BFP 2013

(793 Posts)
KerryJewels Thu 14-Mar-13 15:17:48

I was on a thread already..with my friends RedRobin1,wee,twinkle,Alex...but now I can't find them..so hopefully they will find me!!I'm on my second round of Clomid TTC a third and final child.I have PCOS and one tube due to an eptopic so the trying part has not been so easy!!Just wanting to talk with others going through the same ordeal as me.Wanting to concieve and share the experience..it can be a long,difficult road.Hope to char with someone soon!!

KerryJewels Thu 14-Mar-13 15:19:10

*chat

GoByTrain Fri 15-Mar-13 12:49:12

Hi Kerry!

I like your thread title! Let's get those BFPs this year smile

I'm TTC no 2 - not same story as yours but maddening in its own way. Had mc at 12 weeks in Oct and, well, am 40 so who knows...

Currently driving self slightly crazy with the Clear Blue Fertility Monitor - which seems to just show highs this month - ug. But I guess you might not be using one, since I've read it's not so useful for those with PCOS? Mind you, I'm not sure all this CB stick pissing is helping me, either. It sort of gives me a vague sense of control, but also doom grin.

So how is it all going at your end?

Alexandra6 Fri 15-Mar-13 13:07:08

Hi Kerry I found you! I've told the rest you're over here, the other thread is nearly full now anyway!

Hi goby sorry about your mc. I'm on clomid, have pcos, ttc #1. First cycle clomid, trying to get my body to ovulate - and it looks like it did based on a scan, an OPK and day 21 tests woop! I'm now 9dpo and have had brown spotting this week but not sure what it is (obvs praying for implantation bleeding!) Anyway that's me!

Thingymajigs Fri 15-Mar-13 14:46:39

Hi again kerry. Just marking my place in the new thread.

twinklestar2 Fri 15-Mar-13 16:37:59

Marking my place too.

Adsum Fri 15-Mar-13 17:51:30

Me too! CD1 here - hello Go wishing you lots of luck too - am just beginning first AF after erpc in Feb so am full of hope (again) and wishing for a dc2 as well!

Nice one on the dtd last night red as you say, it's the sperm that counts!!!

Now who's next to POAS...?!

Alexandra6 Fri 15-Mar-13 18:16:24

Maybe me on Sunday?! Although I'm only 11dpo then so probably too early?

KerryJewels Fri 15-Mar-13 19:10:56

Felt like Christmas when I saw your responses!So excited..I had no one to talk to for days!!!Hi Goby!!You are right I do not use the OPK,if I got myself started on those I'd probably drive myself crazy too!!Glad you found me Alex...if I lose you guys again is this what I do,start a new thread?Thingy hope all is well with you!!Good to see my familiar names twinkle;)Sorry to hear of your loss Adsum..hope is a beautiful thing..and I have hope too,for us all!!Hope red finds me over here...what other threads are you guys on?Just tickled I found you all and I can't wait for the first one of us to get that BFP!!!!2nd round of Clomid 50mg starts tomorrow..joy!!

KerryJewels Fri 15-Mar-13 19:12:49

Alex the brown spotting is quite promising..I'll keep my fingers crossed!!!

Alexandra6 Fri 15-Mar-13 19:14:23

Ah kerry haha don't worry we're here! Can you see where it says 'I'm on' near 'threads' at the top of the page? Just log in and click on that and you'll be able to find this thread. Otherwise we'll be wasting time putting up missing person posters when we could be dtd wink

Alexandra6 Fri 15-Mar-13 19:15:50

Oh and thanks about the brown spotting, I did just read someone saying it can be a chemical pregnancy. I will drive myself crazy soon smile am having a glass of wine with DH tonight and feeling a bit guilty that it might affect hormones - what do you guys think? So hard to give up when we're doing something so stressful!

RedRobin1 Fri 15-Mar-13 19:57:42

Hi kerry we found you grin
Marking my spot.

Adsum Fri 15-Mar-13 21:15:40

Ooh good luck alex for Sunday if you decide to POAS - I don't think 11dpo is too early! smile

RedRobin1 Fri 15-Mar-13 23:00:32

alex 2 more days to go till you can POAS? 11dpo sounds like a good time to test. Fx

Ads good to hear AF finally made an appearance.

I have LOADS of ewcm. Grapefruit juice is working miracles this time. Shame DH is snoozing again. Tomorrow he's not going to know what's hit him.

I only on cd 9 though and have loads of pre OV pain yesterday, I wonder if I am ovulating early. Don't feel like doing any OPKs yet. Just don't feel like peeing on any sticks.

twinklestar2 Fri 15-Mar-13 23:20:41

Good luck Alex with POAS.

Red I remember using grapefruit juice one month and having loads of EWCM too. It's mad how it works!

Cd23 here. BFP due next Friday.

weechops Fri 15-Mar-13 23:21:22

Marking place, off to bed <yawn> talk to you all in the morning. Nighty night smile

RedRobin1 Fri 15-Mar-13 23:41:34

winkle I had it last summer but was also taking epo then. But weirdly it had no effect then. This time around (tmi alert blush) I have actually had to change knickers twice because they were soaking wet. God! Sound like some porn novel! But no really it's amazing stuff.

Off to bed now.

Ps. Linking from the other thread alex I have pre recorded 'we bought a zoo' on Sky. Looks like a good film to watch!

Thingymajigs Sat 16-Mar-13 07:29:13

Good luck with poas alex, I'm really excited for you. smile
red how much grapefruit juice do you have to drink to make a difference? My EWCM isn't always great and only really appeared last cycle so that could help me out.
DP has set out of his plans again this cycle. He's determined to get me pregnant. Every other day dtd throughout the month is his plan this time. He does make me smile with his dedication to the TTC process.
Good luck to everyone waiting to poas, ovulate, starting clomid or waiting for AF to finish. Hopefully this is the last thread we will need.

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 07:47:35

I got NO ewcm but clomid is known to dry that up, I'm going to try grapefruit juice too next cycle!

red we bought a zoo is really good! And Matt Damon's on my lamenated list wink

Love how supportive all of our men are being about the ttc process! thingy yours sound committed to this cycle!

RedRobin1 Sat 16-Mar-13 07:51:17

thingy I drink small glass (approx 250ml) of grapefruit and i only started drinking it the day AF finished (cd7)
Starting to even like the stuff.

Doing headboard stands as I type. Another dtd down smile

we only have access to each other on weekends now. So I guess we will manage only 3 dtds before OV. I will be away in a hotel when the egg drops next week. No idea if we will catch it!

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 07:54:54

Good work red you weekend porn star! Made me laugh about you having to change your knickers!

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 07:55:36

Ps remember swimmers live a few days

RedRobin1 Sat 16-Mar-13 08:02:16

I drink the juice first thing in the morning with breakfast. And you even get the juice boxes in a 2 for 3 deal in supermarkets. I will keep drinking it till OV finishes.

Looking forward to some Matt Damon tomorrow grin

RedRobin1 Sat 16-Mar-13 08:02:41

Any symptoms today alex?

Thingymajigs Sat 16-Mar-13 08:10:04

Thanks! I'll send DP out to get some when he wakes up. If he asks why I'll say its for my EWCM and he'll nod along not really knowing or wanting to know either.
I hope you catch that egg red. It can't be easy when you work away so much. We find it difficult enough navigating through the "can't be arsed/too tired" excuses so it must be really tricky for you to plan.

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 09:07:50

When do you thing the egg will drop red?

I've got a very slight cold so of course am seeing that as a symptom. Boobs a bit sore but only when I squeeze them really hard which is bound to hurt! I'm really tired and feel a bit dizzy when I stand up but that could just be hormones. Bit crampy but that could be AF. So inconclusive over here! I don't think I'd believe it if I did get a BFP, sort of feel like it's a fantasy sometimes and if it actually happened I'd be ecstatic!

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 09:09:47

Sorry meant think not thing!

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 09:10:21

Ooh baby brain?! wink haha

RedRobin1 Sat 16-Mar-13 09:26:23

You sound like you are in the typical 2ww symptom spotting hell. Hope she doesn't come this month! Dizziness and tired feeling is a good sign smile

App says egg will drop Wed. Will dtd sun night - just hope the spermies hang on till wed!

weechops Sat 16-Mar-13 09:43:09

Is there anything that makes grapefruit juice taste nice?? I cant stand it but dh likes it so there's loads in the fridge. But I'm willing to try everything this cycle smile

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 09:53:25

So they've got to hang around for 2 and a half to 3 days then red? Def do-able for the good ones and they're the ones you want! Keep your legs closed so none escapes! wink I'd def do the whole legs in the air bit after dtd to get them snugly up there to hang around.

wee you could try mixing it with another juice to mask the taste a bit? I like any juice. Not sure if I've said but I often put spirulina in my juice too (algae) as it's meant to be so good for you (am willing to try anything) Not for the faint hearted though. Bottoms up!

weechops Sat 16-Mar-13 10:03:56

Alex <boak> you are a braver woman than me! smile think ill go try mixing it with whatever else we have. Not algae though grin

twinklestar2 Sat 16-Mar-13 11:13:58

Wee you could mix with vodka and cranberry to make a cocktail?! grin

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 11:25:32

Great idea winkle wonder if that would work with my spirulina...algae cocktails anyone? grin

RedRobin1 Sat 16-Mar-13 15:00:59

Haha wee honest it's not too bad. I used to barf initially but now gotten used to the taste. Won't go as far as saying I love it but its not too bad after you get used to it.

Could you add sugar to it? Although not good for the diet. Cranberry mix sounds like the best bet. Or down it like a tequila shot wink

I'd take grapefruit over tequila any day!

RedRobin1 Sat 16-Mar-13 15:01:56

What the hell is algae in juice alex heeeehee the things we do for ttc! What does that do? I am curious.

RedRobin1 Sat 16-Mar-13 15:03:24

Another trick is to pinch your nose and drink it. Apparently not having the sense of smell reduces the taste buds. It's worked for me before.

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 15:21:29

Haha red it's meant to have all these vitamins and amino acids in (more than any food or something) and last year I was having a 90 day cycle and had a shot of it in a drink at a healthy juice bar for a couple of days running and got AF. So I now think it helps hormones. I know, crazy right? Oh no, am I one step away from fertility chanting and spells?!? Argh.

Thingymajigs Sat 16-Mar-13 15:55:52

Just had my grapefruit and its not that bad actually. Unfortunately I sent DP to get it so its all from concentrate but it'll have to do.
I second holding your nose and drink it through a straw to avoid most of your tongue.

weechops Sat 16-Mar-13 15:57:33

OK so holding my nose and downing a big glass is the way to go smile still have the rotten aftertaste but I can live with it.

Alex it sounds a bit strange, but it obviously worked for you! Yay algae smile

RedRobin1 Sat 16-Mar-13 17:15:15

Hahaha drinking out of a straw thingy

alex now that you explain the benefits it doesn't sound so nasty, at least it helps regulates hormones.

I tried a fresh grapefruit fruit last year. Was so bad I had to eat a spoon of sugar to get the taste out. Was very high on energy after wink

Funny story - DH tried to snog me today. He didn't know I had just downed a glass of the grapefruit juice. He pulled away in an instant and his face looked like he had been sucking on a lemon!

Alexandra6 Sat 16-Mar-13 17:55:29

Hmm I think it might be more coincidence that I got AF straight after I started drinking it!

Haha that's funny about your DH red bet he wasn't expecting such a bitter kiss!

Another little tip - it's meant to be good for men to have things like oysters and Brazil nuts, stuff with zinc and selenium. I bought chocolate covered Brazil nuts for DH to smuggle them into his diet without making a bit thing out of it haha!

Adsum Sat 16-Mar-13 18:49:34

Quick quezzie- were you all this bonkers before ttc?!!!
Hmmm... actually I was but in a different way...

Lol @ reds dh grin and at Brazil nut smuggling - very cunning I might try that...

weechops Sat 16-Mar-13 19:35:33

grin ads mmmm quite possibly slightly less bonkers, but not much. I always like to give 100% effort to worthy causes ha! And sorry if I make no sense, dh got me some pink fizz and I started early. Don't usually drink so should be fun later smile

Adsum Sat 16-Mar-13 20:11:08

Good for you wee - you have inspired me! I'm going to crack open a bottle now...! smile

KerryJewels Sun 17-Mar-13 11:34:30

Hmmm...grapefruit juice sounds much more appealing than cough syrup...I actually bought the cough syrup with intention of drinking it for more ewcm but decided that didn't sound safe.I'm already taking chances with Metformin and Clomidsad well AF is gone so time to get busy again!!Ovulation shouldn't be here for me until closer to the end of the month-I hope the egg drops from the side that has a tube.So many obstacles..if this happens it will truly be a miracle from God 0:-) Good luck friends...create life!!!

Adsum Sun 17-Mar-13 11:57:21

Good luck kerry - sometimes luck (and God) is on our side wink

Adsum Sun 17-Mar-13 11:58:57

Had a lovely glass of Chablis and fell asleep on the sofa!! I was exhausted so it was nice to feel sleepy (had a few bad nights sleep recently) and the monster slept til late too - bliss! CD3 here... Still a few days until operation pregnancy number 4 gets under way...

RedRobin1 Sun 17-Mar-13 12:03:46

Fingers crossed kerry the egg will pop from your good tube.

Glad you had a good nights sleep ads I had a late night and early morning so feel very shattered

Alexandra6 Sun 17-Mar-13 13:25:26

BFP!!!!!!!!!!! Only dpo 11 so too early to celebrate really, but amazing!!!

Thingymajigs Sun 17-Mar-13 13:38:55

Wow! Congratulations Alex! grin A BFP on your first ovulating cycle is amazing. Looks like all that spotting was due to implantation then. smile

Alexandra6 Sun 17-Mar-13 13:45:22

Thank you thingy I honestly think I'm in shock, I'd got so used to disappointment and feeling crap over the past 15 months that I can't believe this!! I'm trying to stop myself getting carried away as I'm well aware it's high risk anyway, but maybe more so because of clomid, PCOS and my cervix issues...but it really is brilliant! Of course am going to stick around here a) because it's too early to get excited and move on and b) because I really want to support you all until you get your BFPs and graduate to antenatal with me! Think you'll be soon behind me especially with your DH's determination this cycle! x

RedRobin1 Sun 17-Mar-13 13:48:40

Congratulations alex I am so happy for you! All of your 2ww symptoms were true smile so so pleased!

Needed to hear some good news and you've given me some hope that it will happen...

Alexandra6 Sun 17-Mar-13 14:29:26

Thanks red it's amazing how everything goes from heartbreaking to hopeful so quickly. See algae is the way forward grin joking!!

With all this grapefruit juice flowing I think more good news is on it's way for this thread!

Thingymajigs Sun 17-Mar-13 14:55:57

Aw, it really gives me hope when one of us graduates. Hopefully we'll all join you soon. smile

Congrats Alex, I was optimistic for you with implantation as I'd had exactly the same thing with my dd1 and a lovely straightforward pregnancy after so fx for you

weechops Sun 17-Mar-13 15:58:42

Alex woohoo really pleased for you! smile

Adsum Sun 17-Mar-13 16:23:53

Wow congrats Alex!! grin

twinklestar2 Sun 17-Mar-13 17:53:06

Congratulations Alex! It all sounding so promising. You deserve it after 15 months of TTC. Is this your first?

SomeDaySoon74 Sun 17-Mar-13 19:00:45

Found you all!
Fab news Alex! grin
For some insane reason I decided to do a test mid-afternoon today (was just feeling preggo although I'm only about 5dpo!!) and of course it was BFN but was quite fun to POAS for a giggle. Not quite sure what I was thinking but have been symptom spotting for past few days, particularly a pokey feeling in my uterus which of course could only be implantation. lol. Might try POAS again on Thursday. Funny business this ttc lark!

Alexandra6 Sun 17-Mar-13 21:33:47

Thanks all of you! Am feeling a bit funny in the sense that I'm trying to hold myself back from getting too excited as it's such early days - but at the same time, I'm just thrilled that I managed to ovulate and get a BFP after so long of being upset with my body for not working. I am just keep long everything crossed it sticks. It would be my first winkle. Am going to test again in the morning.

someday I tested at 6dpo and it was negative so don't give up hope! I really hope you all get there soon. I've been hanging around mumsnet for ages and can't believe it's me saying I've got a BFP. It WILL be all of you too x

KerryJewels Sun 17-Mar-13 22:42:27

Congratulations Alex!!!!!The new thread was your good lucksmile Cheers for Algae,grapefruit juice and Brazilian nuts!!!This news has really made my St Patricks Day...Hooray!!!!

weechops Mon 18-Mar-13 14:28:45

Just seduced dh while Ds is napping. Role reversal for a change as I never usually get the chance before he does it first smile heehee winkled and tinkled and hoping to do it every day til he leaves on Thursday night.

And I think the epo might be helping the ewcm. I've noticed some the last 2 days and I'm on cd11 today.

LacernellaRubra Mon 18-Mar-13 15:52:39

Hi I'm a newbie to this board, is it ok if I join in? I want a 2013 BFP so seems like the place to suit me...I'm just starting on the process of TTC DC3 with my now DH. DCs1 &2 from ex-P. It's an uncertain road, there's a gpod chance we won't ever get a BFP - DH currently doesn't produce sperm, and has recently started on hormone therapy to see if we can get some! I've just started being put through the battery of fertility checks, and hoping for some boxes ticked at least from my quarter. Can't talk about it to anyone in RL so would be good to have some MN hands to hold!

Thingymajigs Mon 18-Mar-13 16:24:35

Wow, if any of you have issues with not producing enough EWCM just drink grapefruit juice. Seriously, I'm only on CD9 and I have loads... an embarrassing amount. Thanks for the suggestion red. I'm starting to think that maybe my hormones have started to work properly. smile
Snap weechops. I'm putting mine down to the grapefruit juice but it could be the soy (which I'm also blaming for digestion issues blush).
Go for it wee! Catch that egg. We are trying every other day all throughout the cycle and every day when I see a positive OPK.
Hi lacernella. Welcome to the thread. I'm also trying for dc3 with my DP and I have two older children (13 and 9) with my ex-H. What kind of tests are you both going through atm?

Poppy79 Mon 18-Mar-13 18:13:43

Hi all, hopped over from the old thread. congrats Alex- fab news!hope everything goes well.x
Fingers crossed for everyone else.
Try grapefruit juice with tonic-my uncle used to have it as a drink when he was out &was driving. I have it too sometimes as its a change from coke, orange juice etc had it last night when out for dinner and have just seen all the posts about it so that was a good choice on my part!xx

twinklestar2 Mon 18-Mar-13 20:32:10

Welcome lacernella!

Cd26 here... Feeling a few twinges...

RedRobin1 Mon 18-Mar-13 21:06:42

Hi lacernella

Ooooo twinges sound exciting winkle

thingy it's like a magic potion - results are instant!

I hope we have caught it this month. Will be nice to have a December baby....

I can't wait to give up work! I hate my job. But it pays well and maternity package is great. The pressure and being away from home is not worth it. Weird as I was always career driven but now want something mind numbingly mundane and just want to be a mum and bake cupcakes! Who'd have thought!

RedRobin1 Mon 18-Mar-13 21:07:43

Yay on the seduction wee keep dtding.

LacernellaRubra Mon 18-Mar-13 21:30:41

Hello everyone, thanks for the welcome :-)

DH is on pregnyl (I know normally the women on that one) and they'll add another hormone if that doesn't show results on its own...

I've had an ultra sound (transvagjnal, agh...) all clear and they've taken loads of blood, not quite sure what ot's all for...got my 21 day blood test coming up and the radioactive-dye-in-uterus test soon...

Just hoping for lots of positive results! On the plus side my ewcm has always been good and we like sex a lot so hopefully if we ever get any sperm to play with there won't be too many other barriers to conception...

Congrats on the BfP up thread, that's fantastic!

I'm hunkering down for the long haul...

RedRobin1 Tue 19-Mar-13 16:29:00

It's good to hear your tests are coming back normal lacerella

It only takes one! Fingers crossed the meds work.

I am broody today. How's everyone else doing?

alex how are you doing? I am so happy clomid worked for you! I remember the old thread with your initial scans not confirming follicle growth and how lovely it is to get a bfp at the end of all that stress and months and months of ttc! stupid thing to say but I wish I had problems ovulating and not DH having issues with sperm sad at least clomid would then do something for us.

Thingymajigs Tue 19-Mar-13 19:08:17

Glad to hear the tears were ok lacernella. It's interesting how a lot of us have had different tests at certain times. I've had all my CD3, CD21 blood tests but nothing else so far. DP had a SA done quite early on but might need to do another as we've nearly been trying for a year.
Hugs red. I know what you mean, it'd be nice to know that a pill could help but it's not possible for every fertility issue. I'm also super broody. I had a bit of a moment walking through town earlier when I saw this beautiful summer dress for a baby... I really have to steer myself away from baby sections now but hopefully not for long. smile
How are you doing winkle?
Where is everyone else in their cycle?

Thingymajigs Tue 19-Mar-13 19:08:42

*tests not tears

twinklestar2 Tue 19-Mar-13 22:45:20

I'm here, cd27, getting the odd twinge. Don't feel very pregnant sad

Alexandra6 Wed 20-Mar-13 07:30:34

Hi everyone! winkle hope those twinges are pg twinges! When are you POAS?

red I am still in shock but the joy has turned to terrified, you should see my pile of pee sticks unhygienically piled on my bedside table (with lids on in my defence!) Trying to make today the first day I don't test to check it's still there. Am just so nervous, don't trust my body at all as it's no good at hormonal stuff and working as it should usually! I remember us talking about clomid and me being jealous that you could do lifestyle stuff to improve SA, I guess that is the good thing about male factor stuff, you can improve it to some extent with diet etc? And the other positive is, with PCOS/clomid, I think mc rates are higher so you won't have that increased risk (must NOT think about that!) I really hope you caught it this month. How many dpo are you now?

Alexandra6 Wed 20-Mar-13 07:32:13

Ps miss you all and am saving you nice seats in the grad thread next to me. Will keep hovering here too if that's ok. And hello newbies smile

twinklestar2 Wed 20-Mar-13 09:36:18

Alex I don't POAS as there's no point. If nothing by next Friday then ill test as I've got a night out planned.

Had the results from my HSG which came back all clear so that's a good thing. 8 weeks today till my next appointment. I really hope I don't need it.

KerryJewels Wed 20-Mar-13 15:00:00

On cycle day nine..feeling quite ill from the Clomid todaysad Bought some Ocean Spray Ruby Red Grapefruit juice..dont know how well that will mix with my already queasy belly.Hope this is our month...Good luck everyonesmile

KerryJewels Wed 20-Mar-13 15:24:28

Mixed with Cranberry Apple I can barely take it..ewwww!!!

SomeDaySoon74 Wed 20-Mar-13 18:51:52

Cd29 here (of 33). Tested again yesterday and (unsurprisingly) got a BFN; plan to test again tomorrow and again on Sat. Addicted to testing, have a stash of tests and zero will-power! blush

RedRobin1 Thu 21-Mar-13 09:56:41

Thats fab news on the HSG results winkle fx you are not going to need that 8 week appt! Hope she doesn't show up this weekend.

kerry hope you are feeling better and the grapefruit juice didn't make you too queasy. Does clomid have a lot of side effects?

Sorry about the BFNs someday I rarely test, only going to POAS when I am late. still waiting for that to happen sad

Work is driving me insane, not having a good day. No sign of +ve OPK either. So don't know if I have ovulated already or just not happened yet. If I am in the 2ww I don't feel any different.

Thingymajigs Thu 21-Mar-13 11:31:01

Sorry about the negative test someday. Hopefully its just too early. Have you bought cheap tests from Amazon? I did that after spending a fortune on tests last year. I rarely test now but it helps knowing they are there.
kerry just hold your nose and drink it. It really works!
Sorry to hear about your bad day red. Would you normally have ovulated by now?
I somehow managed to waste 3 OPK's yesterday by peeing on them incorrectly. That in itself is stupid enough but then, whilst messing about, I dropped my iphone in the toilet. So that's that gone. Anyway, no ovulation yet, just lots of watery and EWCM and a bit of twinging going on this morning. Managed to dtd yesterday with plans for lots more this week. As my phone is dead, DP asked if he could put the fertility app on his phone. So he now has all the fantastically sexy details on his phone like CM consistency and cervix position. No one can say he isn't dedicated to the TTC cause anyway.

Thingymajigs Thu 21-Mar-13 11:32:47

oh and great news winkle! smile Hopefully that's the last test you'll need.

weechops Thu 21-Mar-13 11:55:47

Thingy I'm laughing at the thought of your dh reading about how your cervix feels today smile I have cervixes on the brain I think as I told dh to remember and check himself for cervical cancer. Got this look hmm. Obviously meant testicular! I'm big on self checking due to family history.

So my opk line is slightly darker so I'm hoping its a + soon since dh might need to leave tonight argh!

Red sorry you're having a rotten day. What cd are you on?

KerryJewels Thu 21-Mar-13 12:50:04

Red I do have side effects on Clomid..headaches,breast aches,nausea,hot flashes,blurry vision..luckily I don't get them all at the same timesmileWhen I ovulate it's the worst..I get horrendous hot flashes with nausea and dizziness..For a new baby I'm willing to endure this~but I sure hope it happens soon;)Next month is the last month of 50mg Clomid,then husband has to go in for SA...Then the dosage will go to 100mg..

weechops Thu 21-Mar-13 17:51:46

Just poas again and I got a smiley face smile and dh doesn't need to leave til tomorrow now so will get to DTD at the right times for once. Woo slightly excited at getting a proper shot this cycle! Looks like my wee wish for epo to bring forward ov by a day was granted smile

Alexandra6 Thu 21-Mar-13 19:42:40

Woop wee! I hope this is the shot that does it for you!

Thingymajigs Thu 21-Mar-13 20:40:37

Yay! Fingers crossed that you catch that egg. My lines are getting darker too so we might be going through that 2ww together this cycle unless soy has lengthened mine.
Another dtd and DP has really got into checking my chart. It makes it much easier now he knows the fertile times in advance.

twinklestar2 Thu 21-Mar-13 22:03:45

No sign of AF here. I'm allowing myself to get excited...

Alexandra6 Thu 21-Mar-13 22:10:13

winkle! So are you going to POAS tomorrow?

RedRobin1 Thu 21-Mar-13 22:45:21

Oooo winkle I'm so excited for you. Fx and toes too!! Are you POAS in the morning? I will be checking first thing!

thingy your DH makes mine sound saner haha. Funny how men get into the apps and trackers grin

RedRobin1 Thu 21-Mar-13 22:46:10

Go for the dtds wee sounds like perfect timing for you smile

RedRobin1 Fri 22-Mar-13 08:29:22

Any news winkle?

twinklestar2 Fri 22-Mar-13 09:39:18

I haven't tested but I do feel a little bit sick. Ihaven't been very well the last few days either. Symptoms?

Alexandra6 Fri 22-Mar-13 09:53:11

winkle I am excited for you! Do you feel dizzy/really tired? I've downloaded an app called 'what to expect' on my phone and it's telling me I shouldn't have tested until week 5 as week 4 (when AF is due) is too early?? Confusing. Anyway I am keeping everything crossed for you today

weechops Fri 22-Mar-13 10:05:21

Dtd last night and again this morning before dh went for his train. Fx

Winkle I have everything crossed so tightly for you.

WhenSheWasBadSheWasHopeful Fri 22-Mar-13 10:13:45

weechops good work on dtd

winkle fx for you

Alexandra6 Fri 22-Mar-13 10:16:05

Go wee I'm glad you managed to get another one in this morning for good luck!

Yeay for wees well timed shags and fx for winkle, what cd is this? Will you give in for a test- purley because its the weekend and you need to know if you can have alcohol as apposed to satisfying us nosey buggars

Thingymajigs Fri 22-Mar-13 13:20:02

I really hope those are pregnancy symptoms winkle. [smiile]
I got a positive OPK so hopefully I will ovulate today or tomorrow unless my hormones are still out of sync and it doesn't happen till Wednesday or something. Will dtd tonight and over the weekend just in case.

twinklestar2 Fri 22-Mar-13 14:01:36

Thx everyone. I'm on cd30 so she's due any time now. Have brought some pound shop tests so will test tomorrow morning.

Alex I don't feel dizzy just had a sniffle the last few days.

Wee - glad your oh was around for OV !

KerryJewels Fri 22-Mar-13 15:34:56

I'm only on cycle day 11 so I'm not quite there with you all yet...but I'm getting excited for everyonesmileHope this is THE month!!!!

MrsBri Fri 22-Mar-13 17:08:55

De-lurking...a slight cold was one of my symptoms winkle! I've still got it now, in fact! I'm rather hopeful for you :-)

And good luck wee. Here's to well-timed shagging.

RedRobin1 Fri 22-Mar-13 17:40:44

winkle feeling sick is a good sign! I can barely wait till you POAS!

tedmundo Fri 22-Mar-13 18:10:27

delurking and marking my place .. will log on tomorrow with all my fingers and toes crossed.

twinklestar2 Fri 22-Mar-13 21:07:49

You girls are so lovely xxxxxx

kiwi5 Fri 22-Mar-13 21:38:54

Fingers and toes crossed winkle

RedRobin1 Sat 23-Mar-13 05:32:10

Fingers and toes crossed here too... Wishing and hoping your get your bfp winkle

Alexandra6 Sat 23-Mar-13 07:43:04

winkle!! Any news yet?! First thing pee is best (and not just because I can't stand the suspense) Sniffles are a good sign!

Good news on smiley face thingy this thread is feeling lucky xx

SomeDaySoon74 Sat 23-Mar-13 10:15:36

BFN for me (10dpo). In my 2 (failed) pregnancies I had got a feint line at this stage.
Cor, this is sooooo depressing! sad wine
Hope winkle has better luck!!
At least this rules me out for a 2013 baby - I was always a bit superstitious about 2013 blush

twinklestar2 Sat 23-Mar-13 10:17:53

Bfn girls sorry

Alexandra6 Sat 23-Mar-13 10:43:13

Damn winkle and someday really gutted for you. Such a shit, shit feeling. I'm wishing you both Jan 2014 babies x

twinklestar2 Sat 23-Mar-13 10:47:10

I'll be 35 in jan. I started this process when I was 32. When will it happen?

Thingymajigs Sat 23-Mar-13 10:54:20

So sorry someday and winkle. sad
This process is so hard and cruel sometimes. At least we've got each other for support.

weechops Sat 23-Mar-13 11:10:21

Someday and winkle really sorry sad it's so so shit. X

Thingymajigs Sat 23-Mar-13 16:59:53

ugh, I am having chronic O pains today. I hate them, they are on the same level as period pains but I get dizzy with them too. Second positive OPK in a row but hopefully the last. My long LH surges always make me worry about PCOS. Anyway, I am grateful that I ovulate and should stop sulking. DP is taking care of me and I will enjoy a glass or 3 of wine tonight.
How is everyone else doing?

twinklestar2 Sat 23-Mar-13 19:30:52

I just had a breakdown. I was on Facebook and a guy I used to work with's wife is having a baby. He is in the pub every night so how is HIS sperm ok to fertilise an egg but my husbands isn't?

Thingymajigs Sat 23-Mar-13 19:45:22

It just doesn't seem fair sometimes. So sorry, hope your weekend improves a little.

twinklestar2 Sat 23-Mar-13 19:54:00

I've screamed and shouted and thrown things. I hate life sad

WhenSheWasBadSheWasHopeful Sat 23-Mar-13 21:08:43

thanks winkle. I'm really really sorry.

someday sorry about the bfn.

twinklestar2 Sat 23-Mar-13 21:21:41

I'm so angry and in so much pain sad

weechops Sat 23-Mar-13 21:40:48

Winkle I'm so so sorry you're hurting this badly. Nothing can help but just know you can let it all out here too. Xx

twinklestar2 Sat 23-Mar-13 21:59:40

My husband confessed he deleted his FB account as he couldn't bear to see everyone else having children. He's so fed up too. I don't know what to do, I'm so scared that IVF isn't going to work. I've resigned myself to it not happening naturally but what if IVF doesn't work either. It's not a guarantee.

WhenSheWasBadSheWasHopeful Sat 23-Mar-13 22:05:43

It's not a guarantee winkle but remember what your consultant said. Your situation is more likely to go well (your young and healthy).

I'm sorry it's so hard for you and your dh.

weechops Sat 23-Mar-13 22:26:36

Youre right its not a guarantee, but it does work for the majority. And when said it - you're young and healthy and there's no reason it shouldn't work for you. I'm so sorry you're going through this winkle sad

twinklestar2 Sat 23-Mar-13 22:37:32

Thx everyone. I'm just so fed up.

RedRobin1 Sun 24-Mar-13 00:46:54

winkle sad

I feel your pain. So sorry and a very big hug. Just hope we all get of this roller coaster soon. It will happen for you. I know it seems like a remote possibility on days like this but don't loose hope. It's a shit unfair process. Just think of it as life having something beautiful and special in store for us because when it does happen I know it will be the best thing in the world xxx

hmmhmmhmmthanksthanksthanks For winkle and someday

twinklestar2 Sun 24-Mar-13 10:44:42

I dreamt about IVF again last night. I ended up with a very long baby girl.

I just feel like such a failure. And to top it off I haven't lost any of the weight I promised I would for the next appt. I keep losing and gaining. I just feel rubbish!

SomeDaySoon74 Sun 24-Mar-13 13:44:49

Thank you to everyone for cheery words of support. It's very kind of you.
Aw winkle, really wish we could fast-forward to the time we all have babies! It's so difficult not knowing when, or if, it will happen, isn't it?! Sometimes it hits harder than at other times though; you mustn't beat yourself up for having rotten days when it feels all is lost and I'm sure things won't feel quite so gloomy once this shitty weather has passed. (That's what I keep telling myself anyway). You are still young enough to have options, it just may not feel like it when you're feeling blue.
I was round at my parents-in-law's house yesterday and my DH's brother and his brood came round and it was a real family day but it was so hard thinking that we may never have children for our parents /parents-in-law to dote on. We always come away with presents/toys for our cats (!!) which is very sweet but not the same as having children with doting grandparents.
Ah well, onwards and upwards. Have stocked up again on epo and opk's for next month. And the roller-coaster continues...

SomeDaySoon74 Sun 24-Mar-13 13:47:53

P.S. winkle - I'm with you on the weight thing. I just can't seem to lose any. I bought lots of clothes 1-2 sizes up when I was 3 mths preggo in Jan (just before the bad news) and annoyingly they only just fit now and I might have to go up another size! And I'm not preggo. Not good blush

twinklestar2 Sun 24-Mar-13 14:46:46

Thx someday for your lovely words. I'm mostly ok but sometimes it does hit me. Thanks for allowing me up have those moments.

Yesterday must have been hard for you. Big hugs to you. I have nieces and nephews too and it saddens me when I spend time with them.

As for the diet thing, yesterday was a good day, planning about her good day today (just making soup) and planning my meals for the week. I may as well focus on the things I can control! Why don't you join me and we can motivate each other smile

RedRobin1 Mon 25-Mar-13 02:58:19

Yes someday let's fast forward to the time when we all have kids. I understand the grand parents thing. I dream of how my mum and dad will be so happy and spoil their grand children rotten. Can't wait to see that day.

winkle you are allowed to feel that way. Big hug xx

KerryJewels Mon 25-Mar-13 21:16:55

My heart goes out to all you ladies that have been trying for a baby for so very long...prayers and love to yousmileI sent a prayer to the Lord that you all will be blessed with joy soon..I'm sorry your hearts hurt so....sad

twinklestar2 Mon 25-Mar-13 22:47:17

Thank you Kerry, I hope it works! For all of us smile

weechops Tue 26-Mar-13 12:31:06

I have lost 10lb in 5 weeks through sheer bloody willpower! winkle I know what you mean about controlling something, It makes me feel like I'm in charge over some part of my body, even if not the part I really want smile Usually I give up after a few weeks and binge on crap again, but not this time. I figure if I focus all my energy on food (or lack of) then I can't completely obsess over ttc.

Thingymajigs Tue 26-Mar-13 13:02:59

Well done weechops, that's amazing. I have started back on a diet too. I've put on a bit of extra winter weight and I want to lose it early May which is definitely doable if I avoid Easter eggs.
2dpo atm, I think this will be a long wait.

twinklestar2 Tue 26-Mar-13 22:56:46

FFS Where is AF? I'm on CD33 - wish she'd just come and put me out of my misery!

twinklestar2 Tue 26-Mar-13 22:58:00

Well done wee on the weight loss. I keep gaining and losing the same few pounds arrrrgghh. I think going to the gym is key, will sign up to the one at the end of my road and start running again.

resipsa Wed 27-Mar-13 16:50:57

How have I missed this whole thread?
Alex if you're still here, belated congrats! Wow, 1st month. Makes me reassured that the docs do know a bit about this stuff. Hope all going OK. What a present that'll be come Christmas.
Talking of which, why is it still like Christmas outside? Crazy weather.
How's everyone doing? Winkle & someday sorry to read it's been up and (more so) down for you.
Wee congrats re weight. Absolutely understand the need to focus and control something. Not eating is easy peasy compared to TTC with guaranteed results.
On CD15 here so gearing up for O. Think we're deffo on to go for IVF next month if this month is another fail. Was a bit cheered to get my AMH result of 21 which is in the satisfactory range of 15-21 and good for my age. At least the trying hasn't been in vain.
Think it's wine tonight regardless of impending O! grin

resipsa Wed 27-Mar-13 16:51:59

Correction 15-28

resipsa Wed 27-Mar-13 21:27:43

Oh God, I've killed the thread hmm

twinklestar2 Wed 27-Mar-13 21:32:49

Hi res, glad you found us smile

Pink when I wipe. She'll be here tomorrow morning. Don't know I still bother.

twinklestar2 Wed 27-Mar-13 21:34:06

It's ok you haven't killed the thread. I don't post much anymore. There's only so many ways you can say 'I've dtd at the right times' and then 'AF is here' 2 weeks later. Same shit, different month.

weechops Wed 27-Mar-13 21:54:35

Ah winkle sad

Res you didn't kill it smile

I'm 5dpo and had sore boobs for 2 days now but probably nothing. I keep saying I won't symptom spot but I can't help it.

Hoping I don't have to spend Easter Sunday with my toxic sil. Usually I do Easter lunch and the egg hunt, but dh is away just now and supposedly fil was away visiting his partners family, and I didn't want to host sil on my own with no one to dilute smile but I find out today fil will be here and he invited me over on Sunday after I told him I wasn't doing lunch. Selfish I know but I hope sil and bil don't go too. Dont know how I'll manage to talk about her pregnancy without dh for support. I sound pathetic don't I?

twinklestar2 Wed 27-Mar-13 22:08:51

No u don't, it's understandable. X

resipsa Thu 28-Mar-13 07:30:07

No, you sound normal whereas she clearly thinks of no one but herself, wee.

Talking of others' pregnancies, one more from my baby group for DD announced last week that a 2nd is on the way. And it was a "surprise", she says which I guess is the same as an accident. My guess is that my friend planned it though and the only one truly "surprised" was her DH!

Thingymajigs Thu 28-Mar-13 09:03:53

Glad to hear the results came back ok res. Hopefully you wont need that IVF appointment.
I'm 5 dpo now too wee so you are a day ahead of me. I'm trying to distract myself as much as possible.
We watched The Syndicate last night which features a fictional couple who have problems TTC and had IVF. DP mentioned that it was a good job that we have the NHS so we could have IVF but I had to say we wouldn't receive it as I had had children already, it doesn't matter that he hasn't. I said we'd just reach a stage where we stopped actively trying and just get on with our lives. He just went quiet so no idea what he thought about that eventuality. I've told him about the limited fertility options before but it never stuck obviously.

Adsum Thu 28-Mar-13 09:17:25

Hi all, fatas here again! Can't get used to me new name wink

Hi res! Oh wee I remember you telling us about your horrid sil... angry to her!

Am currently cd14 and dtd yesterday but not before so am thinking prob not this cycle! Am beginning to wonder if its even a good idea to get pg again as I'm so certain ill just end up mc-ing again...hmm

Fx for all those in the 2ww and winkle sorry to hear you're feeling she's on her way... <hug>

Adsum Thu 28-Mar-13 09:18:03

And thingy don't lose hope x

Thingymajigs Thu 28-Mar-13 09:43:10

I won't. smile There's no reason why we can't conceive so there is always a chance. DP is on a mission this month. He thinks that we should carry on every other day after O too so we are in with a very good chance. Hopefully the soy made a difference too.
Have you ovulated yet or do you not monitor it? Once is definitely all you need though so good luck to the both of you. x

Adsum Thu 28-Mar-13 10:35:41

Ah that sounds like a plan!

No I don't monitor it - I did it a couple of times and got the smiley on day 13 so I always assume its around then! Also I am so anxious anyway that its just another thing to stress about - am trying to be a bit lower key if poss - took 10 months last time so no rush!!wink

RedRobin1 Thu 28-Mar-13 13:18:04

Hi res glad you found us smile fx you don't need the ivf and have a lovely 'surprise' this month. Tbh any bfp would be a surprise now because I don't feel pregnant yet again. Expecting AF sometime next weekend. Bored of ttc.

Meeting my pregnant friend for lunch tomorrow for the first time since she announced her 'surprise' pregnancy. Not looking forward to seeing her bump. Hope Easter lunch goes quick for you wee why do we have to suffer these women hmm

Can't get used to the name either fatas ads

Thingymajigs Thu 28-Mar-13 14:10:43

I tried the low key approach too then decided to go back to OPK's and temping. No doubt I'll change again in a few months.
I've got to admit that I never felt the annoyance at pregnant women that a lot of TTC'ers express. I assumed this was because I was lucky enough to have two children already but last week I got jealous of Gloria on Modern Family when she fell pregnant by accident and she isn't even real! confused So I guess I've reached that point now. Huge sympathies for everyone who has to deal with pregnant friends and family everyday it must be so frustrating. I had no idea.
Good luck red. Hope this is your month.

twinklestar2 Thu 28-Mar-13 14:47:04

Cd1 again as predicted

RedRobin1 Thu 28-Mar-13 16:40:57

sad winkle

resipsa Thu 28-Mar-13 16:59:11

Oh joy - another pregnancy announcement at work. It'll be her third and, yes, you guessed, it was "first month lucky". Grrr. Really lovely person but, still, grrr!
Managed unexpected DTD this morning before work (only I was surprised on that one, it seems!).
In a bit of state here (particularly after the announcement) - was going to ask DM for a loan for IVF this weekend as her rates are better than the bank (!) but she's just been admitted to hospital (side effects of chemo) so I can't but we have to say yes or no next week. God, TTC makes you so self-absorbed. There she is in an infection controlled unit and all I can think of is me, me, me!

resipsa Thu 28-Mar-13 17:05:37

winkle <sigh>

RedRobin1 Thu 28-Mar-13 17:44:32

Hugs res it's totally understandable to feel that way and ttc does take over everything sad

First month lucky announcements are hard to take especially when we've been on this mill for what seems like forever. Hope you don't need that loan and get your happy announcement this month.

resipsa Thu 28-Mar-13 18:45:57

Hi Red. How're you doing?

twinklestar2 Thu 28-Mar-13 19:18:47

Oh res I really hope you ger lucky and don't need the loan.

Thingymajigs Thu 28-Mar-13 20:14:00

Sorry to hear that winkle. sad
I hope your mum gets out of hospital soon res.

WhenSheWasBadSheWasHopeful Thu 28-Mar-13 21:17:17

Quick delurk to say hi.

Sorry winkle

resipsa don't feel bad ttc completely takes over your life, I've never been more self absorbed in my life.

fatas I struggle with the new name too grin

KerryJewels Thu 28-Mar-13 21:59:29

Hi guys!On cycle day 18 today.Having some pinching pains in my ovary(the one with the tube)Let me tell you about grapefruit juice and CM...ohhhweeeemama!!!I don't want to get to descriptive but the CM is in abundance babysmileIt's AMAZING,who ever figured that out is a genius!!!Hope this is my month...and all of yours too!!!

RedRobin1 Fri 29-Mar-13 05:12:14

Apart from the usual sore boobs no other 2ww symptoms! I just know she's going to arrive again.

Fx for you both thingy and kerry

weechops Fri 29-Mar-13 07:32:24

Red same here just sore boobs. And had my usual hormonal melt down the week before AF, so pretty sure I'm out.

And I need to sit through Sunday lunch looking at my sil scan PIC. (Which she happily plastered all over fb yesterday) urgh sad

weechops Fri 29-Mar-13 07:33:14

Kerry your post made me laugh grin fingers x for you

twinklestar2 Fri 29-Mar-13 19:03:31

Eurgh not only have I got AF but its so heavy and leaky sad I can only hope it's a clear out after the HSG.

weechops Fri 29-Mar-13 19:18:19

Oh winkle sad Big hugs coming from me, and plenty of chocolate. Sod the diet for a few days x

twinklestar2 Fri 29-Mar-13 22:11:33

I have :D

RedRobin1 Sat 30-Mar-13 08:07:38

winkle I had the same after the hycosy. Late AF and very painful and heavy. Hope it finishes soon and load up on some comfort food for a few days.

How is everyone else doing today?

Thingymajigs Sat 30-Mar-13 09:27:20

I'm doing ok red. Still a week left of the 2ww. I've got a lovely weekend free where I will be drinking wine regardless of 2ww and lots of [bubiscuits] and sweets. How are you doing? Is AF due soon?

KerryJewels Sat 30-Mar-13 22:30:07

Happy Easter...God Bless 0:-) Hoping all of our dreams come true soon.Eating candy like they will stop making it..I need to STOP!!!I know it's not good to junk out while ttc but it's the holiday right?Back to the healthy stuff Mondaysmile

RedRobin1 Sun 31-Mar-13 12:04:50

Haha enjoy the candy kerry it's always good to have the occasional sugar rush.

Having a bit of a broody Easter thingy want to get my hopes up but I know there's no baby in there. AF will be here by Fri

weechops Sun 31-Mar-13 18:39:19

Happy Easter everyone smile

I may poas tomorrow. I'll be 10dpo and I am going nuts with impatience so think I may give in. My previous pregnancies have all had a super faint line at 10dpo so I am hoping and praying for one to show tomorrow. I know I'm setting myself up for crushing disappointment but I cant help it sad

Ive had sore boobs now for around 3 days. They get sorer throughout the day which gives me hope, but then when I wake up theyre not very sore at all. Then I poke them. I'm imagining all this aren't I, sigh. Some stabby pain in left lower side too today which is new. I hate this.

RedRobin1 Sun 31-Mar-13 18:51:21

Fx for you wee wishing you get your second line tomorrow!

I am also getting strangely painful and tingly sore boobs but it can't be anything other than AF arriving, can it? <sigh> when will this end!

Thingymajigs Sun 31-Mar-13 21:16:14

Good luck to the both of you. I'll check back in the morning for your update weechops.
Now you've both mentioned it I've realised I have sore boobs too. Just thinking about it seems to produce symptoms you'd never even notice normally. confused
I've had such a relaxing weekend. Lots of dtd again as all cycle so there is no way we've not tried enough. I'm sick of the hormonal spots though. I can't wait to get back on birth control after all this is done. Never thought I'd say that. Have you all had a good weekend?

twinklestar2 Sun 31-Mar-13 21:19:45

Good luck wee!

sad red

It's not been great in our house this week. My husband is really really down about not conceiving. And he can't even have a drink to take the edge off. He's such a wonderful, lovely person that it kills me to see him not happy. You are right, red, when will this nightmare end?

He's halfway through his 3 months of not drinking so I just hope it's helping.

I'm thinking of joining him on the no drinking to support him and also to see if it helps. It's also good prep for IVF.

RedRobin1 Mon 01-Apr-13 06:31:50

Started spotting sad so I won't be having a little one by Christmas this year.

She will be early this month which means I ovulated early. Thanks to grapefruit juice I am having a 28 day cycle at least.

weechops Mon 01-Apr-13 07:40:05

Aw no red sad Grapefruit juice seems to be amazing stuff!

Tested this morning and bfn. I knew it would be anyway. Try again tomorrow.

Thingymajigs Mon 01-Apr-13 09:44:14

Gah, sorry red. sad
Don't worry wee there's plenty of time yet.
Your dh is doing really well winkle. Its annoying having to give up on alcohol but as an added bonus I do find it makes losing weight much easier. I tend to bloat up 3lbs if I've had wine on a weekend. I daren't stand on the scales until Friday now.

twinklestar2 Mon 01-Apr-13 11:03:53

Sorry red sad

Good luck tomorrow wee.

Thingy - yes OH is doing really well, he is really trying everything he can for this baby, it's just not fair that its not happening.

RedRobin1 Mon 01-Apr-13 11:40:11

winkle he has done really well to give it up for so long. Keep going. Hope you see the results of it soon. Do you have another SA booked?

I am so tired and exhausted by ttc just want to get off the mill. Grrrrrrr! Really frustrated. Don't know when this will end for all of us.

weechops Mon 01-Apr-13 11:45:08

Oh god oh god oh god I think I have a bfp!!!

When I put the cheaply test in the bin I looked again and thought I saw the hint of a line so I'm just back from the weekly shop and bought a first response.

Just looked now and there is a faint, faint second pink line! Oh god I'm shaking. And I so want to believe it but I'm scared to! Ah I'm making no sense!!

Thingymajigs Mon 01-Apr-13 12:57:31

Wow wee that's amazing news! Congratulations. smile Have you got another test to use tomorrow morning?

weechops Mon 01-Apr-13 13:39:28

I bought the 2 pack cause I knew I wouldn't be able to resist testing again today. So will test again first thing tomorrow. Eek!

twinklestar2 Mon 01-Apr-13 14:25:59

Wow wee! Good luck for tomorrow morning, keep us posted!

Red - SA is in 5 weeks time, a week before our follow up appointment at the fertility hospital. I've def decided I'm going to not drink to support him. I should have done it from the beginning but he said not to. But now it's really getting to him so I'm going to help and support him.

RedRobin1 Mon 01-Apr-13 19:24:00

Wow that's fantastic wee fx for a stronger line tomorrow.
I want to be in the same place as you - staring at a second pink line sad sorry for becoming terribly broody, my CP due date is next Monday and no sign of a bfp yet.

winkle you are so right to support him right now. It will be the extra push he needs to stay motivated. Fx you don't need that appt in 5weeks.

KerryJewels Mon 01-Apr-13 20:32:34

Congratulations Wee!!!I'm at the beginning of the 2ww...hope I get that BFP too;)What a wild ride this is......

weechops Tue 02-Apr-13 06:49:27

Just tested there and the line is fainter than yesterday. Is that a bad sign do you think or does it not matter? My emotions are all over the place. Trying so hard not to get my hopes up but it's hard.

Thingymajigs Tue 02-Apr-13 08:27:37

I think it might take a couple of days to get noticeably darker. Could you ask for a blood test to check your levels maybe? I know they are big on that in the US but I think here doctors tend to ignore pregnancies until the 12th week.
I tested this morning at 10dpo because I've had very sore breasts for a few days and got a negative. Not surprising at all. I think I would go into shock if I ever actually got a positive test.

weechops Tue 02-Apr-13 10:48:49

Thanks thingy I just tested again on the same brand as yesterday and the line is much darker, so I feel better now smile Fx it sticks this time.

twinklestar2 Tue 02-Apr-13 13:25:57

Congrats wee! Fab news! Lets hope it rubs off on to the rest of us smile

resipsa Tue 02-Apr-13 17:01:02

Wee CONGRATS!

Try to enjoy, not worry (but easier written on MN than done, I know).

Quick test - yup, I'm definitely jealous grin

RedRobin1 Tue 02-Apr-13 19:25:14

Congrats wee it will be a sticky one this time. It has to be!

RedRobin1 Tue 02-Apr-13 19:26:48

Sorry about bfn thingy maybe it's too early yet at 10dpo.

Adsum Tue 02-Apr-13 20:43:19

Ooh congrats wee! Fx it's a sticky bean x

Adsum Tue 02-Apr-13 20:44:55

Maybe if I started posting again regularly people might not forget who I am! wink

Am about 5dpo ish... It's such a looong wait!

Fx thingy - it's early days yet x

KerryJewels Tue 02-Apr-13 21:47:23

Really am very excited for you Wee;) Best wishes for a healthy pregnancy!!!

resipsa Tue 02-Apr-13 22:26:03

Ah,red just read down a bit past wee's news. Sorry about AF and the impending date to try to forget. I remember so wanting a BFP before mine so I wouldn't have to think about it. Chin up. It'll come right soon.

resipsa Tue 02-Apr-13 22:26:55

And fatas no one forgets you! wink

Adsum Tue 02-Apr-13 22:32:03

Ah thanks res! I second what you said about wanting a bfp before the due date (again!) - often the wretched bfp is the kind of thing which happens when you are least expecting/hoping for it so it is particularly elusive and frustrating...
Am sorry too red <hugs>

twinklestar2 Tue 02-Apr-13 22:41:05

Hello again adsum!

I've joined the assisted conception thread on here and ordered the Zita West book about IVF. I have 6 weeks before we go back to the Fertility Clinic. I might as well spend the time getting my body ready for IVF so I'm healthy and ready.

resipsa Tue 02-Apr-13 22:46:01

Hi winkle. Think we're going for it too next cycle. Yikes.

twinklestar2 Tue 02-Apr-13 23:10:03

Are you doing anything to prepare for it? Come and join me on the other thread if you like? It's called 'excellent egg buddies'.

Thingymajigs Wed 03-Apr-13 07:10:52

We haven't forgotten you ad! It is such a long wait, it never gets much easier. Fingers crossed for you this cycle. I'm 11dpo and another BFN. Not sure why I'm testing this time but I guess, why not?
Good luck to those moving on to IVF. I hope you get your BFP's very soon.

weechops Wed 03-Apr-13 07:37:46

Good luck winkle and res.

Red really sorry about the hard day coming up sad

twinklestar2 Wed 03-Apr-13 09:20:45

sad for BFNS thingy

Adsum Wed 03-Apr-13 20:48:35

Sorry for bfn thingy but you know the drill - it ain't over blah blah!

winkle shouldn't it be 'eggcellent egg buddies'?!

twinklestar2 Wed 03-Apr-13 20:49:35

That's actually what the thread is called ad grin

Adsum Wed 03-Apr-13 21:15:12

Oh right! Oops - prob should have actually checked the thread before trying to witty blush

resipsa Thu 04-Apr-13 08:17:46

How's everyone today?

Wee?

RedRobin1 Thu 04-Apr-13 10:37:53

Goodluck res hope you get your bfp soon.

winkle still have my fx for you - hope you don't need that appt in a few weeks.

Thanks everyone. Feeling okay now.

wee how you doing? Hoping to join you soon on the grads thread smile

weechops Thu 04-Apr-13 11:27:27

Hey I'm ok thanks. Haven't tested again grin and I feel sick constantly. Yay haha!

Need to go pay for my holiday tomorrow so we will be totally skint for a week. Ah well will be worth it to get some sun. And this year I won't feel so self conscious about my wobbly bits because ill ( hopefully) hand a bump!

Grannyapple Thu 04-Apr-13 12:24:04

Hello ladies...I'm a grad of the other thread bust had a catch up & wanted to say a HUGE CONGRATULATIONS to both alex & wee - great stuff smile
Fx for others on the dreaded 2ww & up coming appts, hoping you don't need them!

Is feckin snowing here shock....wtf?!

twinklestar2 Thu 04-Apr-13 15:42:42

I'm ok, on cd8 so gearing up for pointless shag week. I swing between hope and despair.

Adsum Thu 04-Apr-13 17:19:13

On cd21 here and I'm not sure whether my mild cramps are early period pains or the large portion of French onion soup I guzzles earlier... Hmmm...
Don't lose hope winkle just concentrate on the ivf and something might happen accidentally iykwim?! Will keep fx for you <hug>

Adsum Thu 04-Apr-13 17:20:45

*guzzled

twinklestar2 Thu 04-Apr-13 18:16:46

I resigned myself to it not happening naturally ages ago but I'm still really scared about IVF. It's not the easy option, from what I've been reading its hard on your mind, body and relationship. It's really scary.

weechops Thu 04-Apr-13 21:26:59

Hi grannyapple smile thank you.

Winkle you sound like such a strong person and I'm positive that you and your dh can face anything together.

Just a wee story but my friend had one round of ivf and needed another. They were all set to go for round 2 when she fell pregnant naturally! After trying for I think 3 years. She is now pg with number 3 again naturally smile
It will happen for you one way or another.

weechops Thu 04-Apr-13 21:28:50

Reading that back I don't know if I sounded flippant or insensitive. I didn't mean it to come across like that if it did, sorry winkle x

twinklestar2 Thu 04-Apr-13 21:45:39

Wee - me and my oh are really really strong, you are right there. We had a talk about my fears tonight, it's scary being in our situation. That's good news for your friend, I hope that's me soon.

twinklestar2 Thu 04-Apr-13 23:22:22

I read this on babycentre. Thought you'd understand this red:

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better. I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.

i have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me. I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life. Yes I will be a wonderful mother.

RedRobin1 Fri 05-Apr-13 05:08:12

That was lovely winkle thanks - needed to read something to help me stay motivated. I am so tired and frustrated by all of it. And same as you wrote earlier I am starting to see ttc as pointless shag weeks with no joy at the end of it.

I hope as wee said you don't need the ivf. But IF it doesn't happen (it's a big IF) naturally we will always be here to support you. It's a scary path winkle but I know at the end of it all we will all become excellent and loving mums to our long awaited babies.

RedRobin1 Fri 05-Apr-13 05:08:12

That was lovely winkle thanks - needed to read something to help me stay motivated. I am so tired and frustrated by all of it. And same as you wrote earlier I am starting to see ttc as pointless shag weeks with no joy at the end of it.

I hope as wee said you don't need the ivf. But IF it doesn't happen (it's a big IF) naturally we will always be here to support you. It's a scary path winkle but I know at the end of it all we will all become excellent and loving mums to our long awaited babies.

RedRobin1 Fri 05-Apr-13 05:08:57

Oops posted twice accidentally!

Adsum Sat 06-Apr-13 16:08:17

Oh dear the POAS addiction resurfaces... POAS at 9dpo - BFN surprise surprise!! blush

weechops Sat 06-Apr-13 16:21:52

Naught ads ! smile Do it again tomorrow though smile

twinklestar2 Sat 06-Apr-13 18:58:51

Good luck for tomorrow, ad.

Thingymajigs Sat 06-Apr-13 19:30:36

Good luck ads.

Adsum Sun 07-Apr-13 01:04:48

Ah thanks all, but I have no sticks to pee on now and also can feel af on her way so will try and hold out for a bit longer to see if when she shows up! (am saving up for next month ��!)

Hope everyone's well? Who's POAS soon?

Thingymajigs Sun 07-Apr-13 09:27:02

AF is here. No pains yet so I'm not too cross with it. I am however beyond annoyed with the hormonal spots that have invaded my face. Its been months now and its making me miserable. Part of me wants to give up and go on birth control so I can feel like me again. Relatives ask if I'm eating enough or if I'm ill because my face is so blemished. I have never suffered with acne before in my life. sigh
At least I can go back to my GP in May and request more blood tests because I'm pretty sure I have some obvious PCOS symptoms.
Here endeth my CD1 rant.
How's everyone else doing? This thread has become so quiet.

Adsum Sun 07-Apr-13 10:45:06

I second the wish to go back on the pill! Since I came off it I have been similar with spots- it's very annoying! I still feel pre-af pains so am not hopeful this month but in a way don't really care! I'm sure ill wake up tomorrow feeling different but will enjoy this feeling for the day if I can smile

twinklestar2 Sun 07-Apr-13 11:36:57

Sorry she got you thingy. How long have you been trying this time round?

Thingymajigs Sun 07-Apr-13 13:28:23

I hope they aren't AF pains ads. I like to enjoy that time before AF too. I don't like to test around that time because I like feeling like I could be pregnant even for just an extra day or two. Fingers are crossed for you.
This will be month 11 now winkle. I used to wonder how people coped with trying for this long but now I know. You just carry on because the only alternative is to stop.
I feel a bit better now. I can't wear make-up because of my skin but I can put on a bit of mascara, put on a dress and do my hair, which I have. I feel a bit more like me. I'm going to try a low sugar/carb diet for a month to see if it helps my skin and the (possible) PCOS symptoms. I always fail when I attempt this but I need another focus for a bit.

Thingymajigs Sun 07-Apr-13 13:36:21

Oh, I'm really sorry if that comes off as insensitive. I realise some people have been trying for years and I've barely begun compared to others. I think I just needed to get my frustration out before DP gets back from the stag do in a bit. He was so sure this was our month.

Adsum Sun 07-Apr-13 13:49:34

It took 10 months after my first mmc only to have another one so technically it's been 14 months now so I totally feel your pain, but I feel even less able to complain because I have a ds already!

It is so personal - time doesn't matter per se it's the effect it has on the individual/couple - you aren't insensitive! It's such an individual thing and anyone who has had to try like you/we all have does to an extent feel a bit selfish because it is all about you! It can't be about anyone else anyway! You need some tlc today xxx

Adsum Sun 07-Apr-13 13:50:22

Oh that sounds a bit preachy! Sorry hmm

Adsum Sun 07-Apr-13 18:53:22

REALLY sorry!!!! blushblushblush

twinklestar2 Sun 07-Apr-13 22:33:13

I'm dieting too, so we can do it together thingy smile

RedRobin1 Mon 08-Apr-13 07:54:50

Hugs thingy sorry about AF arriving. Agree with ads - it doesn't matter how long you have been trying or even if you already have kids - anyone who has been ttc will feel a whole wide range of emotions and is allowed to feel that way.

I will join the dieting club too winkle have gorged on so much food last month - need to really do something about my bingo wings.

twinklestar2 Mon 08-Apr-13 11:42:48

Red did AF arrive?

As for dieting I have a few weeks till my appt and ill be gutted if I don't get to my target or at least near to me target. ESP as I've been using ttc as an excuse not to diet for the last two years (thinking oh ill get fat anyway!)

Adsum Mon 08-Apr-13 12:13:43

winkle that's EXACTLY what I've been doing - puttin it off again and again with the same thoughts... But now the time has come! angry

Thingymajigs Mon 08-Apr-13 12:53:39

Thanks everyone. You are all so lovely. I'm feeling much better now.
I started to use TTC as an excuse too and now my clothes are getting a bit tight. I've decided to cut out as much of the unnecessary carbs as I can so I've bought some salad greens to eat instead of rice or potatoes with my meals which is a start anyway. And I've changed our meal plan to reduce red meat so our meals are predominately poultry and fish based now. Good luck to everyone trying to lose weight. We can do it! smile
Btw, I have heard in the news that l-carnitine has been found to be the reason why red meats are so unhealthy. I realised this morning that Wellman conception contains an amount of that nutrient so I have cancelled my future Amazon orders. Current advice is not to take Carnitine in supplement form if you're a meat eater. Just thought I'd let you all know. Any ideas as to which vitamin we could switch to?

Adsum Mon 08-Apr-13 18:09:36

<sigh> another bfn today and lots of quite bad period pains - grrr! Well it took 10 months last time so I'm not sure why I'm surprised! I hate TTC!!

Thingymajigs Mon 08-Apr-13 18:59:30

DP has said he's not bothered about the vitamin so we are sticking with Wellman afterall.
Sorry to hear that ads. I know the feeling, its getting to me too. I hope your OH is around to pamper you for a while.

RedRobin1 Mon 08-Apr-13 19:47:48

I hate ttc too. AF did arrive winkle

Today is my CP due date and my best friend had a baby girl yesterday. Lots of messages on her fb congratulating her and I am just bawling my eyes out wishing that would have been me today. I am happy for her but really can't stop wishing it was me.

Just want to be pregnant so I can just get out of this rut. It's so cruel I am feeling so lost today sad

twinklestar2 Mon 08-Apr-13 19:52:28

Sorry ad sad

Oh red, I wish I could jump through the screen and give you a big hug. This process is too cruel. Be kind to yourself tonight xxx

RedRobin1 Mon 08-Apr-13 21:16:38

I had a big slice of cheesecake and I still feel like crap. Just want all of this to be over. Going to try harder this month but I am all out of hope.
Sorry for sad posts but having a very bad day and don't know where else to vent my frustration.

KerryJewels Mon 08-Apr-13 21:47:32

Five days until AF arrives...feels like she might.If I didn't get pregnant this month I don't know when I will..we did it almost everyday..on ovulation days twice a day!!!My hubs sperm must be taking the long road to no where!!April is the final month of trying and then the dreaded sperm analysis..Just don't understand!!!Although this is only month four-I am 38,with PCOS,one tube,and a history of not conceiving easily...it still feels like forever!!!Due to the Clomid my ovaries have been quite sore too..don't know how much longer they will take this.It's very hard to be positive when every month it's just disappointmentsadHoping for the best for everyone else!!!!And who knows..I could be wrong about this month..we shall see!!!

twinklestar2 Mon 08-Apr-13 21:50:26

We all seem very down at the moment don't we. We need some good news soon.

I'm on cd12 and the monitor has gone to high so I'll be dtd. It's my second wedding anniversary tomorrow so feeling sad about not having a baby's I really thought I'd be planning my second by how, instead I'm still wondering whether I'll ever get my first,

Adsum Tue 09-Apr-13 06:16:09

Yes we all need a virtual glass of wine together to cheer ourselves up! I have the day from hell at work today so really dreading it and have woken up with lots of low back pain period pains - am more upset about all that than the fact af is on its way!!

Am sorry to hear again about friends babies and due dates - it's impossible to just get on with things when you have those kinds of reminders to deal with. We get good at the 'congrats with a brave smile' thing don't we?!

I am sending us all a massive virtual hug and a g&t! X

RedRobin1 Tue 09-Apr-13 06:39:09

We def need a virtual cocktail drinking session ads

I am going to be away from DH again during the week for work. So haven't got a hope in hell of timing it for OV / will just have to see if the weekend shags work or not.

winkle I hear you sad hope you have a short wait for your second - you will have your first soon. It will happen. Virtual hugs all around.

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 07:43:03

Hi guys. Sorry to read that everyone is a bit down but I'm not the one to cheer you up as the absence of success is really getting to me today.

Sorry too red re yesterday. It's horrible and if you mention it to people, most give you some sympathetic words but you can almost hear them thinking "erm, you need to move on".

Went out for dinner on Saturday. Out of 11 of us, there were 6 pregnants (all with DC already). No getting away from it.

Think my body is reacting to the stress of various things as no +ve OPK until CD 26. It's gonna be a long haul.

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 07:46:43

Ads hope your day goes well and quickly.

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 07:53:00

Been reading what I missed. We are all down and the one thing that would cheer us all up is the thing we can't achieve! Grr.

Just had another thought. It was a year ago today that I stopped bleeding after my ERPC so we've been at it a year. Depressing. And that doesn't take into account the 5 months to get to the last failed time.

Thingymajigs Tue 09-Apr-13 07:53:26

We are all so down. Maybe its the time of year or something. I certainly need a break. A nice holiday, cocktails, sandy beaches.. Well, I can dream. A close second will be our holiday in Cornwall in August. smile I think a bit of sunshine would help us a little and one of us to get some good news of course.
I have come very close to telling DP I want to stop trying. In fact I was awake until 3am thinking about it and how its affecting my well being. I'm pretty sure its just the disappointment getting to me though. Decided to ignore it until my hormones have settled a bit after AF.
kerry I hope she doesn't arrive. You've definitely dtd enough anyway! I find it quite frustrating when I've dtd every day and there's no way we could have timed it incorrectly, it just seems to raise the hopes even more.

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 08:00:37

Oh no - just seen Leen's post re m/c too. Life is shit.

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 08:02:28

Sorry thingy x post. You try to be a little positive and I wade in again!

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 08:09:26

Know how you feel re thinking about giving up trying. I have the thought process every week but as soon as I see anyone with 2 kids (particularly two under 5s playing together), I know that I can't.

Only thing that has made me smile recently on the TTC front is Halle Berry. You go, girl. And it took her a while.

twinklestar2 Tue 09-Apr-13 09:18:31

Oh gosh we all sound so down, I really hope we all get the good news we deserve soon.

Thingy - I've tried all the dtd combos over the many many months of ttc (every day, every other day, throughout whole month, waiting till OV day, etc) and still NOTHING! You are right it's soooooo frustrating when you know you've done everything right.

I had high hopes for the cycle and now I'm in panic mode sad I brought the Zita West book yesterday and it said to dtd every 2-3 days to keep sperm fresh or the first two times of dtd in a new cycle are just dead sperm. OH and I haven't dtd in weeks and now I feel like our chance this month is slim sad

Does anyone else dtd all month? I have done in the past but to be honest we get bored of dtd all the time! You know the saying too much of a good thing?!

twinklestar2 Tue 09-Apr-13 09:20:50

Also, talking of giving up trying I thought I was ok about never having a baby and was starting to think about life just me and OH and then I saw on FB a few weeks back that someone was pregnant and it completely floored me. I was a mess all weekend, I didn't even leave the house.

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 09:22:49

I'm with you on that! Expected O around the weekend of 30 March so started the week before that evert 1-2 days and have only just stopped. Had row after last night's efforts cause the DTD definitely strayed into automatic, TTC mode. Romance is dead in out house today!

twinklestar2 Tue 09-Apr-13 09:25:35

I'm at the beginning of my fertile period (cd13) and could kick myself for not dtd yet. In my defence oh has been ill - we were supposed to start last night but we didn't.

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 09:39:09

I think the sad thing is that the longing would never cease. I have a friend who is mid-40s and had multiple late m/carriages. She now accepts that she will never have kids but still longs for them so much so that when strangers ask her if she has them, she says yes and makes up their names and ages. Funny but sad too.

twinklestar2 Tue 09-Apr-13 12:54:46

Oh res that is sad

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 13:39:09

Only she finds it funny when she tells people about what she does; we just feel for her.

resipsa Tue 09-Apr-13 17:41:22

Oh, I really did kill the thread with that tale!

RedRobin1 Tue 09-Apr-13 21:09:06

That was an awfully sad story res I fear I might go that loopy one day. I am so broody right now-I can't even be 2 feet close to a baby without feeling sad.

I have decided to try and be cheerful but I don't know something doesn't feel right - maybe it's the weather but I just don't want to be happy right now. Just want to be moody, angry and sad and throw a tantrum till I get my bfp

<sigh!> what is ttc doing to me!

twinklestar2 Wed 10-Apr-13 09:27:45

Morning everyone.

Me and OH had a lovely anniversary dinner last night. We both talked about how we hope it's the last one just the two of us and this time next year we hope there are 3 of us. Hell if we have IVF there might even be 4 of us!

I have to confess we shared a bottle of Prosecco even though OH isn't supposed to be drinking. But we figured 3 champagne glasses of fizz in 12 weeks can't hurt and the wedding anniversary was a good excuse.

Plus we dtd smile

Mythreeknights Wed 10-Apr-13 09:42:27

Well done twinkle I'm positive you will be surrounded by at least one screaming baby this time next year :-)

resipsa Wed 10-Apr-13 09:51:46

Hi winkle that sounds like a lovely end to the day all round. A bottle of prosecco is definitely not going to affect your DH one way or the other and am impressed that he has kept off the booze for so long.

Out of interest, if you get to it (and fx you won't need to), will you have 1 or 2 embies put in? I think I'm gonna say 2 which is what they say is OK for old hags like me but what if it did result in twins? Not sure we could cope (yeah, yeah, I know we would but the prospect is a bit shock)

KerryJewels Wed 10-Apr-13 10:56:04

Happy Anniversary Twinklesmile

Thingymajigs Wed 10-Apr-13 11:14:32

Happy Anniversary twinkle/winkle which name would you prefer? I keep getting confused.
Hugs to red. We all seemed to get down at once. I feel as though I might have triggered everyone off with my AF induced rant over the weekend. It's understandable that this process is going to make us cross, upset and frustrated which we have every right to feel like that but we can get through it and we will eventually succeed. I'm feeling much better now and have realised that giving up is not an option. The "what ifs" would be just too great and DP would so love to be called Dad one day.
How is everyone doing with the weight loss/healthy eating changes? I've been pretty good this week so far at cutting back my portions but I did sneak myself a bit of homemade flat bread yesterday with my dinner. Its just too tempting. I'm not weighing myself till next week though.

twinklestar2 Wed 10-Apr-13 23:20:42

Twinkle/winkle either or. I don't mind. We're all friends here smile. I'm doing ok on the diet (apart from my lovely meal out yesterday). I've been running too.

Res - oh and I discussed this and we would go for 2 to be put back in. I'd love twins! In fact I've already convinced myself I'm going to have IVF, it will work first time and ill end up with twins. Have thought about how I would tell my mum and even know thier names blush. OH wants to call then Sheila E and Cat after the girls in Prince's band grin

resipsa Thu 11-Apr-13 09:18:28

grin

The cultural reference will be lost on them when they're tween/teens!

RedRobin1 Thu 11-Apr-13 22:06:07

Happy Anniversary winkle 3 glasses of fizz is nothing in 12 weeks! You both deserve a treat smile Here's praying all your dreams come true next year and there's def 3 or even 4 of you!

I have given up all hope of conceiving right now. Work is just too demanding and I don't know what the effects of working all these hours will be on my body. I have had to stay in late at work till 10pm 3 days in a row. Start at 8am sad I know! I know! I just hope it hasn't pushed ovulation back or affected it. I haven't done these hours ever before. Got a busy week till OV day next week. Don't know if I hve already screwed up my chances.

twinklestar2 Thu 11-Apr-13 22:12:55

Thx red smile

Work sounds hectic, hope it calms down soon for you!

resipsa Fri 12-Apr-13 18:08:14

Hi red. Sounds stressful. Don't want to add to it but I had mad 2 weeks at work pre-predicted O date and kept testing...and testing. End result was that O delayed by a week.

Adsum Fri 12-Apr-13 19:09:03

Cd1 angry

Going to have plenty of winewine tonight and hope that this month we can be a bit more proactive!!

Ps I think stress can really affect cycle, but probably some more than others! I say go and have a relaxing massage after next dtd and hopefully relaxation will provoke ov!!! wink

RedRobin1 Fri 12-Apr-13 22:07:37

Sorry ads gutted for you. Hope next cycle is our lucky one!!!

I am going out drinking tomorrow night.

I drink less these days so I am worried I am going to get tipsy very quick. Will have to line my stomach! Going to be a long night with cocktails winelooking forward to it actually.

twinklestar2 Fri 12-Apr-13 23:35:36

So sorry ad sad

RedRobin1 Sat 13-Apr-13 12:06:26

How is everyone doing today? Any plans for the weekend?

I had a broody morning obsessing over due dates if we conceive this month. Like that's ever going to happen. <sigh>! Bring on the cocktails.

Adsum Sat 13-Apr-13 18:37:59

I'm a bit hmm today actually - I know we won't conceive this month as we are going away on hols (yay!) with some friends and DH isn't the crafty shag with people next door type, so I will have to be extra aggressive seductive in my efforts this month!! I'm not really able to bother being more pushy as just don't see the point any more - even if we do get a bfp we'll just lose it again anyway!

Gosh I sound depressed!! I'm not really, just a bit whingy and fed up but then maybe ill be less hungover tomorrow and more positive!! wink

twinklestar2 Sat 13-Apr-13 22:41:02

I feel <sigh> too red as this is the last month I can conceive to give birth before I'm 35. 35??!?! I started this journey when I was 32. <double sigh>.

Ad - I hate days like that when you feel like all hope is a lost. But please take comfort in the fact that you CAN conceive and IT WILL happen again. Big hugs if you need it.

I'm in the middle of shag week here. Have dtd twice already and need to go again tonight.

Funny/weird thing happened to me the other day. A guy stopped me to ask me for directions. He looked like one of those indian spirtiual guys wearing beads round his hands and feet. I gave him directions and he started talking to me. We had a brief convo and then he said to me that I had a lucky face and to expect some good news in July! I dont usually believe in stuff like that but I'm willing to try anything after all these months!

RedRobin1 Sun 14-Apr-13 01:26:34

winkle totally understand....I am willing to believe anything to do with getting a bfp.

Even started stroking those fertility statue pics (see thread in Conception on 'experiments') in the hope that we get a bfp this month. I keep bumping into people who keep asking me if I have any kids or when will I have some. And just put on a brave face�� today someone congratulated my mil on becoming a grandma as SIL gave birth few months back and this lady said 'ah it must be so nice at least one of your daughter in laws has made you a grandma'

I just wanted to burst into tears at that point. I don't know what I have done wrong to deserve this cruel cruel torture. Just want to be a mum sad

Sorry you are having a bad day ads I hope you can successfully seduce DH on holiday - maybe have a sneaky shag while others are in the pool or away from the hotel. That way no one hears next door. You won't loose your baby again. Keep faith.

KerryJewels Sun 14-Apr-13 01:57:03

Hi everyone!!!I was going to go on about how I'm supposed to start today...and how this PCOS and ovary deal has totally got me down but I suppose all of that does no good..Probably because AF is due and I'm feeling a bit depressed(like you all)is the reason I'm so weepysadI hate feeling this way...what an idiot..I already have two kids when some have none and have been trying forever..so selfish.I can't seem to help it though...I'm just hoping for happier times for us all I guess...that we all might get that BFP.

Adsum Sun 14-Apr-13 10:19:48

Thanks all, I hope today will be a little better for all of us although the depressing weather doesn't really help does it?!

Am excited to be going on holiday so that is the main thing! It will happen for all of us - all the jibes and thoughtless comments are horrible red - I suppose one day you will be able to look back and sort if smile as you hug your 7 children to your bosom winkwinkwink - I guess we are supposed to say its character building (but only if you don't stab the person saying it!!!)

twinklestar2 Sun 14-Apr-13 13:00:36

I've been stroking that pic every day red! What a thoughtless comment, I would have felt teary too. sad

KerryJewels Sun 14-Apr-13 18:28:32

On cycle day 34 and she still isn't here...I know she's coming due to my weepy,emotional state!!I am feeling better today thoughsmileIt isn't unusual to be late due to that awful PCOS-always keeps me guessing!!!Hope everyone is having a lovely Sunday!!!Take care friends....

twinklestar2 Sun 14-Apr-13 23:20:27

Argh Kerry, really hope she stays away and you're weepy and hormonal due to being pregnant!

I've been reading a lot of blogs about IVF and I found this post which I really loved and wanted to share with you all. Red I think you'll be able to relate to this:

''I had a bit of a low day today and felt like I needed to write again! I'm angry and hurting today, everything feels unfair. If only we had 'YOU', our little precious one, we are overflowing with love and affection and at the moment it just feels wasted because YOU are not here.

Everything is starting to move forwards quickly now. I keep thinking about the start of my cycle, will I get enough eggies? Will they find suitable swimmers? Will we achieved fertilisation? But most of all will we ever have YOU? If I think about inside my body, part of YOU could potentially already be there waiting for daddy to make YOU whole. When I think about that, I get soooo excited.

At the moment I feel like I eat, breathe, sleep IVF. Its a nice feeling in many ways because I think that YOU are potentially nearly getting ready for me to nurture YOU and guide YOU through the stages of pregnancy. Then I get sad because we may never meet YOU :`(

We talk about YOU all the time and we get scared a lot. What we already know is, we have sooo much love for YOU and hope that we have the luck that we need to be a mummy and daddy.

Close friends are moving through their pregnancy and I talk to them about how they are feeling and what stage their baby is developing at. I want to be a supportive friend and I don't want to be a martyr but deep down I just yearn to feel YOU in my tummy. I want to love YOU unconditionally and give YOU everything YOU need.

We have so many wonderful people in our lives & they have helped us a lot. We always seem to tag along on family events but it always feels like something is missing.... And that's YOU! No matter how hard I try not to think about YOU, I just can't help it. That is why I know YOU are going to come along one day & as your mummy I will never stop thinking of YOU.

I hope we can meet soon.... YOU will make me & daddy complete!''

twinklestar2 Mon 15-Apr-13 09:04:11

CD19 and my monitor just peaked which is very late for me. We have dtd cd13, 15 and 18 so far so we are covered.

KerryJewels Mon 15-Apr-13 15:19:24

That was beautiful twink....BFN,Although I already knew,I let myself get excited again to fall hard back to reality..I've never had to try before,my daughters just happened.This is so very hardsadNow waiting for AF to begin,last month of Clomid before the SA,that my husband does not want to do...and I don't know that he will.....

twinklestar2 Mon 15-Apr-13 23:39:54

I'm sorry Kerry sad

I'm feeling crap today too. Have just dtd and I cried afterwards. I'm tired, I have a stomach ache and I didn't want to have sex but I had to in case this happens to be the one that gets me pregnant. So sick of this.

RedRobin1 Tue 16-Apr-13 21:17:08

Sorry kerry sad don't know what to say - its all such an emotional roller coaster but lately we also seem to be going down on it

* winkle* that post made me well up! So lovely to read that. Thanks x

Hope your stomach ache goes away and you feel better soon. Dtd sucks right now as we both feel so demotivated and hopeless.

KerryJewels Wed 17-Apr-13 00:25:39

Cycle day 1...a new chance to try all over againsmile

twinklestar2 Wed 17-Apr-13 23:13:33

Managed to dtd last night without crying yaay me hmm

resipsa Thu 18-Apr-13 11:00:39

Hey, small victories still need to be celebrated!

Well, I come on for a moan as usual. Was REALLY hoping this was our month as it's off to the IVF clinic if not. Bloody body decided not to give me a +ve OPK until CD26 meaning AF due on 20 April. Was going to wit for CD1 before shelling out £1,000 for the IVF drugs to start on CD2. So yesterday, I have some spotting and thought, well, AF will arrive tomorrow instead. A bit early but I am all over the place it seems so not to worry. Woke up today - nothing. Then at 9, some spotting. Just now, nothing. What the hell? I don't usually spot before AF, she just arrives. Is this CD1 or not? Grrr. Can't even get assisted conception right!

Adsum Thu 18-Apr-13 18:20:31

Ooh res - implantation bleed????! Sounds a definite possibility!! Fx for you! smile

twinklestar2 Thu 18-Apr-13 18:25:06

Could it be that implantation bleed we've all heard about?

KerryJewels Thu 18-Apr-13 18:47:52

Sounds like good news!!! Oh please let it besmile

RedRobin1 Thu 18-Apr-13 19:30:11

Fingers cross res its the good kind of red bleed.

I feel like lately thats all my posts have been doing - big fat moaning!
So I thought I'd share my weirdly horny dream last night blush It all started of with me and DH doing dtd, next thing I was having a three-some with my best mate and then it turned it a four-some with my best mate's DH. Oh dear lord! I will never be able to look them straight in the eye.

Oh and I had a +ve OPK yesterday and....funnily enough I slept after watching Bride Wars... so maybe that explains it hmm

Adsum Thu 18-Apr-13 22:21:22

Lol at red!!
That's so strange because I had a very inappropriate dream last night about a male friend of mine - we have quite a flirty relationship but I would never actually do anything - since the dream I have been feeling so guilty!!! It was quite a vivid dream... grin blush

twinklestar2 Thu 18-Apr-13 22:54:12

I always have rude dreams around OV!!

Adsum Fri 19-Apr-13 08:58:49

Oh no! Maybe have missed the dtd boat this month then?! Am only on cd7!!!

Thingymajigs Fri 19-Apr-13 14:28:31

oh, I hope that's implantation bleeding res. smile
I got a positive OPK today so we are matching this month red. My cycles are now dead on 28 days with ovulation on cd14 which makes charting much easier. This is my last go before going back to the doctor for more tests.

RedRobin1 Fri 19-Apr-13 16:38:14

Haha ads and *winkle good to know its not just me!

res any news? What cd are you on?

Yay I have a cycle buddy thingy grin

Feeling very desperate now to be a mum. Saw a mother and baby swimming session the other day at the gym. I was staring so wishfully I bet I looked like a paedo hmm so so so broody now. Just want to hold my own baby and give it endless cuddles and lots and lots of love.

twinklestar2 Sat 20-Apr-13 16:20:08

Me too red. I'm so jealous of anyone with a bump and on this lovey sunny day I keep thinking what I would be doing if I had a baby.

resipsa Sat 20-Apr-13 19:45:27

Hi guys. Hope you are all OK (aside from the obvious). I drafted a long post yesterday but lost it and didn't have the energy to redraft.

Thanks for your kind words after my last moan but it wasn't implantation bleeding, just AF arriving 2 days earlier than expected. My body has been less reliable this month than at any time since I began being aware of my cycles (circa Jan 2009!).

Gonna post and carry on with another to avoid yesterday's disaster.

resipsa Sat 20-Apr-13 19:50:50

Anyway, am now on Day 2 of my IVF stimulation drugs and feel like crap. Not sure if you lot will want to hear about the details. Let me know. I won't be offended if you don't cause the whole concept is a bit last resort and you might not want to read about it. I've dallied with the other threads devoted to it but they are WAY too intense.

The terror/delight is that I will know one way or the other if it's worked in the next 4 weeks. Ecstasy or deep depression guaranteed.

twinklestar2 Sat 20-Apr-13 22:06:58

Good luck res I really hope it works for you. No reason why it shouldn't. You've actually answered a question for me I've been meaning to ask. I was wondering how long the process takes. Good to hear its only a month.

KerryJewels Sun 21-Apr-13 12:24:06

Best of luck with IVF Res...I would like to hear about it.I take 50 mg of Clomid and it throws me through some hoops throughout the month.This last AF I was hurting so badly I thought my ovary might explode,which I'm sure is due to cysts.That probably explains why I'm not getting pregnant..but who knows.I'm very excited for you....

RedRobin1 Sun 21-Apr-13 16:39:55

res please tell me what your IVF journey is like. Like winkle I am amazed to know its as fast as having a miracle in a month. And yes you will have pure ecstasy and happiness in a month. PMA smile

Fingers crossed for you

WhenSheWasBadSheWasHopeful Sun 21-Apr-13 18:19:15

Delurking to say very best of luck res

MrsBri Sun 21-Apr-13 19:03:53

Me too...good luck res, I'll be keeping my fingers firmly crossed.

Thingymajigs Mon 22-Apr-13 07:52:54

Good luck res. smile

RedRobin1 Mon 22-Apr-13 22:57:48

I had a weird day. I had an overwhelming day at work and told one of my work colleagues about ttc woes.

My work colleague told me about their iui journey and It felt so good to talk to someone in real life.

I am hoping this month results in a no show from AF as always.

thingy kerry ads winkle how you guys doing?

I have my blood test for my thyroid check next week. Nothing else exciting in ttc life right now. Long stopped symptom spotting.

Just praying we all see two lines on a stick soon. Fingers crossed for us all.

KerryJewels Tue 23-Apr-13 15:33:59

Hi red!!On last day of Clomid pills(for this month)CD 10...Waiting till I'm a little closer to ovulation to start drinking the dreadful Grapefruit juice...A friend of mine just had a healthy baby boy yesterday,I'm very happy for her but it just made me long for my turn even more!! I do really want it to happen but have been thinking if it doesn't..maybe God knows something I don't....Best of luck to all my ttc buddiessmile

twinklestar2 Tue 23-Apr-13 22:51:08

Hey red, did opening up to someone in real life help? I have close friends and my sister that I speak to but they aren't going through the same thing so they can empathise but never understand.

CD27 here so AF/BFP due soon. Feel nothing about this process at the moment, have nothing left to feel it seems like.

resipsa Wed 24-Apr-13 07:44:22

Hi everyone. Hope all is OK. red it is good actually to talk, isn't it? I met someone with DS the same age as my DD on Fri who's in this boat & it's good to exchange RL words with someone who understands. My other friends who know about our TTC are either P, just delivered or don't want to be either & I do get a bit fed up if the "it'll happen, just relax, at least you have DS" platitudes before they quickly move on!

Two more birth announcements this week plus a whole email chain about how awful you feel in pregnancy!!!

auntiemoo Wed 24-Apr-13 08:19:15

Hi everyone. I've been lurking for a little while just checking in now and again. I've only been on this site a few times and most of it was a couple of years ago when I was taking clomid. I felt so crazy ten I needed a place to vent lol. I hope you don't mind me posting on here. Just to tell you all a little bit about me. DH and I have been ttc for almost 8 years. Well I say ttc for that long but I'm sure you understand that after a while DTD loses its appeal for a while so it's probably more like 5 years in reality. Like you all I'm still hoping for a bfp in 2013 and seem to have somewhat regained my determination a little. Have done the bbt/poas/ocd etc etc lol and now I have bitten the bullet and forked out another fortune on a CBFM. I'm only on the first cycle if usin it so will have to see how good it is and whether it works. DH and I have had all kinds of tests over the years but nothing "wrong" found and all results appear normal. Anyway I just wanted to wish all of you good luck and happy humping ;) I'll be hoping for BFP's for all of us very soon smile

KerryJewels Wed 24-Apr-13 15:14:53

Welcome auntiemoo..hopes and prayers for a BFP in 2013smile

twinklestar2 Wed 24-Apr-13 18:29:06

Welcome auntiemoo! 8 years, wow! I hope your get your long awaited BFP. Sorry if personal question but have the docs advised the next stage for you?

RedRobin1 Wed 24-Apr-13 19:13:45

Good luck with the clomid and hope grapefruit juice works for you kerry

res and winkle there are two kinds of RL people who I have confided in. 1-people who fell easily pregnant
2-people who struggled on their ttc journeys.

I have found the second group to be the most sympathetic. The first group like you say are either too obsessed with their pregnancies,babies or motherhood to give a crap about my ttc woes. So I haven't talked to them about it much. I find it easier to not share with them. At least then I don't hate them for not being sympathetic.

The second group of people has been surprisingly relieving to talk to. I feel so uplifted and feel like I am not the only one and their stories make me hope that one day I will have a baby.

I am on cd20 and have some twinges but nothing convincing. 4/5dpo.

I think now that I am coming closer to my self imposed deadline (another 3months) of ttc - I am going to give it my best shot the next 3 months. Would like to try out SMEP again for 2 months in a row! God help DH! smile

RedRobin1 Wed 24-Apr-13 19:15:20

Hi auntiemoo - 8 years is a long journey. Hope you get your bfp soon.

auntiemoo Wed 24-Apr-13 20:27:25

Thanks for the welcomes folks, Twinkle, I don't mind the question at all, it's been long time since we have spoken to health professionals about it, a few years ago I had 6 months of clomid and from there we were given an appointment at St Mary's Hospital in manchester to go for IVF treatment, so I filled in all the forms, which, if you aren't familiar with ask you all the regular questions like height, weight, smoker etc. At the time I was overweight and being honest on my form I told them so, I didn't reduce my weight by a few pounds or anything as the consultant who arranged the appointment for us was aware that I was continuing to lose weight, don't get me wrong, I was just on the wrong side of a BMI of 30 by one, so 31. We received an appointment, both took a day off work, got our hopes up like you do, when we arrived at St Mary's, the first thing they did was weigh me, my weight had reduced from what was on the form by 2lbs according to their scales, I was promptly told to go home, lose weight as they couldn't even take a blood test until I had done that, which would have been fine and I understand that we have to give these things the best chance, however when I asked whether I do that then contact the hospital to rearrange, bearing in mind I was only around 9lbs away from being the maximum I could be, I was told that I would have to start again with the process and contact my GP! I broke my heart and haven't been able to even consider it since, happily my BMI is now only 26 and I have worked my butt off to get it there but I still can't do it, it was at this point we kind of gave up for a while so I think that as there is no explanation for it not having happened yet and honestly believing that we haven't perhaps tried as hard as we could have for a long time, it's worth getting back on the baby making wagon lol, anyway, sorry for the rant, it's nice to get it out thought, I promise I'm not always such a miserable swine hahahaha, I can't say that I haven't felt bitter about it before but I'm ok now and feeling a lot more positive which can't be anything but helpful, the weight loss has helped too I think because I feel healthier and I haven't been this weight since before we got married 8 years ago so all of these things have to help. Thanks again for welcoming me onto this thread, I was a bit nervous about posting because it's been going a while and I've just been lurking like a weirdo hahahaha. I'm on CD 8 now and CBFM says high but it is the first month so it's still getting to know me lol, but not to waste any possible high days was planning on seducing the husband last night when he got home from work, turned out that, in the words of a friend....seduction thy name is pipe cleaner, I'm at a 70's themed fancy dress on Friday night and was trying out the technique of making my hair afro curly using pipe cleaners so had put one in my hair, I was fast asleep by the time the husband got home and the first thing he saw was a tinsel like pipe cleaner in my hair glinting in the dark....can't say I'd have wanted to wake me up either hahahahahaha so in actual fact, seduction thy name is most certainly not pipe cleaner shock wink

twinklestar2 Wed 24-Apr-13 23:19:40

Hehe that's a funny story moo! Well done on your weightloss, that's amazing. Good luck, I hope you get your BFP soon.

I'm on cd28. Have had twinges but don't feel any different from any other month.

How are you getting on res?

auntiemoo Thu 25-Apr-13 07:57:29

Had a good read through the thread last night. I'm sorry if I still get folks mixed up. Whilst I hate the fact that we have all had ups and downs its kinda nice to know that I'm not crackers and its normal to feel angry and upset and that seeing people which their bumps and prams and those who conceive really easily drives me to distraction is a normal reaction to the situation. I've been avoiding ikea for years lol it seems that ikea is the upduffed ladies choice of shopping venue and at least half of the women there are waddling and holding their backs hahahaha. Fx for everyone wink hoping af doesn't show herself. res how are you getting on with the Ivf drugs?

I'm actually on cd10 today, I got mixed up yesterday bloody loon. It's no wonder I don't have any kids yet lmao. A friend of mine had a DS last month and she had quite a time of it through both pregnancy and labour. So much so I considered being a crazy cat lady instead lol. I told the husband that I was buyin 25 cats and moving to Peru instead haha

Where is everyone up to at the min. I'm gettin a bit mixed up with everyone and don't want to miss anyone out confused

Anyway time for work sighhhhhhhhhhh, have a good day all, happy humping wink

KerryJewels Thu 25-Apr-13 14:26:28

Moo we are in cycle together..I'm on day 11-but my cycles tend to fluctuate between 30-35 days...can make things a tad difficult that way!!!I'm really going to try hard this month(not like I haven't the last four).If I were to get pregnant this month I would deliver one month before my 39th birthday.The numbers mess with me a bit...I know it really doesn't matter but it would be nicesmileDid your hair turn out nice today?So you will be all beautiful and ready to DTD tonight!!!I'm not at ovulation point yet..maybe in a few days I will be getting geared up..Best of luck to all my ttc buddies!!!

DulcetMoans Thu 25-Apr-13 21:35:46

I am back, again, for about the forth time but I am seeing it through until the BFP now! My TTC pause has come to an end as of this month and it has already sent me mental I forgot how much I hate this. Body back to playing tricks already and can' test until 5th May. Come on 2013 BFP though!

Sorry I can't go through all your other posts but hoping to get to know you all again. Hopefully not too many oldies around here any more as they have moved over the the pregnant/baby boards!

resipsa Thu 25-Apr-13 22:28:59

Hi dulcet. I'm still here!

Hi winkle. 1st stim scan today (so many new terms to learn) and OK - lots of follicles of the right size for day 7. I have no real idea what that means save that by this time next week, they'll have whipped out any eggs, tried to get them to play ball with DH's sperm and put back any which have fertilised. Then it's the joy of the 2WW. How're you doing?

DulcetMoans Fri 26-Apr-13 19:34:17

Hi res! Sorry to see you are still here but sounds like you are getting help at least?

2ww is balls though!

RedRobin1 Fri 26-Apr-13 22:03:05

Hi dulcet - how are you doing?

RedRobin1 Fri 26-Apr-13 22:05:43

I wrote a long message twice! And twice I lost the post!! Arrrgggghhhh

Just wanted to say good luck with the EC next week res i never thought I'd say this but ivf sounds exciting when you see how each week that passes is one step closer to getting that bfp!

Thingymajigs Sat 27-Apr-13 07:40:44

Hi again everyone.
I've become sick of dtd so we've had a month off. Still managed the day before ovulation which is good enough. I'm now 7dpo. Hopefully after this break I can start to see dtd as being fun again instead of a ttc chore.
Everyone seems to be pregnant now. Even my doctor who I was supposed to see next month for tests is on maternity leave. Perhaps its just the removal of winter coats making it more obvious though. I heard that a relative was pregnant by IVF and I had no idea they were trying. Before my own fertility problems I assumed that if a couple didnt have children that was due to choice. But now I'm realising how common this is. I'm exstatic for her as this will be her first and she will be a wonderful mum but wow that scan picture made my heart sink a little.
I feel better after writing that, it really helps to share all these worries.
So where is everyone in their cycles? How are you feeling res? And red, are you 8dpo now?
oh welcome to all the newbies and returners. smile

DulcetMoans Sat 27-Apr-13 08:40:46

Hey Red, I'm alright thanks. Getting back into the TTC swing. Trying the relaxed approach for a bit. That sounded a lot easier than it is!

I know what you mean Thingy, so many pregnancy announcements!! How are they doing it?

auntiemoo Sat 27-Apr-13 09:33:24

There does seem to have been a lot of pregnancy announcements recently. Does anyone else do that mental thing with the "these things come in 3's" saying and count em up with the people you know to see if there is an available slot for you in one of the trio's. I must be going daft lol.

Well I managed to very poorly time a night out on the razzle dazzle last night. Went to a fancy dress party for a friends 50th birthday. Got home just before 3am looking like something the 80's threw up hahaha. Had a few too many though oops. CBFM this morning says peak hope my egg isn't scrambled!

Good luck res have everything crossed for you for a basket full of sticky eggs smile

I'm on holiday from work for the next two weeks am thinking that I may drive myself mental with the 2ww this cycle as I won't have anything else that I have to focus on. Oh good lord please keep me relatively sane lol

RedRobin1 Sat 27-Apr-13 10:13:36

I am not sure where I am in my cycle. I am tempted to symptom spot but know the big downfalls of it. Haven't got any significant signs of pregnancy. The scan pics make me well up these days. Announcements I can bear - its when they get to the bump phase - it like a mad stage of envy for me. I long to have a bump.

dulcet We tried the relaxed approach for 4 months and nothing yet so bringing the big guns out with SMEP!

moo haha I pictured you in an 80s costume! What did you wear?

auntiemoo Sat 27-Apr-13 11:28:28

Oh red it was horrific lol. Do you remember the program "watching"? I looked like Brenda hahahahahahaha. I had me some bright pink leg warmers, orange vest, yellow cropped t shirt and the piece de resistance a luminous pink sun visor with a mop of scraggy curls over the top like madonna circa 1985. Oh it was shameful hahahaha the worrying thing is you can buy this kind of thing in the normal shops at the minute!!! Tis a bit scary! Hahahaha

twinklestar2 Sat 27-Apr-13 13:21:32

Hey girls,

BFN this morning on CD31 so guess it won't be long till AF is here.

Welcome back dulcet and I hope 4th time lucky for you.

Have my fx for you, res.

Good luck to all who are post OV and happy dtding for the ones gearing up to OV.

Thingymajigs Sat 27-Apr-13 15:25:45

So sorry to hear that winkle. sad Yes auntiemoo, I think like that too. I almost attempt statistics by wondering what the chances are of two of us on this thread getting pregnant in the same month or maybe theres no chance this time if I've already heard two announcements recently. Silly really.
I think I might do the SMEP too red. I think its basically what we did anyway but its worth a go.
I've had a nightmare day. Despite just writing on a thread that I don't normally drink in the tww I think I'm going to tonight. blush There's no chance I'm pregnant anyway. But next month I'm throwing everything at it.

KerryJewels Sat 27-Apr-13 17:48:43

Sorry twinkle....Its so disheartening when you think maybe..then only one line.Red symptom spotting is the worst...that's when I almost start to believe this could be it then...total letdownsad good luck moo..I'm getting ready for major action myself-the time is nearing....I'm on cycle day 13..usually don't O until day 17-20.I guess better early than late..but this month I'm hoping right on timesmileReally hope a baby is made this month!!!

KerryJewels Sat 27-Apr-13 17:49:10

Good luck everybodysmile

DulcetMoans Sun 28-Apr-13 09:15:58

Thanks twinkle. Sorry about the BFN. Fx for next time though.

Think I am going to have one of those disappointing months where you convince yourself you could be and feel stupid when AF arrives! Must stay rational!

RedRobin1 Sun 28-Apr-13 14:52:44

I am gearing up for cycle 13. I don't feel pregnant at all. Just utterly depressed with ttc. Depressed just describes it all.

Sorry winkle don't know what to say. Hope next month is our month? I just don't have any hope left.

twinklestar2 Sun 28-Apr-13 15:24:03

I hear you red. I just don't know what to think, feel or say anymore about this whole process. It's never going to happen naturally for me, I have to hope and pray that IVF works for me. Utterly utterly miserable.

Thingymajigs Sun 28-Apr-13 17:44:24

Sorry that everyone is feeling down. There comes a point when you've tried everything in every single order imaginable and so losing a bit of hope is understandable. I googled "private ivf costs" again, perhaps in some faint hope that the costs would be within our price range. But unsurprisingly they don't have a budget range. Its natural or nothing for us so I guess I just carry on but perhaps make it less pivotal to our day to day lives.
I can't wait to see everyones BFP announcements on here. It will happen eventually, its simply a matter of time. smile

twinklestar2 Sun 28-Apr-13 20:10:31

It's been nearly 2 fucking years!! I'm so angry!

KerryJewels Sun 28-Apr-13 20:39:10

I'm sorry so many of us are having a very hard time with ttc and the disappointment that comes every month when AF arrivessad As hard as it is we can't lose hope..someway,somehow we will all get what our hearts are longing for.May not be how we have planned or envisioned but a blessing will be ours someday!!Let's just keep trying to make our dream come true...I'm sure once AF arrives for me next month my tune will change....but I'm optimistic for now...Hope our prayers are answered very soonsmile

RedRobin1 Sun 28-Apr-13 21:55:56

I hear you winkle I was so angry and over come with emotion today. Just don't know when it will be my time. I am so angry frustrated and sad.

Thingymajigs Sun 28-Apr-13 22:11:45

Sorry if I've said something insensitive. Wasn't intentional.

twinklestar2 Sun 28-Apr-13 22:28:52

Oh no thingy, you didnt say anything insensitive! I'm just pissed off with the whole thing!

Its just after all this time its hard to have hope. It makes you think why will this month be different to all those other months? It makes me very sad.

auntiemoo Sun 28-Apr-13 22:51:06

Oh winkle I hear you bird. I have been furious like you on loads if occasions. Something that depends on the continuation of the species should surely be easy. Also having it drummed into you as a teenager that getting upduffed is the easiest thing that must be avoided at all costs really doesn't prepare you for situations like ours. They make it sound so simple which adds the te conplete feeling of failure for me each month that goes by without a bfp. The other thing that pisses me off is the amount of over drinking over weight or recreational drug users that get upduffed as soon as they drop their kecks. I worked in custody for the local police for a while and there we people I just couldn't deal with because if the situation. It's very unfair, it makes you depressed, feel like an absolute pshyco and then guilty for being less than trolled for others when they get their BFP's be them planned or not!!! I understand you completely and have my fx that you get yours really soon flowers xxx

auntiemoo Sun 28-Apr-13 22:53:14

Bloody hell I really should preview my posts before I post them. I hope you can decipher that there code!!! Predictive text and anger are a poor poor combination!

twinklestar2 Sun 28-Apr-13 23:03:56

I hear ya auntie on the druggies and bad people who get pregnant, while us ladies who are planning to have children responsibly and really really want them have to suffer. It's not fricking fair!

KerryJewels Mon 29-Apr-13 14:18:48

Cycle day 15...having slight O cramps in my left ovary...THAT HAS NO TUBE!!!!Sometimes you gotta laugh at lifes ironysmile

twinklestar2 Mon 29-Apr-13 14:36:18

That made me giggle Kerry!

RedRobin1 Mon 29-Apr-13 17:37:22

TMI alert!

I have just been to the loo and had a chunk of brown spotting and some bright red spotting too. On CD25, 8-10dpo, sore boobs gone, is this AF arriving early or the good kind of bleed?

I am not due till 7th May sad not getting my hopes up as don't feel any different.

KerryJewels Mon 29-Apr-13 18:02:04

Hope it is implantation bleeding Red...I had that with both my girls.Funny thing is I didn't know all of this information then like I do now..so I thought it was a period cut short...Come on good news!!!

resipsa Mon 29-Apr-13 19:59:03

Eek red! You wouldn't feel different yet cause you don't 'feel' the HCG until it hits the bloodstream a couple of days later. Keep us posted!

Thingymajigs Mon 29-Apr-13 20:01:58

Oh, I really hope its that implantation bleeding I hear so much about. Good luck red. smile

resipsa Mon 29-Apr-13 20:03:19

thingy are you under 35? Sorry, can't remember. On the ivf front, if you are, have you thought about egg share? It cuts the cost by about 90%.

RedRobin1 Mon 29-Apr-13 20:13:19

I don't know starting to feel like implantation bleeds, bfp and good news are a bit of a myth. I just can't get my hopes up. Will find out in a day or two if its AF come early.

I have had a very stressful month with work, so keep thinking I probably released a bad egg, or my uterine lining is malfunctioning and AF is going to arrive early.

kerry with the cramping in ovaries - I tend to find I cramp in both and never know which end the eggs going to come out....! fx you get cramping in the other ovary with the tube

Thingymajigs Mon 29-Apr-13 20:15:03

I haven't heard of that. Yes, I am under 35, at least for the next 3 years anyway. I'll google it, thanks res.smile

twinklestar2 Mon 29-Apr-13 20:28:39

OMG OMG OMG red, fingers crossed and good luck!!

KerryJewels Mon 29-Apr-13 21:20:45

Because of the Clomid I have definite cramps that let me know which side it's coming...I think because of the cycts I have it hurts more than it usually would.The cramping went away anyway...don't think it was the egg dropping-too soon for me.It's been dropping from the side with the tube to no avail..so I guess it doesn't matter~I just need a miracle!!Red I'm really rooting for you...I just don't want you to be let down...that feeling really stinkssad did the bleeding stop?for me it lasted a few days..but was never more than smears when I wiped...why does this have to be so hard....my grandmother had 8 children for Petes sake!!!

resipsa Tue 30-Apr-13 07:45:04

Kerry 8? Bloody hell! I too am "blessed" with a fairly fertile family. Got 1 aunt, 2 uncles and 12 cousins. Looks like my cousins are similarly blessed (many children already), just not me (yet?) hmm

RedRobin1 Tue 30-Apr-13 16:09:38

Thanks guys, but I am convinced its AF. Its turned light pink and barely there but I feel no different. I know I am not pregnant. Feel AF like cramping so she must be on her way.

8! wow! thats quite a number kerry, mine had 6 and I though that was bad!

Argh! this week is going too slow for my liking. Will take a test on Friday IF she doesn't show up. I doubt I'll get to take a test.

twinklestar2 Tue 30-Apr-13 17:13:46

Oh red sad

resipsa Tue 30-Apr-13 17:33:27

A week early? Do you know when you O'd or was this a I'm-not-watching cycle?

SomeDaySoon74 Tue 30-Apr-13 19:55:47

Hello everyone. Hope you're all doing Ok? Or as well as can be expected? I've been having an anti-mn month, telling myself that that would "do the trick" BUT I''VE JUST GOT AF AND AM MAD MAD MAD!!!!!!! Aaaaarrrgh!!!!!
So bored of this ttc now. SO BORED! HOW HARD CAN IT BE TO GET UP-DUFFED?!!! (Rant over) Totally with winkle on the doom and gloom front though. angry
On the plus side, decided at the weekend that I was starting to go insane putting my life on hold for years while we ttc, so have booked a 2-week sailing holiday around the Greek islands late June with my DH. Partly (if I'm brutally honest) to make myself feel a bit better as I know all my pals with kids will be very jealous of me being able to do such things. But hey; there have got to be some perks of bring child-free?!!! grin

resipsa Tue 30-Apr-13 21:49:55

"Someday" with that post you've increased the chance that you will get pregnant before then and will spend an awful holiday fighting morning sickness at sea!

RedRobin1 Tue 30-Apr-13 22:07:58

res I ovulated on cd16 (as per opk) and I am 8 days early to be precise. Just want AF to arrive. Fed up doesn't begin to describe ttc someday I just want one day where I don't feel so miserable and so full of self pity! Cruel is how I would describe ttc.

Hope you are one of the lucky ones who gets their bfp on holiday someday tempted to go on one myself..

do you guys think if we tried IUI in October this year we would be rushing things? By then we would be ttc for 18months. I just don't know how much longer I can cope without a baby. At the moment it's sadly become one of those 'I just want it to be over and done with and by any means necessary' I am just tired of the disappointment every month.

resipsa Tue 30-Apr-13 22:20:23

Red I'm bound to say go for it, aren't I? You have to do what's right for you and the waiting is so, so, so draining. Sometimes I can't even remember what I used to enjoy about life in the pre-TTC days. I seem to have lost a bit of me to it IYKWIM.

twinklestar2 Tue 30-Apr-13 22:54:39

I agree with res.

Sorry someday sad

Cd34 here. Just want the time to hurry up where I can stop this madness and do IVF.

Thingymajigs Wed 01-May-13 07:13:31

I'd say go for it red. smile
Thanks so much for introducing me to egg share res. Even if its not something we end up doing it helps to have that there as a little bit of hope instead of the brick wall we were facing.

Thingymajigs Wed 01-May-13 07:19:51

so sorry someday.
I do have children and am suitably jealous of your sailing holiday so objective achieved. smile It helps to have something else to look forward to. I'm quite distracted at the moment as we have lots of days out, a holiday in Cornwall to look forward to and a possible house move in the next few months.

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 09:30:29

Last night I went to bed and allowed myself to dream that maybe it had worked this month! I had the hsg, hubby hasn't touched alcohol since mid feb so this could be it and the bfn last week was too early. I thought to myself maybe I won't have IVF and have twins, maybe I'll be normal like everyone else and have one baby, naturally. Woke up this morning and its CD1 - again. sad

RedRobin1 Wed 01-May-13 14:24:20

So sorry winkle sad it's shit isn't it?

Thingymajigs Wed 01-May-13 14:25:55

So sorry winkle. sad

KerryJewels Wed 01-May-13 14:49:49

18 months is a long time red...if it's within your means go for it!The constant letdowns cannot be good for you.Im on month four and it's driving me batty...so I really can't imagine how hard it's been for you...Good luck;)

KerryJewels Wed 01-May-13 14:51:40

Sorry winksad

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 15:16:10

I feel like such a failure. Why can't I do the thing that millions of people do very single day?

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 15:16:37

*every

See I can't even spell. I'm a fucking loser!

RedRobin1 Wed 01-May-13 17:37:07

flowers and hugs to you winkle

kerry I have practically given up all hope of conceiving naturally. If I ever see two lines on a stick I think someone will have to slap me to make sure its not a dream. I just don't see it happening.

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 18:51:07

Ditto red

resipsa Wed 01-May-13 19:30:54

winkle wine and thanks. You are not a loser, just someone who will truly appreciate her family once she has it.

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 20:40:51

Had a cry with hubby. He says he feels positive because of the changes he's made over the past couple of months and we have to hold on to hope. I'm sure ill be fine in a few days because I have to be, hey?

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 20:46:04

Res I feel like such a failure sad I know if you wait longer to have your baby then you appreciate them more but honestly I was already planning on how I'd bring them up and all the things I wanted to do them and what there bedrooms were going to look like, etc. I was prepared for the early mornings and sleepless nights. I'd seen so so so many friends and family members have their babies and I ached and longed for it to be me and picked up so many tips and hints that I couldn't wait to use on my own. And i waited patiently till i got married and now its been 2 years on tops of all those years where ive waited and wanted.

And now it feels like it was all for nothing. I just don't believe it's going to happen for me anymore.

RedRobin1 Wed 01-May-13 21:41:33

Oh winkle it's like you stole my thoughts. I have been through all of that with babies in the family thinking how I'd bring my own up and all the things I'd want to do with them. Like you say just don't know when that will happen for me! For us!

Crying helps doesn't it, but I just can't see an end to this sadness till I have a baby. I feel miserable 24/7. Hell you can tell by readin my posts - they have gone from hope to empty disappointment over the months.

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 22:44:35

Big sigh. What can we do but carry on. But with a sinking feeling inside constantly.

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 22:55:17

Was weechops on this thread with us previously? Cause I've just seen she got her BFP on the April thread.

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 23:08:04

Oops just realised wee got her BFP at the beginning of April. Can't believe I didn't remember!

twinklestar2 Wed 01-May-13 23:08:23

Wish I could blame it on baby brain hey!

KerryJewels Thu 02-May-13 14:03:20

Someday.....btw I wonder what ever happened to Someday,haven't heard from her in awhile?What a perfect screen name...reminds me to have hope;)That's hard to come by in this line of work~I really hope a miracle happens for us all...very soon for those of you that have been trying so long....I was with my husband 13 years before we had my daughter,we never tried to prevent pregnancy..it just didn't happen until it was suppose to I guess.My grandfather died,the next month BFP.Then three years went by not really trying to prevent pregnancy and suddenly my father in law passed away..I bet you can figure out what happened next..BFP.So I guess it's all in sweet time..but I'm kind of mortified in thinking someone has to die so I can have a child..hope it doesn't have to be that way this time around..and TIME,that's a word that scares me-I don't have much of it left in the ttc businesssad

KerryJewels Thu 02-May-13 15:45:52

Oh and one more thing...I can't remember who gave the advice to hold your nose while you drink the grapefruit juice..but bravo!!!It really works!!!

Thingymajigs Thu 02-May-13 18:22:37

Glad it worked for you kerry. Most of your taste is actually smell so holding your nose works well.
Sorry to hear that she got you again red. sad This process is so deeply unfair.
I'm thinking about upping my game next month, (currently on 12dpo). It was a poor effort this time which definitely won't help. I'll draw up a plan of action for DP. grin I'm so glad I've got such an involved partner because it makes everything much easier and less awkward than it could be. He just laughs and then suggests more ideas. He's still refusing to give up his hot baths though.

Thingymajigs Thu 02-May-13 18:24:47

oh, no, sorry you're still waiting for AF, sorry red. Its tricky following this on my phone.

twinklestar2 Thu 02-May-13 22:31:46

Hopefully you won't need to up your game next month thingy smile

Thingymajigs Fri 03-May-13 07:15:41

That would be lovely. However, I've had another skin break out so I'm pretty sure its arriving on Sunday. Right when I have a huge wedding to go to of course. Still, I'm feeling quite positive about the future. Yesterday I stumbled across lots of stories of women suddenly finding themselves pregnant after years of trying and eventually giving up. So it can happen for all of us too.

resipsa Fri 03-May-13 14:23:36

Hi everyone. Update? Well, they pulled 8 eggs out of me, 5 were mature and 3 fertilised so if they don't perish, I'm planning on having all 3 put back tomorrow! Eek! By the way, the chances of more than one sticking are very, very low so this is just a belt and braces approach rather than irresponsibility.

Thingymajigs Fri 03-May-13 14:47:31

Exciting! This is far more interesting than the natural approach. Can't wait for an update in a couple of weeks.

Thingymajigs Fri 03-May-13 16:23:11

AF has appeared early. This is new. hmm At least I get it done with sooner rather than later so I can start trying again but maybe with a bit more effort this time.

twinklestar2 Fri 03-May-13 17:14:33

So sorry thingy sad

Res - that's brilliant. What if all 3 DO stick?!?!

KerryJewels Fri 03-May-13 17:23:37

That is really awesome res...how exciting!!!Sorry thingy,better luck next month!!I dont know about this Clomid anymore...when I ovulate or AF arrives the cramps I get are horrendous...I could barely walk at work last night..same thing happened two weeks ago when AF was here...I know it's cysts...I just really wonder whats going on in there..so strange for doc to just say here you go..just take these and call me in four months if you don't get pregnant.The pain only lasts for approximately one day..with ibuprofen and Tylenol the pain subsides so I guess I won't worry too much,but it really is out of this world painsad I hope and pray so badly it happened this month..Dtd twice yesterday even though I was in such pain....Good luck friends!!!

Thingymajigs Fri 03-May-13 18:06:41

I get ovulation pain too which resembles period pains. So, like you, I assume I have cysts. Can you not go back to your doctor and ask? I'm going in to see another doctor soon as we have been trying a year. No idea what this next stage involves but I'd appreciate a scan.

RedRobin1 Fri 03-May-13 19:04:37

kerry the pain sounds awful. Hope they can scan you and see if its the cysts Hope your last cycle on clomid is the bfp one..fx!

res I love reading your updates. The process sounds so exciting. Eeeek! 3 eggs is fab! The bfp is coming your way soon smile

I have no AF yet and no way could that have been implantation because I just don't feel any different. Can't be bothered to piss on a stick as I won't let ttc make a mug out of me yet again...pride and dignity! Whatever little I have left of it!!! It's due on Monday so I guess it's now decided to take its time.

RedRobin1 Fri 03-May-13 19:05:35

Sorry thingy sad early AF means an early start to next cycle.

Hello girls, just checking in to see how you lovelies are doing,
So sorry those bfps are not comming thick and fast but fx they are all comming in one big hit!
Res- that all sounds so exciting, not sure I'd dare have 3 put back just incase but my friend has just recently had her ivf twins
Red- think you could still be wrong about implantation, particullaly if its stoped altogether now? I had it and didn't feel any different to the point I'd started using ov sticks again 2 weeks later, I hope so!
Good luck to everyone else and sorry for everyone the bitch struck

RedRobin1 Fri 03-May-13 21:41:57

Hey kitty how are you doing? How far along are you? Sorry not been brave enough to peek into the graduates thread but its always nice to hear from everyone on the other side smile

I only had brown spotting one day and then nothing the whole week. My boobs are deflating and I feel nothing, nada just the same old dread of AF arriving.

Small part of me hopes you are right! I will test on Sunday if I don't start spotting before.

twinklestar2 Fri 03-May-13 23:41:42

Hey kitty!

Hi winkle, hi red!
I'm ok thanks 36+3 so nearing the end, wishful had a little boy a few weeks ago aswell! Don't worry about the peeking, I understand, I got a bfp the same day as wishful but that was sadly a pregnancy I lost and although I was lucky enough to get pregnant really quickly after I still found it hard to read at every milestone she was at as it felt it should be me too
Red- I hope your wrong but understand why you have to protect yourself now, I will say though each pregnancy is different and I've only had implantation once out of 4 plus for that pregnancy bigger boobs was literally my only symptom, this time boobs stayed really small and empty feeling till end of the first tri so both times very different, I have fx for you anyway and although it seems shit I firmly believe you will both have your babies x

resipsa Sat 04-May-13 10:57:49

There's been a lot of activity on here.
Hi kitty - how's Nantwich? My mum is SO excited about the M+S food store! Can't believe you've only got 3 weeks or so to go. Time flies!

Any news red?

Sorry she got you thingy. Mine started coming earlier than expected (usual 30/31 day cycle) and just when I was about to start stressing, I had a 37 day cycle! Our bodies play us; they're mean.

How're you doing winkle? And kerry?

resipsa Sat 04-May-13 10:59:36

Oh got all 3 on board as of 9am. Toughest 2WW yet starts here. And they give you a photo of the embies so you always have something even if it doesn't work.

Oh my god there's 3 little beans in you eeek so exciting though!
Nantwich same old, bar the m&s excitement obviously! Went there myself on thur for a piece of the action wink

Thingymajigs Sat 04-May-13 12:16:00

Not long to go now kitty. smile Although I bet it feels a lot longer for you.
This is so exciting res. We'll be here for handholding during the 2ww.
I'm so dizzy today. This is a ridculously heavy AF. Think I might bring this up with the doctor actually. But its quite hard to judge if your periods are heavier than normal because whats normal?

twinklestar2 Sat 04-May-13 12:49:11

Finger, toes, eyes, ears and legs crossed (as its only cd4) for you res!!

MrsBri Sat 04-May-13 13:59:49

Good luck, res. I'll keep everything crossed for you.

RedRobin1 Sat 04-May-13 19:50:21

Nothing yet res but on the vino tonite - finishing a bottle because I know she will show up.

res I am crossing Everton for you too!!' I am so merry right now

RedRobin1 Sat 04-May-13 19:51:55

Oooops! Not Everton! Everything**

Goodluck - looking fwd to the bfp news next week. God! I should not post on mumsnet when soooo drunk!

KerryJewels Sun 05-May-13 07:05:14

So exciting Res...I hope they all stick and triplets are in your futuresmileI'm on CD 21...pretty sure I ovulated on CD 18 so let the waiting begin..I'm going to try not to symptom spot and stress to hard this time..wishful thinkingsmile Red I'm not so sure shes coming for you this time..very strange to bleed a bit then stop...hopefulsmile

RedRobin1 Sun 05-May-13 12:15:18

I don't think the wine was a good idea last night.

I just took a test and two pink lines came up.

I knew it oh red so so happy for you gringringringringringrin
Never mind the wine you don't even want to know how much I drank with dd1
See implantation does exist lol wink

RedRobin1 Sun 05-May-13 14:09:06

Thanks kitty I am just in a state of shock. Implantation does exist....but early pregnancy symptoms don't.

I feel no different than every cycle.

Thingymajigs Sun 05-May-13 14:28:25

omg! Congratulations! I was so hopeful for you when the spotting stopped. You must be so happy. smile
Don't worry about the wine it can't do anything at this stage. Such great news, it gives me a bit of hope.

weechops Sun 05-May-13 14:31:44

De-lurking to say aaahhhhh red!! Amazing news I'm so so happy for you!! smile

Thingymajigs Sun 05-May-13 14:33:31

I've got this silly grin now thinking how you must be feeling. Ds2 just asked me what I'm smiling about. grin Aww I'm so happy for you both. smile x

RedRobin1 Sun 05-May-13 15:08:12

Thanks smile I can't stop smiling either. Just wish some symptoms would kick in so I can stop worrying if it will end up as a cp again.

Hope you are keeping well wee

Like I said each pregnancy has different symptoms I honistly wouldn't have known ( and didn't ) first time because I took implantation for af never felt a days sickness or anything, it's not indicative of how things will turn out at all, If you went back through this thread to when I got pregnant with this one you will find my posts about how I knew it wasn't my month etc as no symptoms and even cm hadn't been the same as the time before etch know its hard to not worry especially after last time but just let yourself have a silly grin today and savour it, I always think implantation is a really positive sign ( I guess as it was for me) that its imbedded itself well to have caused it , plenty of time for you to be knacked, sick and achey wink xxx

twinklestar2 Sun 05-May-13 15:39:25

OMG red, brilliant news! So pleased for you! Hopefully I'm right behind you x

Come on we want to see these sticks like last time grin
Winkle definatly your turn now

RedRobin1 Sun 05-May-13 15:57:04

winkle I am never leaving you...you WILL be next!!!!!

Thanks kitty needed to read that. I am going to enjoy the moment and allow myself to get a little carried away. Just a little.

MrsBri Sun 05-May-13 16:20:47

Congratulations red!! So happy for you. :-)

FWIW, I got utterly trashed the day before my BFP as well!

Let us know when it stops feeling surreal!

KerryJewels Sun 05-May-13 16:22:50

I told yousmile

twinklestar2 Sun 05-May-13 16:41:16

How has your husband taken it?

KerryJewels Sun 05-May-13 16:45:02

CONGRATULATIONS RED!!!!!!I'm so happy for you right now!!!!Let the BFP's keep comingsmile

twinklestar2 Sun 05-May-13 16:48:22

I reckon it will be res next for a BFP!!

twinklestar2 Sun 05-May-13 16:49:55

Oh and Red, you obviously have to tell us everything you did this month so we can do it too!

RedRobin1 Sun 05-May-13 17:17:05

Thanks kerry

winkle DH was mowing the lawn and I walked into the garden pee sticks in hand and blubbing and told DH we are going to be having a baby. We hugged for ages and then DH resumed lawn mowing with a grin on his face.

We haven't yet done a happy dance as I just don't want to get too excited yet.

Thingymajigs Sun 05-May-13 17:19:17

Yep, definitely, even if you did a handstand for an hour after each dtd we will all be attempting it. grin

RedRobin1 Sun 05-May-13 17:23:25

We dtd 4 times this month and I had grapefruit juice and used conceive plus the last 2 times near OV as I was totally dry.

I drank grapefruit juice after dtd straightaway - had a glass by the bedside. I don't know why but I had a theory that if I drink it after dtd it will make me more wet so the spermies can swim up to the egg.

Also it's been 3 months since DH has been on pine bark extract which may have helped with the morphology.

Also, I had a lot of work stress (close to a serious mental breakdown) so I thought it would be impossible to conceive this month. Clearly the stress theory is false!

RedRobin1 Sun 05-May-13 17:26:20

Oh and I stroked the fertility statue pics religiously!!!

KerryJewels Sun 05-May-13 17:52:10