Hi, i'm a first-time poster here so bear with me! Could be a long one!
Bit of background. My name's Lou, I'm 27, married with 2 children, a daughter of 6 years old and a son of 2 weeks. I have today made the decision to stop breastfeeding my son; I only actually set out to do it for a couple of weeks anyway (wehile my partner was on paternity leave) so I have succeeded in that. However, I have a history of depression related to hormonal changes (can't take the pill or implanon, etc. as they make me a basket case; get bad pmt sometimes - since i had the implanon i might add).
Well, the baby blues passed in the usual way, then yesterday and today i've felt really low, not helped by the fact that i'm really getting about 3 or 4 hours sleep a night, what with the school run and everything. Then everyone says "sleep when the baby sleeps", but my baby doesn't sleep much during the day, til the evening when my daughter is here and hubby's at work, so i can hardly sleep then. I don't have a lot of support; my mam dies when i was 6 and i have no family in the area. Got lots of friends, but they all have their own lives to lead.
My husband works 12-hour shifts, but he does get days off during the week when he cud do the night feeds, letting me get some sleep. I want to be a great mam to my son as i have been to my daughter (only bf her for 5 days and was so glad to stop - touch wood, she's very healthy, happy and intelligent). I am enjoying the physical closeness of bf, and my son looks so happy when he's doing it, but i know i need my sleep or i'll crack up. I've been topping him up with formula from his third night at home where he was screaming for milk but my breasts were empty.
I know in my heart that it's the right thing for me any my family; like i say, it's done my daughter no harm to be bottle fed almost from the start, but I feel SO guilty, like the worst mother in the world. Can't stop crying.
Just wondered if anyone has any words of advice or reassurance for me? My stepmum is great, but she's pretty anti bf (not big in the 60s when she had her kids). I just keep thinking, how come other people can do it and i can't? If he was my only one it wouldn't be a problem but i've got my beautiful daughter to think about, and i've done nothing but snap at her for the last 2 days cos i'm so tired. I guess what i'm looking for is someone to tell me i'm not a bad mam
Cheers,
Louxxx
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loulou1980 · 19/12/2007 18:30
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