I think it's been a year or 18 months since i started posting in Elderly Ps, but it feels like 5 years. Dad has been getting steadily more confused, his memory is shocking he can't remember my previous visits even if they were 2 days ago, has forgotten most relatives, I could go on. I work 4 days a week, have 2 kids, a home to run and visit Dad once a week (2.5 hours away on public transport). Last week he turned up in london, i was called by the transport police as he was found wandering and confused around Charing X (again), had to bring him to my home and then back to his the next day, taking a day off work. At this point the HOme Treatment Team suggested a period of respite/ escalating to full time care (which they said they felt he needed). This was more precipitous than I'd anticipated but I agreed and we all went along to a dementia specialist home (one of the better ones in the area, according to dad's GP). After a reasonably good hour or so of Dad being given a meal, chating with staff, when it was time for everyone to leave he got extremely agitated, abusive, shouting and demanding to be brought home. The manageress said she did not think the home would be able to cope, so off we all trooped again, taking Dad home.
Yesterday went back there, and Dad again talked of coming to London, just getting on the train and going to visit his old college (he would never be able to find it). He wants to buy a car, go to france, go to Spain etc etc.
None of these things can he do. I have in the past 5 years taken him on numerous holidays at home and abroad (as I could see the dementia looming), but am now somewhat burnt out, and the last couple of trips were more stressful than pleasurable as he was confused and anxious most of the time.
I feel I can't continue supporting him in all these activities, especially coming to london, but can manage a bit longer supporting him at home Readers of this page will now he lives with my brother, who has mental illness but does provide some safety net.
My manager has told me I have no more carer's leave allowance, i also have no more annual leave, so much has been taken up in Dad and brother related obligations (attending case meetings, rushing off to retrieve Dad from some situation, as well as kids being sick). She now wants me to come in on days off to make up time owing.
Frankly, I feel suffocated by all this . I live in fear of the phone ringing and hearing " hello it's the transport police". Time to myself is incredibly precious, but I live with this feeling that a bomb is going to go off at any moment if I ever start to relax.
The HTT guy advised me next time, not to go to Charing Cross. At which point the TP will have to dial 999, Dad will be taken into hospital, will kick off, will be assessed and end up on a psychiatric ward. This seems harsh and will condemn him to a faster deterioration and probably institutional living. I don't want that to happen yet, but I am burnt out from rescuing him, supporting him and dealing with all his mishaps.
Finally, my kids are showing evidence of distress at the stress and snappiness towards them, and my husband has started to detach from the whole situation. Thanks for any words of advice. I'm running out of ideas here.
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whataboutbob · 12/01/2014 09:16
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