feeling utterly devastated

(5 Posts)
blackcloudabove Mon 05-Sep-16 15:54:46

The children's father left 2 months ago and I've cried everyday since! I feel like I've failed my children. I have no patience, I'm
Not fun, I've pushed everyone away! I'm also nearly 34 weeks pregnant and on bipolar medication. I just don't see how I'm ever Guna get over this! I can't! Although I want to hate him for being a selfish idiot! I can't I'm just utterly devastated! I'm under consultant care for the pregnancy but at my last appt he asked how I was and I said I'm really stressed and he shrugged as in yeah that's expected with pregnancy. I went to see my psychiatrist and he said you have 3 kids at your age on your own... What are you Guna do!!!
I have a counsellor who is brilliant.
There's no more help I can reach out for!
I am no good for my children right now. That sounds pathetic I know but I'm really not l! I can't even just put on a brave face! They've seen me cry far too much. Their behaviour and attitudes have become so bad and I don't blame them!

CaptainM Mon 05-Sep-16 20:54:27

Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time. Wish there's something I could write to help you feel better. Just know that things will get better with time. It's good you have professionals helping you. Hang in ther. I'll certainly be thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way x

camichung Thu 08-Sep-16 00:13:31

I couldn't read this post without not replying. I feel so bad for you and can relate so much because I've been in a very similar position recently. Please try and remember he's your children's father, he's not going anywhere anytime soon if you want him back that is. You can have a cry but don't cry around him, don't ask for him back, don't beg, don't text him. Time is a healer, you don't need anyone who doesn't need you, I know it's so easy for someone else to say and at times I really wish I could take my own advice lol. You WILL get over it and you WILL be happy again. Things just take time. I know it's just so hard I really do. Your kids will always love you. Please take care X

sallystar1976 Tue 13-Sep-16 05:58:21

I'm in the same position, I have 4 children, I'm crying daily, can't eat, can't sleep and feel like I'm going through the motions everyday but I don't want to, I literally want to curl up and die than carry on like this. Everybody tell me the same, time will help it will get easier but it's hard to see that right now. I sympathise with you massively being pregnant, you must be really struggling and I hope things get easier for you soon xxxxxx

Holland00 Thu 06-Oct-16 13:38:54

How are you feeling today? How old are your DC's?
Do you have family or friends to support you?

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