exactly as the title says really, terrified and excited both at the same time.
2 years ago I experienced a mmc from an unplanned pregnancy, now ready to try for real and make a little family. no idea what to expect but AF arriving today has made the idea all that more real. not telling friends or family we are trying but wanted to just tell someone ready, steady, GO!
also - anyone know a way to calm the mmc fear? one reason we have waited so long to try since mmc is the fear of it happening again, i know it still could and i'm not trying to deny that, but the anxiety of it is still putting me off even now