Don't want to do a test :(

(110 Posts)
SadPanda Mon 08-Oct-12 16:05:27

I'm so mixed up and don't have anyone to talk to. I feel so sad. sad

My period is definately a week overdue, possibly 3 or more as I can't remember exactly when the last one was. They've become a bit less reliable than they used to be and are so light they barely register anymore. Hormone changes due to my age I think (I'm 40 now).

My husband and I started trying to conceive several years ago but sadly nothing happened. Then as hormones started to change nature became cruel and PMT symtoms became more and more like being pregnant. I spent a small fortune on pregnancy tests each month only for period to start straight after testing. The emotional rollcoaster was killing me, so I got off it and resigned myself to not getting pregnant and to be honest, once I passed 40 I thought the ship had sailed.

Now I feel terrible, can't sleep, get up several times in the night to pee, my breasts are so sore on the outside and achey on the inside. I know I need to do a test but I can't bring myself to do it. I feel like I'm kidding myself and I can't cope with the hurt of being back on the rollercoaster. But I want to know. But when it says negative I'll feel like such a fool. Again. sad

It's probably all stress related anyway. sad

SoldierKatnissEverdeen Tue 09-Oct-12 16:01:53

Lovely news panda!
Congratulations.
Enjoy sharing the news with your dh. Perhaps a name change to happy panda is appropriate. smile

DaringToHopePanda Tue 09-Oct-12 16:08:11

Thank you all so much for your kindness and support.

Makingmama Tue 09-Oct-12 16:08:42

Congratulations!!!!!! grin

juneybean Tue 09-Oct-12 16:09:11

Congratulations!!

Sorry to hear you've lost your father recently. sad
Sounds like you've got a fab DH....who'll make a fab dad in 9-ish months!

Have you planned how you'll tell him? Ooh and your mum!

Loving the name change!

Oh just seen this. I had a very very faint line to begin with. An now 30 weeks!

Do remember that digital ones are not normally as sensitive, so if that's what you've got it might not show a 'pregnant' result for a few days. The most sensitive are pink dye ones (rather than blue) and first morning urine has a higher concentration of hcg so will give a better result!

Fingers crossed for you!

QueenofNightmares Tue 09-Oct-12 16:16:38

I had a very faint line after years of trying to conceive, I'm off for my first scan tomorrow.

Congratulations! grin

DaringToHopePanda Tue 09-Oct-12 16:24:05

The one I did first was a pink one, but done this afternoon. I say it's faint but that's compared to the control line. There's no doubt it's there though.

I've been telling my husband that I don't feel well for weeks now and using that as my excuse for having done nothing at home all day (the house is a tip at the moment). So if the digital one also shows positive, when he gets in and asks what I've done today (as he does everyday because he worried about how I've been feeling), I'll tell him "nothing, but this time I've got a bloody good excuse" and then show him the results. grin

My mum of course is going to cry and then tell every man and his dog, so I might have to keep it from her for a bit longer.

DaringToHopePanda Tue 09-Oct-12 16:26:10

I keep looking at the result. I know it's a positive result, but I just can't believe it. It's the weirdest feeling.

MainlyMaynie Tue 09-Oct-12 16:28:38

I think you need to post a stick picture smile. Let us all share the joy!

phantomhairpuller Tue 09-Oct-12 16:31:48

Congratulations panda grin looks like exciting times ahead x

DaringToHopePanda Tue 09-Oct-12 16:40:09

The digital one says pregnant 3+ which apparantly means I'm 5 or more weeks pregnant, which ties in with my rough calculations. I was in England the last week of August for my dad's funeral so I know definately I haven't had a period then or since then. I can't remember before that.

It's real isn't it? It's really real?

It is real! grin congratulations panda, you are going to be a mummy!

DaringToHopePanda Tue 09-Oct-12 16:43:12

MainlyMaynie, to post a picture I'd have to know more about computers than how to turn it on and access the internet confused grin

MainlyMaynie Tue 09-Oct-12 16:45:19

Yay, it's really really real! I think 3+ is the highest it goes isn't it? So you could be more than 5 weeks too.

nannyof3 Tue 09-Oct-12 16:47:08

Ah bless grin smile

CookieRookie Tue 09-Oct-12 16:54:43

Oh I LOOOOOOVE threads like this! grin

Huge congratulations.

thanks (decaf brew)

WingDefence Tue 09-Oct-12 16:57:37

I've just found your thread Panda - congratulations!!! grin

MainlyMaynie Tue 09-Oct-12 17:03:08

I'm going to guess you're 8 weeks, if you've been feeling ill for a few weeks and can't remember a period since August. How wonderful it will be for your Mum to get this news too.

madda Tue 09-Oct-12 17:06:46

Sorry to hear you lost your dad recently OP

But a newborn in your family? That's wonderful news!

Are you ok though?

Flojo1979 Tue 09-Oct-12 17:16:11

Congratulations panda that's wonderful news. Update us when u tell DH!

TakingTheStairs Tue 09-Oct-12 17:27:54

I've just stumbled across this thread but wanted to wish you a MASSIVE congratulations. Such wonderful news after all you've been through.

Do let us know how your DH reacted (if you don't mind)

Christelle2207 Tue 09-Oct-12 17:29:35

yes do tell what dh says. congrats panda you are up the duff!!!! so pleased for you x

DinosaursOnASpaceship Tue 09-Oct-12 17:33:14

This thread has made me sob! (pregnancy hormones - you'll be the same soon!) huge congratulations!! I am so very happy for you.

DinosaursOnASpaceship Tue 09-Oct-12 17:34:18

Ps. I had all the symptoms you have and was 9 weeks when I found out I was pregnant and my clear blue said 3+ too so here's hoping you are quite far along!

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