This bumpy journey is making me seasick

[mags98]

Well got a BFP on tuesday. 12 days after positive OPK,Day 32 of 35 day cycle, period would have been due today but no sign.

Have had a bit of a rocky road so far - I amd nearly 36, trying for 18 months. I had a silent miscarriage in August last year at 9 weeks, had medical management. Then no luck until April when I had another very early miscarriage at 5 weeks, but I had been spotting since a week before, so obviously never really going anywhere.

During all this time I was having virtually no periods, but knew I was ovulating. So something was not right. At the beginning of July I had a hysteroscopy which showed Asherman's syndrome (intrauterine adhesions) which were treated and I was on shitloads of hormones/steroids for weeks. I saw the consultant on 1 Sep who hoped all was now OK but wanted to do an HSG to check the cavity was now clear of adhesions. He did scare me a bit with tales of permanent scarring to the uterus etc.

So now looks like I am pregnant again, this is the third time now. And I am very scared and nervous about what will happen now. I have been having mild cramps but otherwise no real symptoms except sore boobs.

I hope this pregnancy will continue, but I can't get excited because of all the problems I have had. Could it really continue this time?

And if it does continue than I will end up with a baby at the end of it and that is REALLY scary!

How to avoid stressing out?