dieting makes me miserable but so does being overweight

[ichoosesleep]

I can wake in the morning all ready and raring to go, stick to plan alllllll day and try my best to get over 10,000 steps on the Fitbit but then as soon as it hits past 7pm I just start to not care!! I'm literally addicted to takeaways to the point I've stopped caring how much they cost. It's the comfort. Plus a bottle of Pinot with them too... I'm so ashamed.I am at my heaviest now just creeped up to 13st 4lbs I have averaged the past 10 years at 11st. I neeeeed to get this weight off! I set my goal at New Years with slimming world to lose weight for a party that happened last Saturday!! I gained weight and I've fallen out with slimming world as I'm scared of carbs and calories thanks to signing up to my fitness pal. Now I'm kind of stuck in the middle. I love my group and made loads of friends and I know I did really well when I joined but now it just doesn't make sense to me.
Plus I've got an addiction to avocado on toast with egg. I need at least 200g which works out about 20syns. I have now worked out it is 12 weeks till my birthday and summer too I refuse to be this weight and miserable but then again I said that 1st January about this party !

[BorisJohnsonsHair]

You sound just like me. I've made an effort to log all my food on MyFitnessPal, and do my 10K steps on Fitbit.

What I am for is to always be under my calorie limit. Doesn't matter by how much, just under. That way, the weight has to come off, albeit slowly. Today I've burned 2100 (according to my Fitbit) and I've only had 1550 so far, so will have a couple of glasses of wine and some cheese later. As long as I don't go over 500 cals with it. I've found it much, much easier than anything else I've done before, and it also makes me make the effort to do more Fitbit steps.

Not saying this will suit you, but might be worth a try? Good luck, and don't beat yourself up for not having done it so far. You've got 12 weeks to go; half a stone would be good by then and is very achievable. Maybe a stone by Christmas?

[ichoosesleep]

Thankyou :) see This is what I've been trying but it just always manages to creep on me. Like right now I'm not even caring and literally so close to ordering a takeaway even though Iv got to this time on a night and so far I've done 17,500 steps and 1200 cals plus 2000mls of water . So literally a perfect day! Now these negative thoughts creep in like "if your going to order a huge pizza u might as well do it at the start of your diet" or "at least if you gain weight u can buy new clothes" or the best one is " apparently there's a rumour the worlds going to end in September so just might as well eat what u want" ....
I mean what the hell who thinks like that !

[whirlygirly]

Right, have a hot drink and go to bed! Don't do it!

[gentlydownthestreamm]

You need some sort of distraction to take your mind off obsessing over takeaway. What about...

• Painting your nails while watching TV/film
  
• Going for a quick walk, with a podcast or music to listen to
  
• Reorganising your wardrobe and chest of drawers, refolding everything beautifully (watch folding videos on YouTube, they are amazing!)
  
• Suduko / crossword / puzzles / colouring
  
• Doing a full face of makeup following tutorials on YouTube, just for practice
  
• Making something / crafting / organising your photos