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Weethree Mon 02-Jun-14 12:58:35

I promised myself I wouldn't do this this time around, but here I am again with my am I/ aren't I pregnancy thoughts going round my head all day every day!

Feeling very sicky for a good few days but still hungry at the same time, sore boobs, want to cry about everything and have had a mild but constant headache. Feeling pregnant but think it's all wishful thinking as it's unlikely it has happened naturally. Don't have regular periods so don't have a date to go by for POAS and doubt I even ovulated so feel stupid for even getting my hopes up hmm

I'm due to start clomid soon but wish I didnt have to go through it all again and that I was already pg.

Really annoyed with myself for falling into this trap again, anyone want to join me in a pity party smile

Justpickagoddamnname Mon 02-Jun-14 14:23:02

Yep been there! Even though knew was damn near impossible pregnant have still interpreted the most ridiculous signs as pregnancy. Thrush! I'm pregnant! Need a pee! I'm pregnant! I have pcos and irregular periods too so the POAS thing is tricky for me too!
You have my sympathy OP. Good luck with everything!

Sighing Mon 02-Jun-14 16:21:34

Absolutely understand how you can leap into sign spotting no matter how much you 'logic it' away. I can feel myself gearing up to a dizzy state of hope. When I shouldn't.
Distraction of a seriously big pile of laundry. ... Hmmm perhaps a little bit of me prefers the daydreaming / googling symptoms to doing laundry too.

Pity party or laundry? ... Make mine wine

Weethree Mon 02-Jun-14 19:59:05

Thanks so much for answering, it's so bloody frustrating isnt it? I'm so glad this is the last time I will have to go through this, I hate this bit so much I can't think of anything else and I'm almost willing myself to feel more sick.... I must be mad hmm

I will definitely join you in a wine or few smile

stubbornstains Mon 02-Jun-14 20:06:21

Yup. The amount of work hours I've lost in the last few months (I'm self employed) to bloody Googling or trawling online TTC forums- in fact I'm doing it now, aren't I!

I think it doesn't help if you have a tendency to obsessive thinking anyway, as I do. I'm considering getting a bit of counselling because it's doing my head in that much.

(Currently AF is 6 days overdue, another BFN this morning, and pregnancy/ implantation symptoms by the bucketload. I really do not feel in a good way mentally today. At all sad).

Weethree Mon 02-Jun-14 20:23:28

Sorry to hear that Stubborn hmm are your periods normally regular? It's difficult isn't it because on one hand stress etc. Can delay a period but then again it can take some people longer to get a BFP than others. Why can't it just be simple?

I will keep my fingers crossed for you smile

1moretime Mon 02-Jun-14 20:58:22

Hi ladies. Can i join in? I have pcos...convinced i was pregnant last cycle, but no just my body playing tricns on me AGAIN!! ...and another long cycle of 56 days!
Currently on day 25 & have been sick twice last 2 mornings...so must be pregnant...weeing loads & cramps. The things that go through my bloody mind!
How long are your cycles?
Do you track or take temps ect? Xx

1moretime Mon 02-Jun-14 20:59:15

Tricks...not trincs! shock

stubbornstains Mon 02-Jun-14 21:03:48

No chance of me being PG now, at 18DPO sad

I've just started charting my cycle- and this is the first cycle that's gone weird! (although I'm 40, so it could be the beginning of the perimenopause). My temps have been all over the place, as I've also had terrible insomnia, so I'm struggling to see a pattern this month.

I suspect that either this cycle is anovulatory, or that I've had a v. late ovulation, but can't really tell so far confused.

1moretime Mon 02-Jun-14 21:09:54

You never know stubbornstains
You may have ov late hun.
I know how you feel ..i just started 5 days ago to take temps in morn, but not sure how it all works plus im midway through cycle day 25!
I have had lotsa dc so wanted to try & see if i ov.
My temps are low though so far ....36.2, 35.5, 35.5 then dropped to 35.3 then back to 35.5 today confused
Done opk on thurs & fri...line but very faint...dont have anymore to take though x

Weethree Mon 02-Jun-14 21:27:55

Of course you can join, more the merrier! smile

No point in me tracking or anything as up until recently I didn't have a period for nearly 9 months shock
The only time I've been regular is when on clomid and will be starting that soon but still can't help thinking, maybe one egg did get through as I was told you don't have to have periods to ovulate so there is a very slim chance for me

1moretime Mon 02-Jun-14 22:23:09

Best of luck weethree i hope one of your eggs made it through hun & sticks xx
Im on metformin to try & help me ov and regulate my periods. Xx

Weethree Tue 03-Jun-14 08:10:13

Thanks 1more x

Did a pg test this morning and it was negative sad not sure why I'm feeling like I am but will keep hoping it's because I'm pg

Weethree Fri 06-Jun-14 14:27:37

So I've had a headache now for about a week, only mild but constant. Feel really tired and sicky a lot of the time. Also when I do feel hungry I'm only fancying certain things. My boobs ache and I keep getting shooting pains in them. Today I have had sort of period type pains but different to normal ones iykwim

All sounds good doesn't it? Who wants to bet I'm in for a big let down confused

I'm too scared to POAS as I can't stand the feeling when it's neg

stubbornstains Fri 06-Jun-14 16:55:14

SYMPTOM SPOTTING IS THE DEVIL'S WORK!!!!!

Seriously, I even went off wine and coffee last week! Absolute proof of pregnancy! Except that I wasn't sad. Our subconscious is bloody powerful...

But maybe you'll prove me wrong....smile

HaPPy8 Fri 06-Jun-14 16:58:57

Im like this too. Trying for over 2 years now. Cycles vary 28-34 days and i get my hopes up every month sad

1moretime Fri 06-Jun-14 17:10:19

Best of luck weethreee
Sounds promising but ya never know xxx

Weethree Fri 06-Jun-14 17:15:05

So true stubborn grin
What makes it worse though is not having any type of cycle length, that's the one good thing about clomid at least it makes me regular as this is no good for my mental health! Doc won't give it me for a while yet though.

I really hope I do too Happy, it's so frustrating, why do our bodies hate us so much?

1more...do you think you ovulated? Any news?

1moretime Fri 06-Jun-14 18:32:11

Hi hun.
Well i started charting my temp half way through my cycle...just to see. I know it wont be as reliable as i havent done it from day 1.

Had lots of watery dc which lasted about 4-5 days all in all & cramps & pains in lower abdo.

Anyhow i posted my chart on here to see what people think as...i had a dip in temp on day 28 (tues) then my temp shot up on wed morning & up yday & up today. I read that you need to have 3 high temp readings after a dip to show ov. ..i really hope i have. Not sure if we dtd at the right time as i didnt know when or if i would ov.
I would just be so happy to know i am ov? Xxx

1moretime Fri 06-Jun-14 18:32:50

Hi hun.
Well i started charting my temp half way through my cycle...just to see. I know it wont be as reliable as i havent done it from day 1.

Had lots of watery dc which lasted about 4-5 days all in all & cramps & pains in lower abdo.

Anyhow i posted my chart on here to see what people think as...i had a dip in temp on day 28 (tues) then my temp shot up on wed morning & up yday & up today. I read that you need to have 3 high temp readings after a dip to show ov. ..i really hope i have. Not sure if we dtd at the right time as i didnt know when or if i would ov.
I would just be so happy to know i am ov? Xxx

1moretime Fri 06-Jun-14 18:33:59

This is my chart so far xx

stubbornstains Fri 06-Jun-14 21:07:27

That's a massive jump! Looks like ovulation! You don't necessarily need a dip, just a "thermal shift".

Funny, I think I ovulated on Day 28 too now...but that's only obvious in retrospect. That's the first time ever I've had a long cycle like this- and on my first month charting too confused. But on the bright side, if I hadn't been charting I'd've had no idea what was going on whatsoever- instead of some idea like I have now...

1moretime Fri 06-Jun-14 21:37:55

Awww i really hope so :-)
Do you think it is too late on tho to conceive?
I have irreg cycles 35-45 days but last one was 56.

I didnt realise that it is just the thermal shift you need. I thought the dip was important. I have so much to learn, but am happy i have ov'd smile

How many dpo are you stubborn ?
Xxx

stubbornstains Fri 06-Jun-14 21:42:26

Ummm....9. Technically, technically we could just have DTD at the right time, but 'tis slim....At the moment I'd just be happy to confirm that I have a decent luteal phase and for my blaaaaardy period to arrive in 2-3 days!

jbee1979 Fri 06-Jun-14 21:58:23

Just what I needed to read!! I'm not alone! thank you thank you thank you for making me feel more normal! ! can I join in the pity party? wink

MMC march, ttc april & may, AF due tomorrow but serious pregnancy symptoms all this week and no AF symptoms.

i've been peeing on sticks at least twice a day for five days now - Internet cheapies 10miu/ml. it doesn't matter how I squint, what colour background I hold it against, daylight, dim light, light bulbs - the shocking whiteness of where my BFP line should be is disturbing. its so white its nearly blue! and the pink test/control line - its purple, shocking purple-black!!

DH is upset, 3 friends wives have announced their pregnancies this week, and then another today. its also his birthday today - I fantasised about putting the BFP test in his card this morning hmm

the pressure to upduff me is putting a strain on his sex drive so I feel bad about that, on top of not being a successful baby-carrier on our first attempt.

I can't think about anything else, no one in real life understands.

presuming we didn't hit the jack pot this month - what's the plan for next month? try to relax and bin the opks and thermometer, stop obsessing about CM? I wash my hands three time on every visit to the loo - wash, pee, wash, CM check, wash.

try to relax? that's like saying "try not to think about chocolate".

do I make a doctors appointment and tell her I think I'm broken? I don't know if I'm even ovulating - temp & opk don't give me a positive - I just feel what I've always thought was ovulation pain - but I have no evidence to back it up.

I feel the need to be doing something all the time - planning, taking control of something, because when we lost our baby I lost hope and dreams and happiness and my wee buddy who came everywhere with me and for a short time I felt completely complete, I was nurturing a little life that my husband and I made - he's the love of my life, and he was so happy and proud. he kissed my tummy at night, and patted it and talked to it through the day.

last night I dreamt about our baby. We imagined it was a girl. in my dream we had a boy - he was little, but really clever - about 9mths old, riding a tricycle - and I was looking at him, DH beside me, saying "look at him go! he's so clever, so totey, but look at him cycling himself!"

This is poop sad

sorry about the length of this!! its magnificent to vent!!

fingers crossed - everyone xx

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