how insane has ttc made you? I've fully lost my grip on reality!

[tryingnottoobsess]

day 24 of my cycle and I've got abdominal pain and reddish discharge (sorry if tmi). So I just went to the doctor to 'rule out an ectopic' She did an internal and said 'It's your period starting'.

Of course it is, but I'm too blinded by counting days, peeing on sticks, popping vits, engineering 'spontaneous sex', hoping for the best and expecting the worst to realise the flippin obvious that it's just AF appearing 5 days early.

Am quite ashamed of my hypochondria and obsession, maybe made worse by her being absolutely lovely to me...

How can I stop the madness? Any stories of losing the plot to cheer me up while I look forward to AF appearing in full fury?

[tryingnottoobsess]

thanks tmmj, I've been wondering if it might be an idea to take a break. But I can't imagine having the willpower when I know it's getting near the right time. We've only been trying 10 months, which I think is less than average for my age (32), but I've managed to fit in 2 miscarriages, so it has been an emotional and physical rollercoaster.

[MiMao]

Hello

I understand how you feel about feeling like you are losing your mind.

I think about babies most of the day and up until I fall asleep.

I said on another thread earlier that yesterday I held a small baby and actually got all emotional.

Having two children already and been through the whole broody phase before and it really does take over your life.

Keep in there, my friend is due her first baby in a few weeks and is 39, she had been trying for two years. She became totally obsessed, following this strict diet, not drinking, exercising too much. Eventually she got so fed up and went out a mad night out with friends - everything went out the window and she decided to try go back to her normal ways and then bingo. You do hear that a lot.

We can carry on being mad but just confess on mumsnet then our partners wont section us

[tryingnottoobsess]

Oh ok tmmj, see what you mean. and MiMao is saying the same about her friend... that's a regime I think I could live with, bring on the vino and crappy diet - I'm back off the wagon! Actually I've just demolished the best part of a bag of mini eggs whilst mumsnetting, so I guess I'm off to a flying start!

[Sam100]

We were ttc for 18 mths after a mc at 13 weeks. I went completely bonkers and made dh try all sorts of mad attempts to get pg - sex every day, no sex until right days, sex and then legs up in the air. You name it I tried it. Ended up pg after boozy weekend abroad before we had appt at fertility clinic! Now have 3 lovely dcs.

Just keep at it and try to keep as sane as you can!

[tryingnottoobsess]

Hi Hana I've temped on and off, since I read Toni Weschler after my first mc. Whilst I find the info from temping useful (and yes, we time it right, and reasonably frequently as far as I can see) I think it messes with my head a bit.

Zita West kind of summed it up for me when I read somewhere that she discourages temping because she thinks it isn't that great for your first waking thought to be ttc (or more accurately failing to conceive) related. I can really see how for some women it's ace, but I know I have a tendency to obsess (hence my name!) and am actively trying to avoid things that can feed that.

This month I just temped for a week around the time I knew I'd ovulate. I'm only 2 cycles on from my 2nd miscarriage, so I just wanted to see if things were getting back to normal.

I'm very normal in real life by the way! In fact, I think most of my friends would describe me as laid back. But this ttc thing is really pushing all my crazy buttons!