I think I have left it too late to have another and feel really down about it

[lostittoday]

Hi
I have been ttc my 2nd for 9 months now with no success.

For a long time I felt unable to bring the subject of having another up with my dp.
He was always dead set against it.

However shortly before I turned 37 the broodiness came to a hilt and after alot of discussion my dp did reluctantly agree.

I realised at the time that falling pregnant at 37 could prove difficult.
Early menopause is in my family between the ages of 38 and 40.
When I was trying to persuade my dp I mentioned that I may not have much time whnever he said I will think about it.

Now here I am worrying that I am going into early menopause.
The problem is that my cycle has been all over the place recently with long absences, and then short and then long cycles.
Now I am on cd 58 and nothing again.

I am convinced that I am entering menopause and that I will probably not have any more children.
My sisters periods had completely stopped by the age of 40 same goes for my mom.

I am due to have hormonal tests to try and find out what is going on.
In the meantime I feel like crying as I really feel thats its too late for me.
I don,t know what I will do if I get a definate diagnoses of menopause.

[ljhooray]

HI there,
So sorry that you're hurting so much and remember, there's lots of us out here on Mumsnet hoping all the best for you.
My eldest sister had a very similar situation (in fact she had been trying for a number of years with suggestions of early menopause hanging over her head). However, she had her second when she was in her late thirties. Our family too have many gyno issues and in fact, I had been told I would have difficulties conceiving (coupled with teh fact my husband has a serious renal condition which effects fertility), but my dd is now 13 mths old and the light of my life (I'm mid thirties).

Hang in there, thinking great thoughts for you and whenever I worry if I will have another I just look at my little dd and feel so lucky to have been given the experience of motherhood.