After various 'home' issues I've hugely lost confidence in myself professionally.
This is exacerbated by the fact that, to be honest, I talked my way in to this career, and five years later, still don't feel very sure about my ability in it. It's very fast-moving, there's a fair amount of tactical as well as strategic wizardry in it and I feel my already slender grip is slipping.
I think one way forward might be to shadow someone more experienced/confident. But as I'm already in it, this is surprisingly tricky. I've put out some feelers for voluntary work in this field, but they expect me to be the one with the experience. I can't really shadow someone in my own dept as then it will be plainly obvious that lightsout doesn't know what the hell she's doing. I've been on training for X and Y, but that doesn't replace real-life experience.
Has anyone
- been in this situation?
- found a way out?
Please don't tell me I'm probably great at my job and just lack confidence. I am sitting in front of my intray and feeling my stomach freeze. I really think I need a 'safe' place to learn some concrete skills.
TIA