I posted yesterday in the relationship forum that I was ready to walk out on my husband, and I did today. im a hotel now with my DS and can't sleep.
Husband doesn't yet know I'm not home - he was at work and didn't see me packing in the morning, when I left I said we are going for a walk.
He's about to find out though and I'm laying here with my heart beating fast and scared of his reaction even though he's nowhere near. His elder sister is staying at our place and I told her what I'm doing and why and she will hopefully help (she understands my reasons).
I basically feel like he changed so much as a person, mainly through his drinking, and he's not willing to get any help (suggested marriage therapy, drinking therapy, self help stuff - he doesn't want anything, everyone's stupid apart from him).
Add to it financial troubles, him working all the time and not making anything (I get that he tries, but he won't accept the fact he needs a major change or all will stay the same). I also think he might be depressed but again won't seek help.
Basically I don't want my DS to see our marriage as an example, and a dysfunctional dad as an example.
But at the same time I think there's still a part of me that cares for him as he still has good moments. And I don't want to hurt him. He says he loves me but frankly I haven't felt it in a long time (he didn't even get a Christmas present for me last year). He wants sex and says he Denis because we don't have sex but I can't have sex with someone I'm not connected to emotionally. We don't go out together, don't really talk much and we don't have any mutual interests anymore.
I seriously don't know what should be my next step. I'm away until Thursday and don't know what to do next.
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Walked out today.
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specificus · 22/10/2016 23:23
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