My gorgeous boy has just told me again that he wants to die. He's 10 years old and has absolutely no confidence,self esteem or feelings of security. He was bullied for a few years by the same boy. He moved away from him and when joined a new class the kids made similar comments so to him that is proof they are right. We have a meeting with CALMS this week and multi-agency meeting with education soon. He was off school for 2 weeks before the Christmas hols. We have had a horrendous Christmas and the stress is getting to us all. We don't know what to do. He doesn't want to move schools and to be honest his mental state is so poor he wouldn't cope. How do we send him tomorrow when he is so,terribly low and suicidal.
I have had mental health issues myself and have M.S. My son and I have a really close relationship and he has been very honest about the depth of his despair. I just want you(who are reading this) to know that I am aware that a 10 year old saying they have suicidal thoughts might be rare, it is true. In no way was this put forward it words suggested for him. The reason I'm writing this is because people around us have been very dismissive of the situation stating that not as bad as all that. If only!
Sorry, brain wandered a bit, (apologies) part of my M.S. Needless to say, that as good as my personal mental health struggles have been to help support my son and understand him, I am beginning to feel my own mental health begin to waver.
From the moment he was put into my arms I have done everything I can to help support and protect him. To live with his struggle is just cementing in my own inadequacies and failings. I just wish I had someone who could help support me. My son needs me now more than ever. I have to cry in secret because if he thinks I'm sad he feels responsible. I just wish I could pick him up and run away but my hubbie and daughter need me too.
Thanks for reading this because I have no-one else to tell and sorry if it didn't make any sense but hey, ho that just about sums me up!
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Scottie19 · 04/01/2016 17:17
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