09/2016 16:56
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