I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

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TrinityRhino Sat 11-May-13 08:40:14

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

Madamecastafiore Sat 11-May-13 08:48:52

Tell us about him. What was he like, where did you meet? What made him laugh?

Think about him as the person and tell us, try to stop focusing on the event of his death and tell us about him.

DottyDot Sat 11-May-13 08:48:59

We're here if you want to keep posting until your friend gets there. Thinking of you xx

DeepRedBetty Sat 11-May-13 08:49:04

flowers I'm so so sorry to hear this Trinity.

DiscoDonkey Sat 11-May-13 08:49:25

Oh trinity I'm so sorry this is happening to you. Life is just too cruel sometimes. Xx

Doyouthinktheysaurus Sat 11-May-13 08:50:11

OMG Trinity I am so sorrysad

You have been through so much, god life can be so fucking cruel sometimes.

xx

poppymagnum Sat 11-May-13 08:50:58

Oh no trinity I'm so sorry.

Keep posting. We're here for you and your DCs. x

Oh my god I nearly threw up when I read this and clocked that it wasn't an old post. Trinity I'm so sorry. Offering hands to hold, arms to hug and anything else that might make you feel like you aren't alone <3 XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

TweenageAngst Sat 11-May-13 08:52:44

My thoughts are with you. You gave him the best chance, I know that is scant comfort at this heartbreaking time but you did everything you could for him. Xx

kelda Sat 11-May-13 08:53:13

So so sorry to hear this. I am thinking of you.

ajandjjmum Sat 11-May-13 08:54:01

That's just awful Trinity - I'm so so sorry.

Badvoc Sat 11-May-13 08:54:13

Trinity.
I can't tell you how sorry I am.
You are in my thoughts and prayers x

RustyBear Sat 11-May-13 08:54:32

Oh, trinity, I'm so sorry. Thinking of you.

MrsHiddleston Sat 11-May-13 08:54:37

Trinity I am so, so sorry for your loss. You did all you could.

My thought are with you.

MissAnnersley Sat 11-May-13 08:55:39

I am so so sorry. I don't have the words. so sorry.

justaboutalittlefrazzled Sat 11-May-13 08:55:45

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ImTooHecsyForYourParty Sat 11-May-13 08:57:14

Trin, I am so so sorry. xxxxxxx

RubyrooUK Sat 11-May-13 08:57:21

So sorry Trinity. X

inneedofrain Sat 11-May-13 08:57:49

Oh you poor thing

There are no words that are going to help much at the moment

Your Dp must have been a wonderful man your pain must feel all consuming

We will hold your hand but remember you may need help to get past the first few days and the physical shock it might be worth calling you ooh they should be help if you feel like it might be a good idea

It sound rediculius but time does help you will in time be able to remember your woderful husband and not relive the last few moments of his life

There is no right of wrong for your emotions at the moment if you need to scream and punch the wall then do it if you need to cry then do if all you can manage is sit on the sofa then that is right too

Be kind to your self i am very sorry for your lose

chimchar Sat 11-May-13 08:58:20

trin...I too checked this wasn't an old post.

I'm so so sorry to read your terrible news.

Charlie is right...get through today just one breath at a time.

thinking of you, and offering you hugs.... x

insanityscratching Sat 11-May-13 08:58:31

Oh I am so sorry for your loss, sending thoughts and prayers x

hf128219 Sat 11-May-13 08:59:39

In my prayers xx

FreckledLeopard Sat 11-May-13 08:59:56

Jesus, I am so so sorry. You've been through too much. This just isn't fair.

Shinyshoes1 Sat 11-May-13 08:59:57

Oh god Trinity I know your backstory I can't believe it

Hand holding here :-))

MexicanHouseThief Sat 11-May-13 09:00:26

Oh Trinity, I can't believe it. There are no words. How amazing you are for keeping your head and giving him chest compressions. You did everything there was to do.

It is so wrong that you are going through this again sad

It's normal IME to keep seeing the moment when you've watched a loved one die. It will fade, but for now just know that it is normal, if horrible.

Charleymouse Sat 11-May-13 09:01:29

Trinity so sorry to hear about your loss. I also thought this was a zombie thread and then clocked the date and thought oh no, how much can one person take.

Trinity you are strong, you can go on, you have a lovely family to help you through this. Keep posting, you know (unfortunately from experience) that there is someone here at all times who can offer practical support and an emotional crutch.

Thinking of you and sending love and prayers your way. CM x

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