Hi everyone,
I'm new to this site and really need some help. My husband and I want to start trying for a baby in a month or so and I really really want one. I have wanted children since I was a teenager and would love nothing more than to start a family.
However, since I was ten, I've had an extreme fear of childbirth. It started when I watched a graphic film of a woman giving birth when I was at primary school. I don't remember there being any build-up to the film- we hadn't had sex ed lessons or anything; the teacher simply took the class into the library, put on the film and then left us. The film really shocked me and afterwards, when some of the other girl were saying how natural and wonderful childbirth was, I was thinking 'oh my God, that's awful- I can never go through that!' Since then, the fear has gradually got more extreme, particularly after I met my husband, moved in with him, got married, etc This is because I've got closer and closer to starting a family and, whilst I really want children, I can't seem to get over this fear.
Over the past few months, the fear has got much worse. I have nightmares, feel sick when I think about childbirth and generally feel that my phobia is 'haunting' me; I think about it pretty much 24/7; if not consciously, then it's there at the back of my mind. In once sense I'm really looking forward to being pregnant and starting a family, but on the other hand, I'm petrified and am convinced that I wont be able to enjoy my pregnancy as I've be worried about the birth and obsessing over that for nine months.
If someone was to tell me I could have a caesarean, my worries would almost completely go away and I'd be able to enjoy my potential pregnancy and look forward to everything. Do any of you know whether I could request a caesarean? How likely is it that I would get one? Would they turn me down? I am well aware of the risks of a caesarean and have researched and pros and cons of c-section versus vaginal birth, but I feel that I would be able to deal with the risks of a c-section far better than going through a natural birth.
If any of you could help (particularly if you've been through this yourself) I would be so, so grateful! I feel like I'm going out of my mind here, which is silly, as I'm not even pregnant yet! I just want to be able to look forward to pregnancy and babies and not feel an all-encompassing since of dread.
Thank you!!!!
xx
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Terrified of the prospect of childbirth
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janeh1984 · 29/08/2014 15:42
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