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When's the best time to get pregnant? Use our interactive ovulation calculator to work out when you're most fertile and most likely to conceive.

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When's the best time to get pregnant? Use our interactive ovulation calculator to work out when you're most fertile and most likely to conceive.

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A TTC Xmas wish

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pinkmook · 20/12/2008 13:13

I dont expect any one to answer this because frankly - its not really a queation

Just wanted to put this down somewhere...

PLease please please can I please get pregnant soon? I have been very good all year and not let on how heartbroken I have been every time someone else got their BFP. I have bought presents for and visited all the little new borns of my friends and colleagues and felt the physical pain of holding them in my arms and wishing so hard it was me.

I have been mega healthy in my diet and not touched any alcohol and took countless vitamins, and prepared meals every day for DH that followed all the rules of fertility nutrition, and made sure DH had all his vitamins too, and charted and temped and used OPK's religiously and demanded an appointment with the fertility consultant and done all the tests me and DH can do.

I have saved every penny I can, despite DH getting made redunudant in Novmeber in order to pay for one go at IVF

I have had sex til I'm sick of it and encouraged and seduced DH through illness, redundancy and masculinity wobbles (cause the infertility is due to his sperm)I have tried preseed and proxeed and grapefruit juice and B6 and hypnoconception cd's, and reiki and even going on holiday.

I have been so, so good and dedicated for nearly a year and a half and I want it so, so much. So please, God, Santa, The UNiverse, PLease please let me have my BFP

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NorthernLurkerwithastarontop · 20/12/2008 13:18

I'll answer it - with every good wish and prayers for you and dh. Here's to a very Happy New Year.

pinkmook · 20/12/2008 13:21

Thank you Northernlurker

If there is any use in wishing and begging then I'll do it till my knees hurt! PLease let this be my year [begging emoticon]

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pinkmook · 20/12/2008 13:27

How rude of me....sending good wishes to you and your family too NL. Happy christmas

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NorthernLurkerwithastarontop · 20/12/2008 13:34

Fertility vibes coming your way!!!

yellowflowers · 20/12/2008 13:56

hi *pinkmook8 - hoping your wish (and mine) come true. xxxx

pinkmook · 20/12/2008 14:24

Hey Yellowflowers, maybe if enough of us wish hard enough ............

good luck to you this xmas x

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sammysam · 21/12/2008 08:52

I wish your wish will come true for you very soon. I'd also like it to come true for me,please please please pretty please. And for all the other lovely ladies trying so very hard
.....Please let 2009 be our year x x x

pinkmook · 21/12/2008 15:58

hear hear sammysam! Good luck to you too and a very un-MN round of ((((hugs)))) to you

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HeadFairy · 21/12/2008 16:08

Aw pinkmook, I hope you get your wish (it's my wish too, I'm due to ov on Christmas day - would be a lovely Christmas present )

babydust***

(they're kind of meant to be sprinkles of baby dust.... doesn't quite work )

pinkmook · 21/12/2008 18:11

Headfairy - if I could virtually hold your hand I would

I hope you get your xmas wish too xx

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ScaredOfEverything · 21/12/2008 21:48

the very very best of luck to you pinkmook. it took me 18 months too (not actually that long with hindsight...but felt like an eternity).

pinkmook · 22/12/2008 08:49

Thanks scaredofeverything...it does feel like an eternity. I feel "barren" not even the slightest hint of a pregnancy, not even a chemical pregnancy. And believe me I strat testing from 9DPO so would know

Have a lovely xmas SOE

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ScaredOfEverything · 22/12/2008 09:30

I know exactly how you feel. I really do. Especially when you see everyone around you getting pregnant at the drop of a hat. I just wished the whole time that I could glimpse into the future and check everything was ok.

ScaredOfEverything · 22/12/2008 09:30

I know exactly how you feel. I really do. Especially when you see everyone around you getting pregnant at the drop of a hat. I just wished the whole time that I could glimpse into the future and check everything was ok.

pinkmook · 22/12/2008 11:52

Yes If I could just see into the future and know one way or another. But its the constant living in limbo, holding onto money to pay for IVF and being frightened to plan too far.

It truly is like some form of mental torture

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sammysam · 22/12/2008 20:13

It really is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through-well not that i'm out the other side....yet (touch wood)

I could cope with 18 months-especially if I knew.

Comma2 · 22/12/2008 23:16

I had the same thing! Spermcount low, waiting forever while you are getting older and everybody left right and center is having babys.....Hold on! It happened for me, lots of others, and it will happen for you, too. And once it does, the entire horrible wait and all that pain will be completely forgotten.

Why is your DH count low? Maybe it can be fixed.

pinkmook · 23/12/2008 07:20

Thanks Comma - I really hope so, just feels like we will be one of those "left on the shelf" so to speak. DH count is low due to a reversed vasectomy so little can be done without spending large amounts of money we dont have and we have been told our money would be best spent (i.e best chance of a pregnancy) on IVF. I am due to see the consultant again on tuseday next week to get my referral to a private clinic for this as we are not eligible for NHS treatment due to DH's vasectomy. (despite reversal)

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terrier141 · 23/12/2008 08:28

Pink - reading your post has actually brought me to tears. You really do deserve your BFP so much, I know how hard you have been trying and cant imagine how strong you must be to keep going - your a star!
Just wanted you to know that Im here for you - holding your virtual hand and keep my fingers crossed for you every month. Heres hoping that 2009 will bring you (and me!) more luck! Come on we can do it - we will graduate out of this and finally make it to the "pregnancy" board!!
xx

pinkmook · 23/12/2008 16:10

God Terrier you've just made me cry too!

Thank you so much, I will be here to virtually hold your hand too I wish so much it could be us

The idea of graduating to the pregnancy boards just seems like such a far off dream, I dont feel like it will ever be me - I felt so sure it would happen when we first got the reversal, I thought I'd be like WelshL and fall quickly but every month I failed and I cant look at the general TTC threads any more as all the people who were on there when I first started have fell PG and moved on and its just too depressing. I just beg that its me one day soon but I doubt it x

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Comma2 · 23/12/2008 21:21

A doctor told my friend it would be like getting all numbers right in lottery for her to get pregnant with her DH sperm count- and it happened, twice. Hang in there! Next year is your year.

pinkmook · 24/12/2008 07:27

Thanks comma2 hope you get your wish too

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VJay · 24/12/2008 08:43

I'm wishing a BFP for you right now

pinkmook · 24/12/2008 09:21

Thanks Vjay! Have a very lovely xmas

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nellsmum · 30/12/2008 18:04

wishing you everything you dream of in 2009. you deserve it.

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