H moved out in Summer after an arguement. I never thought is would escalate the way it has and now our house is being sold and my 16 month daughter and I are living somewhere else and relying mainly on benefits. I know he still loved me but said I had hurt him with my behaviour (some of which was post natal). I thought he was seeing a girl who was a shoulder to cry on when we first argued and he denied it every time I asked.
We have slept together a few times over the last eight months and discussed getting back together etc. Last week I found out he had moved in to his own place from his mother's where he said he still was. He had not told me he had moved. Then I found out he had moved in with this girl and then after a few days asked her to move out again. I called her and she confirmed he asked her to go but she would not say why. I texted him I knew and still he denied it and said I was creating 'alternate realities'. The last time we had sex was January when he stayed the night in my new house with my daughter and I and when we were going to sleep he said 'i love you' and when I did not respond because I was on the verge of sleep he said again 'i love you, can you hear me?'.
Today I went for an AIDS and std check. AIDS test needs to be after 3 months really for it to show in your system so I will have to go back again and have another test in a couple of months. It was hard and I cried in front of the nurse who was very understanding.
Why why why why did he move in with her for a few days and then have a change of heart? Why has he sent me messages and told me he still loves me and that he still only has eyes for me and has not even looked at another woman? I indicated a few weeks ago that someone had paid me some attention and he went ballistic and said it was too soon and he could not believe I was lining up his replacement so soon. All the time he was seeing her and planning on moving in with her. He lied and lied and lied and even when the lie is found out he still continued to lie.
He has also told me he is very ill and is receiving treatment but after speaking to the hospital and they checked his name and date of birth there is no record of him going there for tests or treatment. What is going on? I have tried contacting the girl for more answers but she avoids my calls . I know I should leave it and this marriage is dead dead dead but I don't understand and I can't seem to let it go. Why and how can he say he loves me so recently and then treat my daughter and I like this. He knows I went for tests today and not even an apology from him.
How do I get over this? I feel so lonely and so desperate and so lied to. I keep thinking about our wedding day and all the other lovely memories and I cannot believe this is the same person.
I am going to the doctor tomorrow because I think I need to speak to a counsellor.
I gave him my life. I had his child. How could he lie to me again and again?
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daisystone · 21/03/2012 16:50
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