Absolutely shitting myself. +HTP but not pregnant, Please help

[rosieposey]

IThis is a bit long sorry but any advice would be so gratefully recieved im so worried, i will go to the GP this coming week but if anyone could shed some light on whats going on id be grateful.

Im ttc and im on cycle 12 and day 13 of my cycle today. Last cycle at the end i got a few +htps which seemed to turn negative towards the time my AF was due. I chart as well and my temps dropped on DPO14 and AF came. I thought it was a bit weird as in all of the time i have been testing whilst i have been ttc i always seem to get 'evaps' or runs of positives on very low sensitivity tests '20' miu or '10' then AF comes so i just assumed i had had a chemical pg.

Anyway i had a normal period this time and last weekend about three days my AF had finished i took a very low sensitivity test out of curiosity as i had begun to suspect that maybe i had a dodgy batch of tests, a line came up on each of the 10miu's i realised that as i am charting and my temps are low again like always at the beginning of a cycle and i have had a full period that i cant be pregnant (also the lines are really faint) so i threw them away (they were 10 miu ones) Then today i had some slightly less sensitive ones left over and thought id would try them. Each and every one has a line on - really faint again but a line.

Now i would be jumping up and down for joy if i thought for one minute i am pregnant but i have noticed pinkish discharge the last few days and this morning i wiped and there was faint brown streaked in my cervical mucus. I know i cant be pg because my temps arent up. I have had a normal period for 6 days. I have no symptoms whatsoever and i ALWAYS get sore boobs and have other symptoms whenever i am pregnant. And lastly if by some randomness i was pregnant the tests by six weeks would be quite strong by now but they arent, for some reason there seems to be faint traces of hcg in my urine and i didnt know why so i googled.

It seems the only reason for hcg in urine is, pregnancy, fertility drugs or a tumor :(

Im absolutely shitting myself as obviously as ive been ttc and getting these random positives that ive been thinking have been evap lines or chemical pregnancies may have been picking up on hcg because i have cancer. I know no-one can say either way and i know i have to go to the GP but im so scared because i know in my heart of hearts that im not pregnant, my temps are low, im getting the usual cycle signs approaching ovulation (i use a clearblue fertility monitor) so i dont see how i can be, also the apparent low hcg (faint lines) would surely be wrong at six weeks (surely i would have stronger lines?

Of course i am thinking the worst because apart from being pregnant its the only other answer there are only the three scenarios that i wrote about above where you can have hcg in your system, just wondered if anyone at all had any other ideas? Ectopic maybe? I dont know if you can get your period and have an ectopic ect ... am also posting this in general health too - ive spent the morning in tears because i know something is wrong, i just hope its not what i think it is :(

[GetDownYouWillFall]

I know you are scared, but try not to jump to conclusions straight away. I think it's unlikely that it's cancer.

Perhaps you had an early miscarriage and it's taking a while for the HCG to leave your system. I think that can happen.

I doubt it's an ectopic as if so your temps would probably still be high. Also you would be in pain I think.

As you say, a trip to the GP is definitely in order, but for now just try not to panic - and stop googling!!!

[OracleInaCoracle]

you may still be pg, many women have periods throughout their pg's and charting isnt always reliable. you know that a trip to the gp is the only way you will find out though. fingers crossed.

[rosieposey]

Yeah i know. I am the worst advocate for saying dont google but i just couldnt understand how i could have hcg in my system as if i did have an early ms (bear in mind my AF was on time) its been two weeks and it was a fairly heavy bleed so i dont see how i could still have hcg in my system. I only googled to see what the reasons could be and i kept coming up with just three.

Lissie i know some women get periods and they are pg but i have been pg about 7 times in total and not once have i ever had an AF also i would have thought that if i was pg then my temps would have stayed up and its weird they took a dive on the day AF showed up.

[GetDownYouWillFall]

there could be some retained products I guess which could generate a small amount of HCG still.

With low temps and having had a heavy bleed it's not likely that you're pregnant, but yuo already know that.

Please just try and relax, nothing you can do until you see the dr.

[EnnisDelMar]

Oh you poor thing. I would agree with everyone else, you need to have a blood test and maybe a scan to rule out ectopic.

I hope it is all a worry about nothing and you are fine. xx

[baby2b]

Do you live near an early pregnancy unit? It is worth going and getting checked out asap, to at least give yourself peace of mind. It could be any number of things, so please don't stress yourself out. With a chemical pg and miscarriage it can give you positives for a couple of weeks after your period. With ectopic it doesn't always develop, so you can still get your af. If you have any pains or feeling of discomfort go to a&e. Otherwise, try and stay away from google until you have seen your doc.

Please let us know how you get on.

[arionater]

I'm not sure but I think I once read that with an ectopic pregnancy temps can drop as you'd expect after your period - so definitely worth seeing a GP or EPU and mentioning both the positive tests and taking your charts to show them.

[galwaygal]

Rosie - I don't want to get your hopes up in case it is something more sinister, but it could well be that you are pregnant! Firstly during pregnancy temps are not reliable, secondly bleeding in pregnancy is extremely common and thirdly some women do not get positive tests during pregnancy! I just want you to know that there is an alternative answer to it being a tumour. If it is an ectopic, you do need to be careful, if you get any signs of an ectopic then head straight to a&e do not delay. I really hope that you get good news when you go to the doctor (don't let him fob you off), or go straight to EPU if you can during the week.

Let us know how things go, will be thinking of you.

[GetDownYouWillFall]

Hi rosie how are you doing today? Have you been to the dr. yet?