HI everyone, hope someone out there can offer me some words of advice, i am desperate for someone to talk to, no one around me seems to understand{sad}. When my dd was born 15 months ago,I was happily at home cooking tea for ds1 and ds2 when I started in labour.I was so calm and in control, got husband home from work, and mum round to look after kids, everything was progressing nicely.Then I realised it was time to go the hospital when I was making strange noises with contractions(as you do!!)and my dh saw the look on my face, he knew it wouldn't be much longer before she was born.We phoned the hospital to tell them we needed to come in, only to be greeted by a patronizing midwife, who insisted we stayed at home until contractions where 5 mins apart for at least 2 hours.......I explained the other 2 where fairly quick births (3hrs and 2hours)and that this was the 3rd, and that we where a 10 mile journey away..but still she insisted we stayed put.Anyway,we decided to ignore her advice and set out to the hospital, by which time contractions where coming every 2 mins in the car, just got there and the waters popped all over the seat...but I was still calm but dh was lookin slightly worried! Anyway, gets into hospital and no midwife to be seen, they were obviously busy, had to tell an auxillary to make the bed while I got changed, then tell her to hurry up cos the baby was coming...still no midwife!!
Finally this midwife breezes in,all beautifully made up and looking like an angel..she took one look at me and said'ok,push when your ready'...and thats when it all went horribly wrong...cos i just screamed and screamed the roof down the pain was so bad, they actually told me to stop screaming and concentrate on getting her out...it was truly awful compared to my 2 previous births, when i never even murmered and had just calmy got on with it.What went wrong?i just lost it, completely, and felt so dissappointed afterwards, they may as well been murdering me I was screaming so much!!Anyway, she was born quite quickly after that, not a particularly big baby, but it was mentioned once or twice at antenatal that she was lying side on in the womb..was that it? Now im pg with no 4, its due in dec, and i just can't relax and enjoy pregnancy, it was totally unplanned,im having nightmares and just dwelling on the birth all the time, im so so scared..the doc says i'll probably be too quick for an epidural...what am i to do???Im so sorry to go on and on, promise i won't harp on again in any future threads, but to all you ladies out there, i would love to hear your thoughts. x
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Childbirth
fourth time around..im so terrified..whats wrong with me?
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bubblepop · 10/10/2005 14:22
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