Advice on divorce

[10LoopyLou]

I've been with my husband for 13 years married for 6 with 2 beautiful children who are my world.
I am a stay at home mum which I am extremely grateful for, And I feel I owe a lot to my husband for this privilege.
The thing is my husbands drinking is ruining our marriage. My his mad doesn't think he has a problem - it's obvious toe & others that he does (you can't help someone who doesn't think they have a problem - I've tried) My husband has always drunk and I don't feel he should stop but since having my kids he hasn't changed and doesn't see the effects/consequences his drinking has on the kids. Lately he's come home so drunk he's thrown up over the house and I don't find it to the next day one morning I couldn't make my kids drinks as it was all over the kitchen sink the same time they couldn't use their toilet as it was all over that too (obviously made up a story to the kids for reasons why) . The consequences Of his drinking mean he could jeopardise his job which means we would loose everything mainly our home. - I don't get how he can do this if he cares about us why is he prepared to risk everything? He's also become nasty whilst drinking and his nastiness is getting worse. I end up on my own a lot at night as he has so much to drink he falls asleep early. I do mention the drinking but he turns it round on me says he drinks to wind me up? If he's out he'll ignore my calls. I we have beer in the house it doesn't stay long he has to drink it. (I'll open a bottle if wine and still have half that bottle left 2 weeks later)
The thing is I've come to the point where as I don't feel there's any other option but to separate. (I've spoke to my mum about it who says that there worse than him out there) my main priority is protecting my kids they're young at the mo but soon they're gonna start realising what's going on. I love him still but I'm not in love with him - I dont fancy him anymore he takes no pride in his appearance. He is a fab dad (when not drinking ) and my kids worship him. It breaks my heart that he doesn't care enough to stop - I have mentioned leaving before..
I'd be grateful on advice on what to do, would I be ok if I left him - I don't work & have no money. I really want what's best for my kids nothing but the best is good enough for them. I'm worried about uprooting my kids - one of who has just started school.
But even tonight he went AWOL and from the few words he spoke he's had an altercation whilst out - things are escalating with him rapidly.
I'd be grateful
For advice I just dunno what to do
Xxxxx

[PurpleWithRed]

sounds like you've reached the end of the road. If he drank like this before you had the kids I don't see him changing now - it's an addiction.

Splitting up will be tough in the short term and will affect your standard of living but personally I think you deserve so much better. Start making a plan - get a good idea of your joint financial situation and see a solicitor.