Arrg, i am driving myself crazy!

[girlwithacurl]

Hi, I have been offline for awhile, but had to come on as I am driving myself crazy and I can't talk to anyone in RL about it.

DP and I have been trying for over 3 years, 2 miscarriages, and ectopic, where i lost a tube, later still no luck. We had given ourselves this month as a deadline, for a variety of reasons, but mostly he will now be away for a few months so we can't try anyway. When he gets back we will start IVF and look at adopting. Anyway that is the back story.

So, I have been under the weather this cycle, and on anti-biotics, ibuprofen and cold and flu medication etc. We did manage a few times, but I temp, and with the fever I had it was difficult to identify ov, but the OPK did give me a positive and we BD'd accordingly. Anyway, a few days ago, about 7DPO by my reckoning, I started spotting, only slightly and only for a day, and then it stopped not to return. Anyway, I have convinced myself that this was an implantation bleed.

I cant say anything to DP as 1) I don't want to get his hopes up, and 2) if I am PG I am not sure if I would tell him until I had my 7 week scan. As I said he will be away and he will worry loads. Also with my track record the liklihood is I will MC again and he will feel useless and alone far away from me.

As I say the ONLY sign i have is some slight spotting at 7 DPO so I basing this on a very tenuouse thing, but I never get spotting and I so want to be PG...

arrrrgggg

[RFCMummy]

Oh poor you what a lot u have to deal with. I can't help apart from wish u all the luck in the world and if anyone deserve a bfp then its you. For what its worth I had an implantatoion bleed with dd2 at 5dpo and got a positive test at about 10dpo. Not sure when ur af is due? X x

[cep]

hey girl So sorry for your losses. when would you normally start af? 7 dpo is within the "time frame" for a implant bleed. Unfortunately there's no way to know until pg test. fx for you.

[girlwithacurl]

thanks guys. I am due tomorrow, so if my temp goes down in the morning I know it is all over... I don't know wether to wish the hours away, or be glad that I still have some hope.

[cep]

hi girl i got a bfp this morning am also due on sat so waiting to see what happens. don't rely on temps totally i'll be taking another test next week to see the figures go up (i hope)

[girlwithacurl]

Oh, thats fantastic Cep brilliant news. Just hope the good luck is catching!

[cep]

Have you tried a test? i meant to say my temp had gone down this morning, and that was with a bad night sleep so technically should have been up.

[girlwithacurl]

no, will probably test tomorrow, if my temp doesn't go right down and AF doesn't visit in the night!

Not feeling very hopeful now... This was our last go really, I even cried on DP the last time we BD'd, which you can imagine is not exactly the reaction he was going for!

[cep]

Hae you had any ususal signs of af approaching?