I'm fucking sick of it. Every month it's the same let down and I'm supposed be all 'oh well it's alright, we'll try AGAIN'. It is not alright. I'm sick of crying over it.
My period used to be regular but I've been counting every hour and it's fucked up. I imagine symptoms every month, I know that. I think I feel sick when in reality 9dpo is way too early to have morning sickness but this month I really did feel different. My boobs hurt way more than usual and have done for six days, I was definately going to the loo more in the last two days and I've had a pain in my right side all day today. It was so sore that I wanted to take a painkiller for it but wouldn't incase I was pg.
Now I've just started bleeding on CD23 It's not bright red just brown but that's how AF always starts so I'm not fooling myself into thinking it could be implantation.
Then there's the guilt. I feel so guilty because I know there are lots of other people who have been ttc way longer than me and other who have had mc's and here I am complaining about not having a BFP after trying for just under a year.
I'm mad with my body and I'm mad with God. I never thought I'd say that. I do have faith but it's being tested right now to a limit I don't think I can handle. I feel so guilty for questioning my faith and again because I know some people are tested to a much greater degree and I feel like a bitch. I have a beautiful, thankfully healthy dd. My past is catching up on me and I think I'm being punished for stupid mistakes I made as a teenager. Karma.
I cannot believe it only CD23. I NEVER had AF this early Something is wrong. Technically it's not even CD23 because Af arrived last month at 7pm on the 27th so it's only 23days and 2 hours. 10days after I think I OV'd.
This is the fucking pits
I'm sorry if this is all over the place.
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I'm so fucking angry and pissed off with ttc
crunch · 20/07/2008 22:17
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