I'm full term with dc2 (and this will be my last pregnancy). I was induced and had an EMCS with my ds, and really wanted a VBAC this time, but nothing's happening and because of my age, BMI and previous c-section I've been booked in for a reluctant ELCS on Friday. I know it's the right thing to do - my head knows it anyway. The health of my baby is paramount and I won't risk it. But my heart is a bit broken to have never experienced going into labour. I feel like my body has let me down somehow, and I've missed out on a natural process which I'd always assumed was going to happen to me. My DH gets it, but my DM and DMIL are very stiff-upper-lip types and keep saying things like 'as long as you and the baby are ok then what's the problem' which just makes me cry. After the EMCS with ds1 I was very unhappy (bordering on PND) and grieving for the birth experience I didn't have, and it took me ages to bond with ds. I'm fine now, but scared it will happen to me again.
Just wanted to know I'm not alone in feeling this way. I know I'll get through it, I'm just unhappy, tired and hormonal at the moment and could do with a hand-hold.
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Upset to never have laboured
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LowlLowl · 25/01/2016 15:02
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