Sorry but feeling sorry for myself - this might be a little long. I've overcome hurdle after hurdle and am now stuck between the devil and the deep blue sea. I failed to ever get a good latch with dd1 but recognised that it would have been lovely so set up to get lots of support with dd2. Had an initial terrible time with dd2 until finally bf thrush was diagnosed. Had massive fight with gp who refused modern medicine but she finally gave in at around 6 months. But fluconazole didn't clear it up although it did help so perserved until 11 months. So with ds was determined that at first sign of that awful burning pain I would be on the fluconazole immediately - thus was on it by day2. With a mixture of fluconazole and mixed feeding I perserveed to 2.5 months when gp basically told me to give up as there was no hope. So started very reluctantly to wean him off me. We moved house at the same time and a new health visitor took one look at me and announced that I didn't have thrush at all and was probably suffering from Reynards phenonmenum. Now that I've learnt how to handle the Reynards I am finally pain free and feeding is beautiful. Except... I'm struggling to get him to give up the bottle. Its been a long struggle but gradually each day he latches a little longer. Then two weeks ago my back locked up during a bedtime feed (first thing in the morning) and as we know no one around us I was forced to phone for an ambulence. I went to see the back specialist yesterday. I told him repeatedly that I was breast feeding. He's given me some exercises that whilst simple are actually agony to do. He feels its essential to get my back moving soon and has therefore given me a cocktail of drugs to take. Again I questioned whether they'd be ok to take whilst breastfeeding. Oh yes he replied but you will be spaced out whilst you get used to them. So I explained that I don't know that many people down here, certainly don't have a support system to help get my kids to school should I be too spaced to drive. "No it wont be that bad". So off I went to the pharmacy with my prescription - being a little neurotic of drugs and a little distrustful of doctors when I don't think they've been listening well I asked the pharmascist and guess what, the main drug is not licenced for bfing women. His words where that whilst it would probably be ok he couldn't actually recommend I take it and was surprised that the doctor had given it to me.
To cope with the kids on my own I need my back to function (tonight I'm struggling to pick up ds). To get my back functioning I need to do the excercises and keep all things non-inflamed ... which means taking the drugs.
So I've not taken anything, I'm frozen up and in pain, tearful and v.v. pissed off.
Breast feeding is sooo incredibly beautiful. I want to do it. This is about me and not about ds, he's fine - its just that we don't plan to have anymore so this is my last chance! Not fair
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Sometimes it just feels like sod is going out of his way to prevent me breastfeeding my little one!!!
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Wills · 01/10/2006 19:58
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