Am fairly new to mumsnet, and have read some of the "bf v ff" threads on here. Am terrified of starting another fight but really need a bit of support so am going to post this anyway. Apologies in advance for how long this is going to be.
I just assumed all through my pregnancy I would bf - never considered otherwise. However I stopped bf my ds (now 11 weeks) at four weeks for a number of reasons which I would summarise as:
latching on still v painful
feeding times v frequent(and unpredictable)
ds had bad reflux and wind so could never just take him into bed and feed lying down as would have to sit up and wind him throughout the feed
ds would often take 5 or 10 minutes to latch on correctly (which when feeding for the fifth time in the night seemed like forever)
and because of this stuff I was hating it and dreading feeds and resenting it even though he was gaining weight ok. I made the decision to stop overnight because I was just so tired and fed up.
Once I gave up he settled into a routine, and the reflux actually improved for whatever reason. Unfortunately, I came out of my sleep deprived haze for the first time in a month and gradually began to feel I'd made a mistake and I should have tried much harder to do the best for him. Plus from reading posts on bounty and mumsnet I've realised that all the things I've described are actually pretty normal when bf is still not established! I so wish I'd known that before.
On top of that - all my friends who have just had babies (and there are quite a few of them) are bf, some of them through quite a few problems - and I feel really
I'm giving myself a really hard time for this because I think we could have succeeded if I'd maybe asked a bf counsellor for help. I suspect the latch was never quite right, though I did get several mws to check. At the time, though I was in a bit of a cocoon and didn't want to leave the house or speak to anyone (I know how lame this sounds).
So my question to you is: how do I make peace with myself over this? FF is totally at odds with the mum I thought I was going to be (and this is absolutely NOT a criticism of anyone who FFs, whether through choice or not - it's an honest declaration of how I feel - please please take it as such). Will I ever feel any better? Or will I always feel guilty? It's pretty much ruining my time with my baby at the moment so if anyone can help with any wise words I'd be delighted.
Thanks for reading this, hope it makes sense
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Katerina75 · 27/08/2006 20:08
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