In memory of our lovely Aillidh

(1440 Posts)
expatinscotland Sun 08-Jul-12 11:56:58

At 11.25 last night, our beautiful, 9-year-old daughter died of complications from treatment for acute myeloid leukaemia, she went into respiratory failure after contracting human metapneumo virus following conditioning chemotherapy for stem cell transplant.

For many days, she lingered on a ventilator. But last night, she developed a pneumothorax and rapidly deteriorated.

She died within seconds of the ventilator being taken off.

I can't believe she's gone, or how broken her long body looked.

rubyslippers Sun 08-Jul-12 11:58:34

(((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))

G-d bless you all xxxx

TrinityIsAFuckingRhino Sun 08-Jul-12 11:58:57

I'm hugging you tight expat
I'm so sorry
x

Mintyy Sun 08-Jul-12 12:00:03

Lost for words but you have never been far from my thoughts for days. It is a tragedy. Am truly deeply sorry, expat, for you and all the many people who loved your wonderful daughter.

zookeeper Sun 08-Jul-12 12:00:11

I am very very sorry for the loss of your beautiful brave girl.

Expat, I only wish I had the words to take even an ounce of this pain from you and your family. All I can offer is my love and prayers that you can get through this awful time with hope and kindness xxxx

Showmethemhappyfeet Sun 08-Jul-12 12:01:07

I'm so so sorry for the devastating loss of your little girl sad

pepperrabbit Sun 08-Jul-12 12:01:31

We are all so so sorry expat.
Cruel & heartbreaking.
Hugs and love to you all.
x

PenguinSalute Sun 08-Jul-12 12:01:37

I'm so sorry expat. So, so sorry. There are no words.

Travel safe little Aillidh xxx

UnChartered Sun 08-Jul-12 12:01:43

so so sad and sorry for your loss expat

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Shinyshoes1 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:01:47

so sorry Expat sad

yellowraincoat Sun 08-Jul-12 12:03:03

I'm so sorry expat.

Northernexile Sun 08-Jul-12 12:03:07

So sorry for your loss expat x

ageappropriate Sun 08-Jul-12 12:03:12

Oh Expat, you are all so brave. I am so sorry, there are no words that seem appropriate. Much love to you and your family.

SerialKipper Sun 08-Jul-12 12:03:23

So very very sorry.

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

Sorry expat. So sorry.

buzzgirly Sun 08-Jul-12 12:04:00

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Aillidh. My heart goes out to you and your family, sending love and prayers x

usualsuspect Sun 08-Jul-12 12:04:06

So sorry expat xx

My heart goes out to you

FanjoForTheMammaries Sun 08-Jul-12 12:04:11

Very sorry indeed for your loss. sad

LookAtHerGo Sun 08-Jul-12 12:04:11

Thoughts, prayers and hugs for you. X

sassytheFIRST Sun 08-Jul-12 12:04:27

Expat, I've read you posting for years: often about your beautiful long-limbed redhead. You were so proud of her. She was so loved.

I'm so sorry x

TheMysteryCat Sun 08-Jul-12 12:04:28

And let you rest, my love
And let your heart be full
And let the winds whisper sweet and soft
As stars surround in your soul.

And let the world be glad, my love
That you have been its friend
And let those who have loved you most
Hold hands at your journey’s end

And let the sky fill blue, my love
And let the rain fall slow
And let the pitter patter of your feet
Sound softly as you go.

I'm so sorry for your loss Expat.

Mama1980 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:04:50

I am so very very sorry there are no words sad sleep sweet beautiful girl xxxxx

Tangointhenight Sun 08-Jul-12 12:05:05

Your post broke my heart, thinking of you today and know that your beautiful girl is in the arms of heaven.

I'm so sorry, expat- wishing you continued strength

BellaVita Sun 08-Jul-12 12:05:32

expat, I am truly sorry sad

Thinking of you all xxxx

BillComptonstrousers Sun 08-Jul-12 12:05:43

All my family are so sorry for your loss Expat. Both of my girls are going to ask for a prayer to be said in School tomorrow for you and your family.

Sleep tight little one x

EnjoyResponsibly Sun 08-Jul-12 12:05:49

If it should seem in the coming months that life is going on for others, whilst yours is dark and sad, please know that many, may people have read your daughters story and will carry her name in our hearts. God bless you and your family xxx

whattodoo Sun 08-Jul-12 12:06:01

Aillidh has touched so many lives, she will always be remembered.
I am very sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and all who love Aillidh x

picnicbasketcase Sun 08-Jul-12 12:06:16

So very sorry expat. I hope you and your family can find peace and strength.
sad

jetstar Sun 08-Jul-12 12:06:35

So sorry for your loss. Our thoughts are with you.
Lots of love xxxx

Im saddened and sorry for the death of your beautiful girl.
Hugs to you and your family at such an awful time, no mother should have to endure losing their child.
Your daughter was very brave, her courage is an inspiration to us all.
The only comfort is that she will be free from pain and flying amongst the angels.
God only takes the best sad (((((hugs))))

NormaStanleyFletcher Sun 08-Jul-12 12:06:53

My heart goes out to you expat, and your family and friends.

Angelyaz Sun 08-Jul-12 12:06:54

You are in my thoughts and prayers x

hellhasnofurylikeahungrywoman Sun 08-Jul-12 12:07:53

I am so sorry Expat, my thoughts are with you and your family over these coming days, weeks and long into the future. May Aillidh rest in peace.

Cashncarry Sun 08-Jul-12 12:08:05

Oh Expat <squeeze. I don't post much on MN anymore but I have been following Aillidh's illness in the last few days and praying for a miracle for that wonderful brave girl of yours. I'm so sorry she's gone and I wish you and your family all the strength you need on your long journey ahead. Know that you and Aillidh are loved by people who've never met you but who, like me, have been inspired your kick arse attitude and Aillidh's courage.

My tears are futile but I'll cry them for you anyway and hold your little girl in my mind picturing her in heaven with her beautiful long body restored and her shining soul at peace x

MaureenMLove Sun 08-Jul-12 12:08:41

Lots of love and strength to you and your family Expat. Your story has certainly brought an awful lot of people together this past few weeks. You are not alone in your grief.

Much love.
Mo. x

Halfling Sun 08-Jul-12 12:08:42

I am so sorry for your loss expat. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. RIP Aillidh.

ohforfoxsake Sun 08-Jul-12 12:09:01

Aillidh has touched so many hearts.

There are no words.

Thinking of you xxx

ElmoFan Sun 08-Jul-12 12:09:05

I am so so sorry for your loss sad You are all in our prayers (((hugs)))

annalovesmrbates Sun 08-Jul-12 12:09:24

So so sorry for your loss. Your precious girl was so special and touched so many lives.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

annalovesmrbates Sun 08-Jul-12 12:09:24

So so sorry for your loss. Your precious girl was so special and touched so many lives.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

only4tonight Sun 08-Jul-12 12:09:34

I am so sorry. Your daughter made such a difference in the world. She brought people together, gave them faith and made them join the Anthony Nolan register. She has saved the lives of others and I am so so sorry it had to cost her hers. My thoughts are with you, your family and your friends x

MrsSchadenfreude Sun 08-Jul-12 12:09:38

I'm so sorry. Thinking of you all.

LadyofWinterfell Sun 08-Jul-12 12:09:47

I'm so sorry expat, you're in my prayers.

bebejones Sun 08-Jul-12 12:09:59

Just so sorry for your devastating loss. I have no words to offer any comfort but I am sending love, hugs and prayers for you all xxx

Rollersara Sun 08-Jul-12 12:10:03

So sorry, thinking of you all sad

BoiledEggandToastSoldiers Sun 08-Jul-12 12:10:11

So very sorry Expat, I have been keeping up with Aillidh's progress. She tried so hard. Cannot imagine how you and your family are feeling.

She will be forever young.

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outtolunchagain Sun 08-Jul-12 12:10:19

God bless you expat and family ,no one could have done more for Ailidh than you did.In the roughly 9 years that I have been on mumsnet under various nn your strength and integrity as a mother and a person and has always shone through.Aillidh was so lucky to have you and you have Aillidh who was so obviously a miraculous and unique little girl.

I cannot presume to imagine the pain that as a family you are experiencing today but my prayers are with you all.sad

chrisrobin Sun 08-Jul-12 12:10:54

So very sorry, Expat. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Four4me Sun 08-Jul-12 12:10:57

Expat, I am so sorry for your loss, you are all in my thoughts. Aillidh has been an extremely lucky girl to have such a brave mummy. Xxxxxx

thesoo Sun 08-Jul-12 12:11:45

I am so so sorry expat Much love to you and your family during this heartbreaking time xxx

So sorry Expat and family xx

Expat I am so so sorry for your loss. I have no words to explain how I feel that wouldn't sound trite. As someone else said thousands of us on here have been touched by ailidh's life and her incredible bravery, and I've been humbled by your love for her and faith in god.

SecretNutellaFix Sun 08-Jul-12 12:12:41

God bless you. You have been fighting for her for so long. You have all been so strong.
Peace be with you all, along with love and strength to cope with the coming dark days.

xx

TunipTheVegemal Sun 08-Jul-12 12:12:53

I'm so sorry Expat. All my love.

Expat there are no words to say how sorry we all are. I hope you take a tiny bit of comfort in how widespread the love for your beautiful daughter obviously is and how she has touched so many. I am sure that you must feel absolutely broken inside. I know you must be very very proud of the fight she gave. With love to you and your family at a horrible horrible time. Xx

LemonBreeland Sun 08-Jul-12 12:13:09

Expat there are no words for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family. Hugs to your little DC. xxx

NarkedRaspberry Sun 08-Jul-12 12:13:59

hugs ]

I'm so sorry.

Frontpaw Sun 08-Jul-12 12:14:04

I am so so sorry. That bastard disease took my father too.

Phacelia Sun 08-Jul-12 12:14:29

I am so very sorry for your loss. It is just devastating. She looks like she was the most gorgeous girl, and so very, very loved.

I hope you have been even a little aware of how very much you have all been in the thoughts of thousands of people for the last few days.

Thinking of you at this impossible time.

songbird85 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:15:57

expat, we have never 'spoken' on mn but I have followed Aillidh's story, especially of late. I do not have the words to express how sad I am for your loss, nor can I imagine the pain you and Mr Expat and Aillidhs siblings must be feeling right now. I doubt this will be enough, or even matter right now, but I am keeping you all in my thoughts and sending the gentlest of hugs.

"They do not die, they live in the hearts of those they leave behind"

x

JustFabulous Sun 08-Jul-12 12:16:03

I am so sorry Expat. Your DD was beautiful and she has inspired all of us.

MoaningMinnieWhingesAgain Sun 08-Jul-12 12:16:13

So sorry that Aillidh had died, Expat. I am thinking of you and your family.

So much love for you from everyone here.

1973magpie Sun 08-Jul-12 12:16:25

Expat, I'm so so sorry to hear about the devastating loss of your beautiful brave little girl, my love and thoughts are with you and your family at this awful time xxx

PorkyandBess Sun 08-Jul-12 12:16:59

Life is very cruel.

So sorry and sad for you.

DizzyCow63 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:17:06

I am so so sorry expat. My darling little cousin died from complications from leukaemia when he was two, he would have been eight on Friday. I have an image in my head of him and Aillidh playing together wherever they are. Take care of Aillidh MJ.

You and your family are very much in my thoughts, you have shown such strength. sad

RockPaperScissorsLizardSpock Sun 08-Jul-12 12:17:16

Aillidh will never be forgotten and nor will your strength and bravery. I think we all wish we could hug you right now. X

whimsy Sun 08-Jul-12 12:17:43

I am so very sorry expat. You are all in our thoughts and prayers today, as always. Aillidh was such a brave and beautiful girl. Rest in peace Aillidh xx

Marjoriew Sun 08-Jul-12 12:18:06

Sorry for the loss of your little one, Expat. X

doggiemumma Sun 08-Jul-12 12:18:55

So very very sorry expat - you have been kind to me on here in the past, i am so sorry to read that this has happened sad

CrunchyFrog Sun 08-Jul-12 12:19:27

Very sorry for your loss x

bananaistheanswer Sun 08-Jul-12 12:19:34

So so sorry for your loss, life can be so cruel and nothing could be harder than what you and your family are going through. I have no words, thinking of you and your family.

Shirazyum Sun 08-Jul-12 12:20:30

Your beautiful daughter was blessed with love from many sources, that love continues. May it light your way in the darkness before you xxx

VivaLeBeaver Sun 08-Jul-12 12:20:34

I'm so very sorry Expat. xx

FrozenPetisPois Sun 08-Jul-12 12:20:42

I'm so sorry to hear the news and cannot imagine how you are feeling.
Remember that Aillidh passed away surrounded by so much love, and is now in God's arms.
<hugs>

nkf Sun 08-Jul-12 12:21:04

Wishing you peace and healing.

LoveAndOtherIndoorSports Sun 08-Jul-12 12:21:10

I am so desperately sorry for your loss.

Aillidh will be remembered by so many people. One ordinary little girl who turned out to be extraordinary, amazing and miraculous.

My thoughts and prayers are with Aillidh and her loving family. Peace be with you all.

Doyouthinktheysaurus Sun 08-Jul-12 12:21:12

I'm so sorry Expat. You have been in my thoughts a lot and will continue to be so. I wish you and your family strength and hope.

Your beautiful Aillidh has touched so many.

RIP Aillidh

LegoAcupuncture Sun 08-Jul-12 12:21:16

I am so very sorry Expat. Aillidh was an amazing girl, I followed her story from the very beginning.

Thinking of you, your DH and Aillidh's sister and brother at this very very difficult time for you all xxxx

mummylin Sun 08-Jul-12 12:21:40

I too am very sorry for your loss Expat.I have no words really that can comfort you at this time.But know that your brave little daughter has made a difference to many people.We are all proud to of shared in her fight and thankyou for that.sending you support to help you in your darkest hours xx

So very sorry Expat, I cannot begin to imagine your pain. I hope you can find comfort in your children and family. Aillidh will live on forever in your heart xx

Was thinking of you this week. I am so sorry for your loss. Please take what comfort you can from a remote online community who have wished, hoped and willed that for the best outcome for you. I am so sorry we could not have made the miracle you needed.

LadyInPink Sun 08-Jul-12 12:24:04

I am so, so sorry expat. My thoughts are with you and yours. BIG hugs xx

pinkpyjamas Sun 08-Jul-12 12:24:16

We're all here for you, Expat.

LynnCSchreiber Sun 08-Jul-12 12:25:15

My thoughts and prayers are with you all. xxx

WhatWouldMargoDo Sun 08-Jul-12 12:25:37

I'm so sorry for your loss expat.

peggyblackett Sun 08-Jul-12 12:25:39

I am so sorry expat. Aillidh was beautiful both inside and out - true beauty.

You are in my thoughts, and we are all here whenever you need us.

donnie Sun 08-Jul-12 12:26:01

I am very sorry for your loss expat. I really feel for you and your family and hope you will find some comfort and peace in the weeks to come.

Babieseverywhere Sun 08-Jul-12 12:26:11

I am so sorry for your loss Expat. sad May your little one be resting in peace.

CoteDAzur Sun 08-Jul-12 12:26:53

I am so very sorry for your terrible loss, expat sad

Wishing all of you strength and peace. May Aillidh rest in peace, and live forever in the memories of everyone she has inspired during her brief life.

Expat, I am so very sorry to hear about Aillidh, you all tried your hardest and your faith was inspirational.

I hope that the love that surrounded you all in the last few days continues to make itself felt - you are very much in mine and my families thoughts and prayers.

There is a quote that comforts me - Absence is to love as the wind is to a fire. It extinguishes the weak and fans the strong. Your love for A was so strong, so palpable, it can never disappear.
xx

Bearcrumble Sun 08-Jul-12 12:27:55

I am so sorry - sending love to you and your family.

sybilfaulty Sun 08-Jul-12 12:28:15

Dear Expat and family, I am so very sorry to hear the sad news about Aillidh. Your tenacity and faith have been inspiring. Take care and God bless you all.

MrsApplepants Sun 08-Jul-12 12:28:44

Words cannot describe how sorry I am. Love to you and all your family xxx

Jakadaal Sun 08-Jul-12 12:28:56

May your beautiful girl fly high above the rainbow Expat. So sorry for all of you xx

Dumbledoresgirl Sun 08-Jul-12 12:28:57

I'm so very sorry Expat. Aillidh will be remembered for many years by so many people who never met her. RIP.

ArthurPewty Sun 08-Jul-12 12:28:59

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SparkyTGD Sun 08-Jul-12 12:29:02

So very sorry for the loss of your brave little girl sad xx

IvanaNap Sun 08-Jul-12 12:29:39

So very, very sorry Expat. Have been thinking and praying for you all. No parent should ever have to go through this xx

BrightPlacesBoomBands Sun 08-Jul-12 12:29:48

Again, I'm so very, very sorry, expat. You don't know me but we have a friend in common and I've been appreciating your posts on here for years. I want to salute you for your enormous dignity and courage. What a mother you have been to your precious girl. My heart is so heavy for you all and I will not stop sending love and strength in your direction. If knowing that you and your dear family are cared about by very many people makes living through the time ahead the smallest bit more bearable then I will be so glad.

PollyLogos Sun 08-Jul-12 12:29:57

I'm so very sorry. Aillidh fought so much. She was a brave little girl. She has touched many of us all over the world, as have many of your very eloquent postings. I can only send my deepest condolences and say that you will all be in my thoughts for a long time. xxx

tutu100 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:30:30

Expat. I am so sorry. xxx.

crazynanna Sun 08-Jul-12 12:30:56

sad Just sad

My heart is breaking for you Expat.

Aillidh was a fighter and that's for sure.

I am so very sorry...I am thinking of you xxxxxx

welliesandpyjamas Sun 08-Jul-12 12:31:34

So very sorry, Expat and family. Rest in peace, Aillidh. Wish words were enough.

OldBagWantsNewBag Sun 08-Jul-12 12:32:09

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ToothbrushThief Sun 08-Jul-12 12:32:09

Expat - much love. I will be thinking of you and yours and praying for the healing of your huge emotional scars.

poorbuthappy Sun 08-Jul-12 12:32:35

Sending you and your family lots of love.
So sorry for your loss.
xx

So very sorry Expat. Every one of us was moved by her story. Wishing you much love and strength xxx

I am so sorry that you beautiful Aillidh is gone expat. x

DoreensEatingHerSoreen Sun 08-Jul-12 12:33:19

I'm so very sorry Expat, your beautiful, brave daughter is such a credit to you. I have been so inspired by her fight, my son and I will talk about her and remember her always. Words are never enough are they? Aillidh's light will always burn brightly xxx

Almostfifty Sun 08-Jul-12 12:34:17

I am so very sorry.

In time you will be comforted by the fact that your family has touched lives and been a boost to the bone marrow donation team. When you can read these threads you'll see the world was holding it's breath for your Aillidh.

Now, you just need to keep breathing for your family.

lookout Sun 08-Jul-12 12:34:19

So sorry Expat. What a brave girl your daughter has been. I know how it feels to lose someone too young, but can't imagine how it feels to lose a child. My family and I have been praying and will continue to pray for you and your family. Aillidh is resting safe in the perfect peace of God.

lisad123 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:34:26

I'm am so sorry, she was a true shining star. She will live on in the minds and hearts of so many that never met her but saw her wonderful heart and fighting spirit x

50ShadesOfShit Sun 08-Jul-12 12:35:19

Aillidh and her courage, strength and fight touched me in a way I didn't think was possible for a little girl I never had the privilege of knowing.
I'm so sorry xxx

bronze Sun 08-Jul-12 12:35:24

I'm so sorry
All words seem trite
Much love x

Grumpla Sun 08-Jul-12 12:35:34

I'm one of many people who joined the donor register after reading about your daughter.

I'm so, so sorry that your brave girl didn't make it.

kasbah72 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:36:07

I wish there was something I could say. Sleep tight darling Aillidh, you have touched and influenced so many people through your bravery. Expat and family - I am so so so sorry.

IsabelMamma Sun 08-Jul-12 12:36:13

I'm so sorry for your loss Expat...no words can help to ease the pain.

I've lighted a candle for Ailidh to light her way to heaven towards my angel Isabel and the rest of our other angels in heaven.

Love and light to you and your family.

EightiesChick Sun 08-Jul-12 12:36:17

I am so very sorry. Much love to Aillidh now in heaven. Praying for strength for all of you to bear it and faith to comfort you.

Angelico Sun 08-Jul-12 12:36:29

So sorry Expat. Only recently learned about Aillidh and her fight and the courage you have all shown is unbelievable. Totally humbling. Love to all of you, Aillidh will always be in your heart.

Sittinginthesun Sun 08-Jul-12 12:36:57

I am so sorry, Expat. Your darling daughter has touched many hearts. Sending love and strength. Xxx

iMoniker Sun 08-Jul-12 12:37:06

I weep for your beautiful, long limbed girl. I don't know you - although I know of you (I am on old timer). Yet I feel such a great sense of sorrow for you and Aillidh's Dad and siblings - as do countless others here on MN and around the world.

God Bless you all now and in the coming days and months. Most especially I hope that Aillidh is at peace. I will never forget her.
xxxx

Sargesaweyes Sun 08-Jul-12 12:37:12

All my love to you and your family.
This is such a cruel thing to happen.
Xxxxxxxx

MetalliMa Sun 08-Jul-12 12:37:49

sending you so much love,
have no words xx
2shoes

GetDownNesbitt Sun 08-Jul-12 12:38:26

Much, much, much love xxx

HappyTangerine Sun 08-Jul-12 12:38:55

So, so sorry, love. Sending you and your family and friends love and strength. Your lovely Aillidh was a real little star who touched so many xxx

RevealYourselfTinySongstress Sun 08-Jul-12 12:39:30

So very sorry, Expat, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers x

OhNoMyFanjo Sun 08-Jul-12 12:41:11

Thinking of you and your family at this terrible time x

Wishing you all peace and strength. So sorry, an unfair end to such a brave fight. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

psychomum5 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:41:50

our love is yours expat. aillidh is so very loved, and will be always. xxx

exexe Sun 08-Jul-12 12:43:08

Really sorry to hear this. I went through this with dh and his family when they lost dh's 11 yr old brother in almost identical circumstances. Its cruel and painful.
I hope you find strength and peace.
Much love. xx

fivegomadindorset Sun 08-Jul-12 12:43:49

I am so sorry Expat that you or any mother has to go through such an awful experience. She went knowing that she was so loved by you and her family. xxxxx

daenerysstormborn Sun 08-Jul-12 12:43:53

expat, don't really know what to say, am so sorry it came to this sad

whosphuckoffy Sun 08-Jul-12 12:44:13

There are no words.
R.I.P. sweetheart
So saddened by your loss, my thoughts are with you xx

RedKites Sun 08-Jul-12 12:44:20

Much sympathy, love and prayers to you all.

I have no words that could possibly help, I want you to know how deaply Aillidh has touched my heart, I hope that how loved your dear angel was helps you find some strength for the time ahead. xxx

CaptainBanana Sun 08-Jul-12 12:46:35

So sorry for your great loss and thinking of you and your family. X

treedelivery Sun 08-Jul-12 12:46:47

She is gone to be comfortable, to be agile, to feel warm sun and gentle winds, to run and jump and giggle and smile. She is in the only place that can heal her broken body.

I'm just so sorry that place isn't where you are Expat. There are no words for what you have lost.

Many people live for many years and dont make half the impact that your DD has. Many people live for many years and often people dont have a kind word to say about them because they have not been kind or loving to others.

Your precious girl has lived her short life the way we should all strive to live ours. Well done Aillidh.

Candles are still burning brightly here in Lancashire to honour and show love and respect for Aillidh. I hope that my boys were waiting for her - they will take great care of her for you. If you ever need to talk, scream, laugh or throw things at walls I am here to listen.

xxxxxxx

popsnsqeeze Sun 08-Jul-12 12:47:03

I'm so so sorry for your loss.
Thinking of you and your family at this most difficult time.

The3Bears Sun 08-Jul-12 12:47:57

Im so sorry, thinking of you all x

RIP little one.
So sorry Expat, for such a tragic loss. The word doesnt do much I know, and the pain you must feel is inconceivable. I wish you peace and serenity eventually, and the solace of your memories x

Your little girl put up a fight many bigger folks would have conceded long ago.

You are in the thoughts & prayers of the Bossy family.

She leaves a legacy of love from around the world.

When you feel ready, not yet a while I know, have a look at Aillidh's map- she touched the hearts of so many MN-ers.

Biggest of un- MN -netty hugs to you all xx

Vev Sun 08-Jul-12 12:48:48

Wishing you and yours strength to help you through this dark time.

Aillidh touched the hearts and souls of many and brought about an awareness of the awfulness of leukaemia to thousands.

She fought so bravely and so sad it didn't end differently.

Whitamakafullo Sun 08-Jul-12 12:49:04

I'm so so sorry expat. I too have been following your posts for years, and remember you talking about your beautiful daughter with her long legs and wee Scottish accent.

Words are inadequate at the moment. Much love and strength to you and your family xxx

D0G Sun 08-Jul-12 12:49:05

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AnnaFender Sun 08-Jul-12 12:49:15

I am so sorry for your loss Expat xxxx

So very sorry sad {{{ hugs}}}}}

cate16 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:51:00

So sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and your family.

xx

cate16 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:51:42

So sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and your family.

xx

I am so sorry.

Your beautiful daughter has touched so many lives, and she made the world a better place.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. x

PestoSandalissimos Sun 08-Jul-12 12:52:14

So sorry to hear this very sad news, will be praying for strength for you all.

Much love
Pesto
XXXX

iklboo Sun 08-Jul-12 12:52:34

So very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

HoleyGhost Sun 08-Jul-12 12:52:39

We've never met but I've known you for many years now. You've all been very much in my thoughts and prayers, and will continue to be.

Fuzzywood Sun 08-Jul-12 12:53:00

So sorry for your loss. Heartfelt condolences to you and your family x

Jemma1111 Sun 08-Jul-12 12:53:08

Expat, so so sorry to hear about the loss of your precious little girl, my thoughts and prayers are with you all xxxxx

Oh expat, I'm so truly sorry that you are feeling the worst pain possible. If only there was something we could do to alleviate it.

You must be wonderfully proud that your beautiful girl's bravery brought so many people together in love and prayer; her cheeky smile touching the hearts of us all.

Safe journey little Aillidh. xxxx

Calyx Sun 08-Jul-12 12:53:32

I am so sorry and pray she is at peace, happy and watching over you and the rest of the family and friends. I haven't words to tell you how I feel for you. I was glad to be able to pray, light candles and help Giraffes with a lift last week, my sister and I were grateful to help a tiny bit and I am crying for your loss today.

I have a geranium on my balcony and it's the first plant I ever had that lived. I named it Ailidh last week. This morning it has huge buds about to flower and I pray for you all every time I see it, I always will. God bless you and your family Expat <hugs> xxx

Thumbwitch Sun 08-Jul-12 12:54:16

So very very sorry for you all, Expat. She was a very special little girl who touched the lives and hearts of so many people, all around the world.
Thinking of you all and praying for solace for you. xx

orangina Sun 08-Jul-12 12:54:26

I am so very sorry for your loss Expat, I can't imagine what you are all going through right now. Love and strength to you all xx

I'm holding you expat. I don't really post on here anymore but I have followed you on fb. Aillidh touched my heart as she did so many people. I'm so sorry to see the news this morning. Xx

McKayz Sun 08-Jul-12 12:55:25

Expat, I am so so sorry. I wish there was something we could do to make it better for you.

Aillidh was loved and cared for by so many people who had never even met her. I personally will never forget your brave daughter.

Thinking of you xxx

ColouringIn Sun 08-Jul-12 12:56:05

So so sorry to read this Expat - so so wanted the outcome to be different. There are no words.....

ravenAK Sun 08-Jul-12 12:56:58

I'm so sorry, Expat.

Sleep well little Aillidh xxx.

FirstUpBestDressed Sun 08-Jul-12 12:57:30

My deepest sympathy to you and your family.
How very sad for you all.
May she rest in peace.
I have been praying for you all and will continue to do so.
Much love xx

foolserrand Sun 08-Jul-12 13:00:23

I'm so, so sorry for your loss. What a cruel world this can be. Aillidh's memory will remain in so many hearts across the world. I wish you strength to get through this awful time with love.

RIP little angel.

MavisGrind Sun 08-Jul-12 13:02:12

Expat, I am so so sorry for your loss. I can't begin to imagine what you and your family are going through. In my thoughts. xxx

So sorry Expat, for the loss of Aillidh sad. Love to you all. xxxx

colette Sun 08-Jul-12 13:02:47

so sorry ex-pat. words are inadequate x

VerityBrulee Sun 08-Jul-12 13:03:51

Desperately sorry Expat

madmouse Sun 08-Jul-12 13:04:01

You've been on my mind all morning while I was in church. DH currently ministers in a very old fashioned church where they like to sing old hymns, but this morning they were grounding and strengthening ones, reminding us how God has travelled with us through the ages. That made me think even more of you. I pray that you can hold on to your faith and feel God near you, because sometimes unimaginable pain can cloud these things.

And as for Aillidh, what a girl, what a trooper, what a star. All day yesterday I had an image of her running into Jesus' arms. Her smile will be brightening up heaven x

out2lunch Sun 08-Jul-12 13:04:12

oh no i am so so sorry to hear this xx been following her progress - sending love and best wishes to you all

FairPhyllis Sun 08-Jul-12 13:04:13

I'm so sorry Expat. I hope you and your family and all those who love Aillidh can take comfort and strength from the knowledge that the Lord is taking care of her right now.

WandaDoff Sun 08-Jul-12 13:04:45

I'm so sorry Expat.

She won't be forgotten.

I'm so sorry expat. Your post has brought me to tears, having followed your other posts. I'm just devastated for you xxx

TheMonster Sun 08-Jul-12 13:05:00

Oh expat I am so sorry to hear this news. Aillidh battled so hard. Heaven has a beautiful angel.

Thinking of you and sending strength your way.

Jux Sun 08-Jul-12 13:05:43

We are so sorry, Expat. You have all been extraordinary and an example to us all. Much love to you all.

BsshBossh Sun 08-Jul-12 13:05:57

So so sorry. My hugs and prayers to you all.

slightlycrumpled Sun 08-Jul-12 13:06:57

Expat I am so very, very sorry. Just incredibly sad. X

pixiestix Sun 08-Jul-12 13:07:06

There are no words. I can't imagine the agony you must be in. I'm so very very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter.

Rest in peace darling Aillidh.

03angels Sun 08-Jul-12 13:07:07

Expat no words sell appropriate
Sending lots of love hugs and strength to you all xx

happybirthdayHiggs Sun 08-Jul-12 13:07:37

A child who loses her parents is called an orphan, but there is no word to describe a parent who loses their child, probably because it is too terrible to contemplate. Amazing mum – I'm so sorry you have lost your amazing child.
Blessed Be.

Im so sorry expat. She has touched the hearts of so.many people.

EduStudent Sun 08-Jul-12 13:08:07

I am so very sorry. Your daughter was a most incredible girl to have impacted so many lives. She has certainly made a lasting impression on mine.

The grace, humility and dignity you have shown over the last week or so has left me in awe. No wonder Aillidh was such a special girl. My thoughts and love ae still with you and will remain so. I trust in whatever there may be that Aillidh is peaceful and rediscovering her strength to play, laugh and smile wherever she may be xxx

JuliaScurr Sun 08-Jul-12 13:09:00

thinking of you

mrssmooth Sun 08-Jul-12 13:09:37

I'm so sorry Expat. I have followed Aillidh's story here & on fb and hope that the love surrounding your family from us all has been of some comfort at this impossibly difficult time. We are all behind you as you take the steps to carry you on to the next part of your journey xx

MinnieBar Sun 08-Jul-12 13:10:14

You and Ailidh and all your family have been so, so brave.

You are all inspirational.

I am so sorry expat. Beautiful Aillidh touched the hearts of so many people and we were all praying for a miracle.

I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through, but my thoughts and prayers are still with you and your family.

Rest in peace, heaven's most beautiful angel xx

sweetkitty Sun 08-Jul-12 13:10:19

I cannot think of any words. Others have written so eloquently already. My heart is breaking for you. She fought it so so much, with every ounce of strength she had. You are a wonderful mother, it shone through every post on here, on FB and in RL. You could have not don't more for her.

I am so so sorry

tiddleypompom Sun 08-Jul-12 13:10:24

Just so very sorry expat. We will light a candle in her memory and are thinking of you all x

ThatVikRinA22 Sun 08-Jul-12 13:10:30

i am so so sorry expat. i dont know what else to say other than that, and that i am thinking of you and your family. i wish you strength to get through the coming weeks and months, and send you my thoughts, prayers and love. x

mamasin Sun 08-Jul-12 13:10:48

I'm so very sorry.

justonemorethread Sun 08-Jul-12 13:11:16

Expat, I truly think Ailidh is a special girl, in a special place. The pain must be unbearable for you, and you will be in my prayers, hoping you will find comfort. You were so strong for Ailidh throughout, and she knows how strong your love is.
It is incomprehensible, and so sad.

cocolepew Sun 08-Jul-12 13:11:38

I'm so sorry.

X

chipmonkey Sun 08-Jul-12 13:11:47

It's so utterly unfair, she fought so hard and for so long and she deserved to win. And you deserved for her to win, expat.So much love to you xxx

BCBG Sun 08-Jul-12 13:11:47

There are no words that can suffice sad. Praying for you all.x

thatboysmum Sun 08-Jul-12 13:11:59

I am so sad to see this, I'm so sorry your brave little girl lost her battle. My thoughts are with you and your family. RIP Aillidh xxx

waitingforgodot Sun 08-Jul-12 13:12:03

Thinking of you Expat and sending lots of love x

MadamFolly Sun 08-Jul-12 13:12:03

Book of Ecclesiastes - A Time For Everything

To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboreth?
I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it. He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.
I know that there is no good in them, but for a man to rejoice, and to do good in his life. And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labor, it is the gift of God. I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him.
That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath already been; and God requireth that which is past.

I know that there can be no comfort Expat.
I'm so sorry that our thoughts and prayers were not enough.
You did all you could and now you can all have your rest and hopefully find peace.

Sassybeast Sun 08-Jul-12 13:12:24

So very sorry for you all on the loss of your beautiful, brave little girl.

NoVegBeforeSkeg Sun 08-Jul-12 13:13:12

I'm so sorry expat.
There really are no words.

Rest in peace brave Aillidh.

NoHank Sun 08-Jul-12 13:13:36

so very sorry - wishing you strength and peace at this most difficult time x

Frenchplait Sun 08-Jul-12 13:13:42

So sorry. Holding you and your family in my thoughts.

Wheredidmyyouthgo Sun 08-Jul-12 13:14:08

Expat, I cannot imagine the weight of your loss. You and brave Aillidh have been in my heart for months. I am writing this in tears, and I know my words are inadequate. With prayers and strength for you and your family, but above all with love and sorrow on this saddest of days xxx

perfumedlife Sun 08-Jul-12 13:14:24

Oh expat, this is the saddest day. I woke with puddles in my ears from tears in my sleep. I can't be on the Anthony Nolan register due to health issues but I have willed my body to medical science in the hope it makes some difference in future.

I've never been so affected by the death of someone I don't 'know' in the old sense. But I do feel I know your girl now. And what a girl! You must be so proud of what she achieved and how she fought. The pain of being without her must be unimagninable and if I can do anything atall for you, please say as I am in Glasgow.

lots of love expat, to you and yours x

chibi Sun 08-Jul-12 13:14:56

in a blessed falling asleep, grant, O Lord, eternal rest unto Thy departed servant Aillidh and make her memory to be eternal

Macarooned Sun 08-Jul-12 13:15:30

Oh expat, I am so very very sorry for you and all your family for the loss of your darling Ailidh.
Praying for strength and peace and wishing you love and rest.

twinklesunshine Sun 08-Jul-12 13:16:08

I am very sorry, I have been watching the thread for Aillidh, and have been thinking of you. My little 3 year old son died in March suddenly, so I can understand some of what you will be feeling today. I will be thinking of you, and please know that when you are struggling and upset that I am too, so you don't need to feel alone xx

DesperatelySeekingSedatives Sun 08-Jul-12 13:16:11

So sorry for your loss. Thoughts are with you and your family.

Mesothe Sun 08-Jul-12 13:16:42

Expat, I ask simply that light, wherever you find that, will follow you in the times ahead - so many things ahead will bring the loss of her all over again, milestones and moments and words and silences all where she should be. For every day you wake up and live and love and remember her, it is a victory. I ask for a loving and thoughtful community around you, in a week, in a month, in a year, in six years ... and always.

It is a long and gruelling journey I have watched someone I love have to take - that they should never have to. Once again, love and light to you.

claireinmodena Sun 08-Jul-12 13:17:21

So sorry expat, have never posted but have been following and thinking about you and your daughter.

This so unfair. {hugs}

Expat, i also wept this morning when i saw the fb update. At.church, the priest lit a.candle and.saod "anpther.angel,waiting,watching. A gaurdian for her.family"

ineedamiracle Sun 08-Jul-12 13:18:09

So sorry for your loss...cannot imagine what you are going through xxxxx

cardamomginger Sun 08-Jul-12 13:18:10

God bless you all and keep you safe. All my love XXXXXXX

HelenMumsnet (MNHQ) Sun 08-Jul-12 13:18:16

We're so sorry, expat.

Much, much love from all at MNHQ.

IslaMann Sun 08-Jul-12 13:19:18

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss of your beautiful little girl. I can do nothing to help, except to send you love and strength. RIP little one xxx

DarrowbyEightFive Sun 08-Jul-12 13:19:22

Expat, no experience is worse than what you're going through now. We're thinking of you all, we're thinking of your gorgeous little girl who is at peace now. With lots of love from Berlin.

Im so very sorry Expat my thoughts and love are with you and your family.

Sleep tight Aillidh xxx

RabidAnchovy Sun 08-Jul-12 13:20:26

One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering.
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

May the Lord carry you and your family at this sad time, heartfelt sympathy for the loss of your very special daughter Aillidh, we have been praying hard in the rabid household and will continue to do so, your daughter was truly a brave and inspirational little girl with the heart of a lion, it has been a privilege to be allowed to shear in her journey I only wish the outcome had not been this one
God bless you.

trace2 Sun 08-Jul-12 13:21:33

so sorry she was such a brave girl! my thoughts are with you all xx

hadagutsfull Sun 08-Jul-12 13:21:41

I can't begin to know how you're feeling Expat but just want to say I am so, so sorry for your loss xx

Expat, I am really really sorry for you all.

RandomMess Sun 08-Jul-12 13:22:05

So sorry Expat, I hope you ccan cling onto the sunlight she brought into your lives through the deepest of the pain and darkness you experience x

dutchyoriginal Sun 08-Jul-12 13:22:07

so so sorry to hear this, expat. I followed Ailidh's struggle over the week and prayed for her. I'm so sorry for your loss. :-(

There are no words that I can offer to make any difference.

I feel for you and all your family at this time Expat.

Take comfort in each other and remember what a beautiful loving daughter Aillidh is

mamalovesmojitos Sun 08-Jul-12 13:22:22

I am so sorry. I have kept ye in my heart over the last few months. I continue to do so. Love xxx.

Peggotty Sun 08-Jul-12 13:23:06

I'm so sad for you. Aillidh was a credit to you in her strength and courage. I am thinking of you and your family.

eastendywendy Sun 08-Jul-12 13:23:18

I'm so sorry about Aillidh, so sorry.

tribpot Sun 08-Jul-12 13:23:20

So very sorry to read your news, expat.

Fleecy Sun 08-Jul-12 13:23:48

So very, very sorry sad

Sending you love and will be praying for you all.

hattifattner Sun 08-Jul-12 13:24:05

expat, as a family of faith, please hold in your heart the thought that hundreds of people held your baby up to God. It is certain that she is with Him now.

It is also certain that her fight inspired many and drew many back to Him. Her life had a purpose and meaning outside of her loving family. And now also there are people on the bone marrow donor list that otherwise would not have signed up.

Tiredmumno1 Sun 08-Jul-12 13:25:03

Expat I am so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and your family xxx

Be happy and remember. Remember the love, smiles and happiness she brought and carried with her on her incredible journey. Her strength and yours Leigh are an inspiration to many who may never truly 'know' or meet you.

May the Lord bless you and keep you Aillidh.

A Beautiful Hymn For Aillidh

boohoohoo Sun 08-Jul-12 13:26:51

So so sorry, much love to you and your family xx

mardarse Sun 08-Jul-12 13:28:14

So sorry to hear the sad news this morning. What a brave little girl she was and a fighter too! We send love and strength from our family to yours, you are never far from my thoughts at the moment. Look after yourselves.

TanteRose Sun 08-Jul-12 13:28:28

so very sorry, expat

Aillidh was such a special girl

thinking of you and your family x

Caramelia Sun 08-Jul-12 13:29:08

All my love and condolences to you and your beautiful family. I was humbled by your strength through this ordeal and the strength of your little Aillidh as well. You raised a girl as brave and determined as yourself and she is a testament to your love. I wish peace for you in the knowledge that you were a rock for your little girl when she needed you most. May your faith carry you through the times ahead.

ThatsYouThatIs Sun 08-Jul-12 13:29:49

I'm so so sorry for your loss expat. I'm thinking of you and your family at this horrible time xx

cogitosum Sun 08-Jul-12 13:30:31

So very sorry. Thinking of you xxx

ComeIntoTheGardenMaud Sun 08-Jul-12 13:31:03

I am so very sorry.

scurryfunge Sun 08-Jul-12 13:31:18

So sorry, expat xx

FarelyKnuts Sun 08-Jul-12 13:31:23

Expat words cannot do justice to how much your bright shining wee star Aillidh will be missed in the world. I am so truly saddened that you must have such pain. May the light and love of all of us here surround you xxx

5madthings Sun 08-Jul-12 13:32:04

i am so sorry expat, there are no words, i join everyone else in saying Aillidh was an inspiration to so many and touched so many hearts, she will never be forgotten. i cant begin to imagine how you must feel, i just hope you and your family can hold each other tight and know that you are loved and thought of.

xxx

PeskyRat Sun 08-Jul-12 13:32:11

Your beautiful, brave daughter will be a huge inspiration to many. My thoughts are with you and your family Expat, and all those close to you xx

alistron1 Sun 08-Jul-12 13:32:13

I am so sorry expat. Like others have said I have been touched by your dignity and strength and your lovely little girls bravery.

MrsMicawber Sun 08-Jul-12 13:32:37

My thoughts and prayers are with you, expat. May her memory be a blessing.

Hopeforever Sun 08-Jul-12 13:36:00

Thank you for sharing your wonderful special daughter with us, we will continue to hold you, your family and all who loved her in our prayers.
Rest in Gods loving arms

SandStorm Sun 08-Jul-12 13:37:05

There are no words. I'm so very sorry for you and your family. xx

TheWicketKeeperIsDown Sun 08-Jul-12 13:37:11

I'm so dreadfully sorry. Sleep in peace and comfort, wee Ailidh. You were loved fiercely.

GRW Sun 08-Jul-12 13:37:14

So many people have been touched by your little girl and have been praying for her. I hope that you will find some comfort from the thoughts and prayers of us all. I am so sorry for your devastating loss.

BigHairyFlowers Sun 08-Jul-12 13:38:41

So very sorry xxx

hellymelly Sun 08-Jul-12 13:43:11

Expat I am so very sad and sorry to read this morning that your beautiful little girl has died. I don't know what we as mumsnetters can do now to give you help or support, but whatever you might need that we could help with, please ask, there are so many people on here who are all thinking of you and your family now. I don't know what else to say, other than that she sounded an incredible character, and I am dreadfully sorry that she is no longer with you.

Wonder12 Sun 08-Jul-12 13:43:13

I'm so very sorry for your loss.
My heart, thoughts & prayers are with you & your family.
Rest Peacefully with the angels now little Aillidh & look over your mummy xxxxxxx

duchesse Sun 08-Jul-12 13:43:18

Expat, I am so so sorry for the death of your beautiful daughter. It was such a rollercoaster for you all. My condolences to you all.

QueenofJacksDreams Sun 08-Jul-12 13:44:04

So sorry for your loss Expat she was a very special very loved little girl you're in all our hearts my darling xxx

Moomoomie Sun 08-Jul-12 13:44:39

Aillidh is such an inspirational girl. She has brought people from all over the world together in love and prayer.
We have all been praying for your whole family and will continue to do so.
Rest in Peace sweet Aillidh.

TheDancingPilchard Sun 08-Jul-12 13:44:51

I am so sorry expat. so fucking sorry. Its impossible to know what to say, but we in the lissie house are thinking of you all and holding you in our hearts.

ilovesprouts Sun 08-Jul-12 13:45:34

So Very Special

She was so very, very special
And was so from the start
You held her in your arms
But mainly in your heart
And like a single drop of rain
That on still waters fall,
Her life did ripples make
And touched the lives of all.
She's gone to play with angels
In heaven up above
So keep your special memories
And treasure. them with love
Although your darling daughter
Was with you just a while
She'll live on in your heart
With a sweet remembered smile
much love expat and family xx

flamingtoaster Sun 08-Jul-12 13:46:51

So very sorry you have lost your beautiful daughter. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

gomez Sun 08-Jul-12 13:48:18

Goodbye Aillidh.

Expat be kind to yourself through this time. Embrace the good memories whilst you grieve for your loss.

chickydoo Sun 08-Jul-12 13:49:06

My heart breaks for you.
Sending you love, and thoughts
X

Jacanne Sun 08-Jul-12 13:50:22

I'm so very sorry for your loss - I am sure that the collective sadness of an internet community is a drop in the ocean to the sadness and loss you and your family feel but even so I am so sad for you all. Much love to you xxx

BreastmilkDoesAFabLatte Sun 08-Jul-12 13:51:00

Expat I am so, so sorry. Your daughter seemed a beautiful, beautiful girl, with such a fantastic smile, full of faith and life.

Thank you for allowing us the privilege of praying alongside you for her and for teaching us about perseverence and hope. Please be assured that we will continue to pray for you and all of your family and friends.

Big, big hugs from the whole Breastmilk family...

knittedslippersx3 Sun 08-Jul-12 13:51:08

I'm so, so sorry. Sending you much love, strength and support xx

So very sorry that she couldn't stay. She touched the lives of so many. Love, light and strength to you all xxx

bushymcbush Sun 08-Jul-12 13:51:23

So devastating. I'm so so sorry. God be with you.

LemonEmmaP Sun 08-Jul-12 13:52:45

In loving memory of Aillidh, who has touched so many hearts. Much love to you and your family xxx

PoppadumPreach Sun 08-Jul-12 13:53:15

my deepest condolences. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

SESthebrave Sun 08-Jul-12 13:53:46

Expat, words are hard to find but the impact your beautiful daughter has had is incredible and I hope that in time you will take some comfort from that. She has not only helped swell the numbers on the bone marrow donor register but she has also brought many to prayer and explore their own faith. We may not fully understand the why of what has happened but be assured of the miracle that Aillidh is, was and were worked through her.
Prayers continue for you all.

eastendfareast Sun 08-Jul-12 13:53:52

I'm so, so sorry expat. Love and hugs to you and your family. She was a special girl who touched so many hearts x

LynetteScavo Sun 08-Jul-12 13:54:10

sad

I am so, so, sorry expat.

It's funny peculiar how someone you've never met can touch you're heart over the internet.

sad

KurriKurri Sun 08-Jul-12 13:54:50

Dear Expat, - I'm so very sorry for your loss, like many others on here, I am a stranger who was so moved and touched by your daughter's courage and spirit. Bless your family, may you find strength and peace to help you through the days to come, and may little Aillidh sleep tight. xx

twofalls Sun 08-Jul-12 13:55:09

So sorry you lost your beautiful girl expat. Nobody could have fought harder. Lots of love to you and your family. Xx

YoshysMum Sun 08-Jul-12 13:56:30

Expat and family a poem to hopefully give comfort.

God bless Aillidh, xx.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft star-shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

I'm so sorry for you and your family. Your daughter was beautiful and touched us all

x

MyDogShitsMoney Sun 08-Jul-12 13:59:08

I'm so so sorry for your loss.

She fought so hard.

Rest now little one, you made more of a difference than you will ever know.

xxx

Mrsfred Sun 08-Jul-12 13:59:48

I am so very sorry Expat. Your family will continue to be in our thoughts.

CamelKnees Sun 08-Jul-12 14:00:23

I am so so sorry for your loss

wheniwasoneihadjustbegun Sun 08-Jul-12 14:00:34

So terribly sorry for your loss, Expat and family xx

hunkermunker Sun 08-Jul-12 14:00:56

Expat, I'm so sorry. We will never forget your little girl. Much love to you all.

Rest in peace, dear Aillidh xxx

Gill79 Sun 08-Jul-12 14:01:18

So sorry Expat. Only came across Aillidh's story in the last week or so but since then have been constantly thinking about her and checking mn and fb throughout the day, and during night-time feeds. Love all the photos of her on fb, what a fantastic smile and beautiful hair. Hard to believe.... don't know what else can be said. Sorry.

Have followed her progress on FB. I'm so, so sorry Expat. There are just no words ...

Always here for you and yours,

TMD xxx

Abra1d Sun 08-Jul-12 14:06:04

You and your family are in my prayers, Expat.

ChippingInNeedsCoffee Sun 08-Jul-12 14:08:01

Expat my love, I am so, so sorry x My thoughts are with you, Andrew & all your family & friends. I know my tears are futile, but still they fall. I hope you know how much we have all fallen in love with Aillidh - we are here with you... sending you love & strength xxx

VeniVidiVickiQV Sun 08-Jul-12 14:08:08

I'm so sorry darling. Aillidh was a gorgeous girl, and her spirit and tenacity will live on x x x

There's nothing I can type that is going to compare to how I feel.

I just want to say that Aillidh's story has touched me so much and I hold her name in my heart and her face in my memories. She was as brave as lion. Her light will forever shine.

xx

Furball Sun 08-Jul-12 14:09:08

So so sorry - Thinking of you expat and family xx

TuftyFinch Sun 08-Jul-12 14:09:29

I am so very sorry x

Sariska Sun 08-Jul-12 14:10:02

My deepest condolences to you, expat, as you face this worst of all things. I hope you find some small comfort in the prayers and hopes of the thousands who continue to stand behind you, and relief in the knowledge that now your beautiful daughter is beyond any further hurt and is safe with God. And some day you will be reunited.

MaryMotherOfCheeses Sun 08-Jul-12 14:10:33

Sweetheart I'm so sorry for your loss.

No words sad

Napdamnyou Sun 08-Jul-12 14:11:17

So terribly sorry for you all.

anyoneknowanything Sun 08-Jul-12 14:12:56

Oh god, I am so so so very sorry.

Like many a mumsnetter I have been following your story and hoping against all hope.

There are no words at the moment.

Xxxxxxxx ((((((hug))))))) xxxxxxxxxxxxx

gingercurl Sun 08-Jul-12 14:13:50

I have no word of wisdom or comfort to offer. Only a prayer that God shall surround all of Aillidh's loved ones on all sides and hold them in the palm of his hand.
The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. Job 1:21

thunksheadontable Sun 08-Jul-12 14:14:01

I'm just so sorry for you and for all your family that it happened as it did when you were so close to the transplant. It is so wrong and unfair and I wish it could be undone.

In Irish we say: "ní bheith a leithéid ann arís" - there will never be the likes of her again. Rest in peace, Aillidh.

kaytola Sun 08-Jul-12 14:16:01

So sorry to hear of her passing Expat xx

Fly free beautiful girl.

sparkout Sun 08-Jul-12 14:16:38

So sorry to hear of you and your families loss x

zukiecat Sun 08-Jul-12 14:17:25

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

AllYouNeedIsAClickyBallpoint Sun 08-Jul-12 14:21:25

I'm so sorry Expat.
Aillidh was so beautiful and courageous, and such a credit to you.
She will be remembered by so many for a long time.
We are all sending you love and prayers xx

perplexedpirate Sun 08-Jul-12 14:22:40

So so sorry for your loss. sad

CoffeeGoneColdAgain Sun 08-Jul-12 14:22:48

*May the Lord carry you and your family at this sad time, heartfelt sympathy for the loss of your very special daughter Aillidh, we have been praying hard in the rabid household and will continue to do so, your daughter was truly a brave and inspirational little girl with the heart of a lion, it has been a privilege to be allowed to shear in her journey I only wish the outcome had not been this one
God bless you.*

Beautiful words Rabid truly beautiful.

Expat you and your family are in my thoughts at this very sad time. I'm always lurking, not much of a poster but couldn't not post.
Rest forever in peace gorgeous Aillidh, you fought so terribly hard to stay with you wonderful family. Giraffes you have been an amazing friend. What a fantastic place mumsnet is! xxx

glitterfairy Sun 08-Jul-12 14:23:06

I am so sorry Expat. No one could have fought harder for their child. Love to all your family.

onebatmother Sun 08-Jul-12 14:23:09

Oh Expat, I'm so, so sorry to hear this. Love to you all.

specialhero Sun 08-Jul-12 14:23:17

I am very very sorry to see this news.
You sound amazing and strong expat.
Wish you and all your family the best under these sorry circumstances.
x

CominThroughTheWry Sun 08-Jul-12 14:23:20

I am so, so sorry expat. My thoughts are with you and yours today.

Sending you a bosie, xx

Yellowtip Sun 08-Jul-12 14:23:49

So sorry too.

FriskyMare Sun 08-Jul-12 14:24:21

God Bless little Aillidh x
I didn't know you but you have been in my thoughts and prayers over the last few days. x

dinosaur Sun 08-Jul-12 14:24:50

I am so so sorry for your loss. Much love to you and yours. xxx

Expat I have followed yours and beautiful Aillidh's story and I was heartbroken to see last night that she was gone.

I lost my beautiful DD to the evil that is cancer last year. From one bereaved mum to another please accept a gentle and understanding hug and some fortifying strength to get you through the coming days xxx

BreastmilkDoesAFabLatte Sun 08-Jul-12 14:25:35

Many of us are continuing to pray for you.

I don't have any words left, just love.

WynkenBlynkenandNod Sun 08-Jul-12 14:28:38

I'm so very very sorry. Another one who can't find the words I want xxx

So so sorry! Much love and prayers! x

Tigerbomb Sun 08-Jul-12 14:29:02

Expat, I am so so so sorry to hear this. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family . I hope you take small comfort from some words that helped me recently.

God bless you

I am standing by the seashore.
A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze
and starts for the blue ocean.
She is an object of beauty and strength,
and I stand and watch
until at last she hangs like a peck of white cloud
just where the sun and sky come down to mingle with each other.

Then someone at my side says, 'There she goes!
Gone where? Gone from my sight - that is all.

She is just as large in mast and hull and spar
as she was when she left my side
and just as able to bear her load of living freight
to the places of destination.
Her diminished size is in me, not in her.

And just at the moment when someone at my side says,
'There she goes! ' ,
there are other eyes watching her coming,
and other voices ready to take up the glad shout :
'Here she comes!'

MummyDoIt Sun 08-Jul-12 14:29:26

You've been in my thoughts so much, Expat, and my heart goes out to you and your family.

Much love to you.

naturalbaby Sun 08-Jul-12 14:34:38

I'm so sorry that you,your family and friends have had to go through such a terrible time.
Ailidh's leukemia inspired me to join the bone marrow donor register, and I know there are many others who have done the same. I hope you can find some light and comfort during this very dark time.
Xxx

maples Sun 08-Jul-12 14:35:09

I am so very very sorry expat and all our love goes out to you.

ILovePonyo Sun 08-Jul-12 14:36:07

I've been following the other threads but not posted, just wanted to say how sorry I am and I have been thinking of you and your much loved dd often x x

schneebly Sun 08-Jul-12 14:39:02

Expat I haven't been on or posted on MN in years really but have been following Ailidh's story via Facebook. I just wanted to come back here and let you know that I am thinking of you and your family. I cannot begin to imagine how you are feeling but I hope you can gain strength from the support and love of family, friends and strangers. Sending you all of mine. X

NorbertDentressangle Sun 08-Jul-12 14:39:31

Expat, I'm so sorry.

You and your family are in my thoughts.

x

I've been following Aillidh's threads and hoping and praying for days. I can't express how deeply sorry I am that she is gone. Words are so inadequate. Such a beautiful beautiful girl. Love to you all xxx

Milliways Sun 08-Jul-12 14:40:36

So sorry to hear this news Expat, we are all praying for you and your family.

Macchiato Sun 08-Jul-12 14:42:00

Oh sweetheart sad I'm so so so sorry. You have been through so much, things that no mother should ever have to go through. Your beautiful daughter has touched so many hearts. She put up such a brave fight, she really did. I will always think of your darling Aillidh as a true inspiration, a warrior child, with an absolutly beautiful smile.

I'm sending all my love and hugs to you and your family at this heartbreaking time and even though we are strangers, please, if you ever need anything please let me know.

Xxxxx

Bonkerz Sun 08-Jul-12 14:42:54

So sorry for your losssad sleep week Aillidh and please know expat that your beautiful daughter will never be too far away from you and your family x

MariosTash Sun 08-Jul-12 14:43:51

Sending love and prayers to you and your family x

onewetdogowner Sun 08-Jul-12 14:44:42

holding you and Aillidh in my thoughts, with love

DuffyMoon Sun 08-Jul-12 14:45:01

So sorry for your loss x

UrsulaBuffay Sun 08-Jul-12 14:45:40

Although I rarely post on minute any more, I have followed Aillidh's struggle. My heart is heavy for you all, she is no longer in pain but I cannot bear the thought of your loss.

So sorry, love & light x

UrsulaBuffay Sun 08-Jul-12 14:46:23

*mumsnet not minute, bloody autocorrect x

Caoimhe Sun 08-Jul-12 14:46:34

I am so, so sorry for your loss expat.

There are no words adequate for such a tragedy but know that you and your family are in the thoughts and prayers of so many.

Wishing you all the strength you need.

LtEveDallas Sun 08-Jul-12 14:47:42

So sad to wake to the terrible news this morning. Expat, I cannot imagine how you must be feeling. I am so very sorry that Aillidh is lost. But she lives on in your hearts, and in the hearts of the friends that have followed her story.

You, Aillidh and the rest of her family are an inspiration. You never gave up and your strength is legendary.

The day may be grayer, but the stars will shine more brightly tonight with Aillidh leading the way.

Xx

MikeLitoris Sun 08-Jul-12 14:49:01

Love and prayers to you all expat

You and Aillidh have been such an inspiration. You've touched so many lives.

Travel safe little one.

ShotgunNotDoingThePans Sun 08-Jul-12 14:49:09

Thinking about all of you. I can't imagine your pain. So sorry.

threespecialsteps Sun 08-Jul-12 14:49:36

So so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. Thinking of you all xxx

TheBolter Sun 08-Jul-12 14:50:21

I can't express how saddened I feel for your loss. We live in a senseless world. Sending you love and thinking of you and your family. May your beautiful girl shine like a light and be beside you forever. xxx

aJumpedUpPantryBoy Sun 08-Jul-12 14:51:08

You have been in my thoughts and prayers so much recently, I am so sorry to read of the loss of your beautiful daughter.

expat. been following aillidh's struggle for a while now and am devastated that she did not make it. cannot imagine what you are going through. thank you for sharing your daughter's journey with us, she is an inspiration and i am sure there are many people who have now joined up to be donors who would not have before. i am so sorry x

BuddhaBelly Sun 08-Jul-12 14:53:36

So sorry for your loss expat you have been so strong and been through so much be kind to yourself. Aillidh has touched the hearts of so many of us you should be so proud my love x

scummymummy Sun 08-Jul-12 14:54:53

This is utterly devastating, expat, and I am so very, very sorry you have lost your amazing Allidh to this terrible illness. She was so gorgeous looking and from your posts on mumsnet she always sounded such a little character. I remember you posting about how excited she was about her new pink croc shoes, about 6 years ago, and thinking how sweet she sounded. I have been thinking about her and you and Andrew and your other children so much in recent weeks and I know I will continue to do so. She will not be forgotten.

bamboostalks Sun 08-Jul-12 14:55:09

Praying for you and your family expat. No need to pray for your lovely lovely Aillidh, because of your faith, she is safe with God.

FannyFifer Sun 08-Jul-12 14:57:11

Really sorry expat, thinking of you & yours.

BonnieBumble Sun 08-Jul-12 14:59:28

I am so sorry for your loss. She sounded like a lovely little girl and she truly has touched the hearts of many.

amalur Sun 08-Jul-12 15:02:47

So sorry for your loss, expat. I hope you will find some comfort in the future knowing how many people your little girl touched

serin Sun 08-Jul-12 15:02:57

Praying for strength for you all and sending deepest sympathy.

MirandaWest Sun 08-Jul-12 15:03:46

I am so sorry expat. It just isn't fair sad

I wish you peace and strength x

StillSquiffy Sun 08-Jul-12 15:05:29

So sorry Expat.

May the Lord comfort and protect you and your family.

She was a warrior child.

EmmaNess Sun 08-Jul-12 15:05:47

I'm so so sorry expat.

x.

Geranium3 Sun 08-Jul-12 15:05:49

We were so very sad to hear that your darling Aillidh had lost her struggle,love and hugs to you expat and all of Aillidh's treasured family. If it is any comfort, Aillidh's beautiful body will be recovered and not broken anymore and those wonderful long legs will be exploring Heaven with great gusto I believe. xxx

I am so sorry Expat.
I just don't have the words, but I and most of Mumsnet have prayed many times for you, your family and Ailihd. I hope your beautiful girl sleeps peacefully now. xxxx

Inertia Sun 08-Jul-12 15:07:25

So sorry for the loss of your beautiful brave girl, thinking of you and your family at this sad time.

citronella Sun 08-Jul-12 15:10:55

No words.
x

orion3 Sun 08-Jul-12 15:13:39

I'm so sorry to hear about your precious girl, Ailidh.
My son died 6 months ago and I know that you are at the start of your journey and it's all so unbearable but please hang on. There is an online group called the compassionate friends and when you are ready, it might help you to talk to others in your position. Sending you all love.
X

RabidAnchovy Sun 08-Jul-12 15:15:37
weblette Sun 08-Jul-12 15:17:10

'They are not dead who live in the hearts they leave behind.'

Wishing you and your family peace. Ailidh will live on in the hearts and minds of so so many people.

kat1885 Sun 08-Jul-12 15:17:18

I am so sorry you have lost your beautiful, brave and inspiring Aillidh. She brought so many people from around the world together in hope, prayer and love. She will remain in our hearts, may she rest in peace xx

Guadalupe Sun 08-Jul-12 15:19:32

Dear Expat, I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I haven't forgottten how kind and helpful your posts were when I was facing a hysterectomy due to cancer a few years ago. I wish there was something I could say of some comfort to you now. Wishing much love to you and your family. xx

monkeychambers Sun 08-Jul-12 15:24:34

Expat, I am so terribly sorry you have lost your wonderful Aillidh. Thinking of you all. xx

jabberwocky Sun 08-Jul-12 15:25:24

I am so very sorry. My heart is with you and your family.

FreckledLeopard Sun 08-Jul-12 15:26:20

I am so so sorry to hear about the death of your darling girl. Sending love and prayers xx

Hulababy Sun 08-Jul-12 15:29:18

Oh expat, words can't express how sorry I feel for the loss of your beautiful Allidh.

Thinking of you all x

Expat, I have no words, and other posters have said what I am feeling so much more eloquently than I ever could, however I just wanted to post and say how sorry I am for your loss. So so sorry.

Sleep well Aillidh, and much love and prayers for you Expat and the rest of your family and friends

xxx

Expat you are in our thoughts.

Aillidh touched so many lives, she will live on.

Love like starlight never dies.

SquigglePigs Sun 08-Jul-12 15:33:51

So sorry to hear this. Thoughts and prayers are with you all. Your little girl has touched so many people. x

Memoo Sun 08-Jul-12 15:34:24

Sweetheart I have no words to express how sorry I am. Your beautiful Aillidh will stay in my heart forever. God bless you my darling xxxxxx

Alameda Sun 08-Jul-12 15:35:15

so very sorry expat x

Makingmama Sun 08-Jul-12 15:35:57

So sorry for your loss...may your darling angel Aillidh be resting peacefully. My thoughts are with you all xx

LittlePebble Sun 08-Jul-12 15:36:30

So sorry expat for the loss of your beautiful little girl x

AlistairSim Sun 08-Jul-12 15:36:32

I'm sending you love, Expat.

XXX.

denise77 Sun 08-Jul-12 15:36:38

I'm so sorry for your loss. I only just this week started following your facebook page your brave little girl brought me to tears I have been praying for you all this week and I hope you can be comforted by knowing how many people she touched. I will continue to pray for your family xx

ellenjames Sun 08-Jul-12 15:39:52

so fucking sorry, just got on and was praying that that miracle had happened sad sleep safe baby girl x

Katz Sun 08-Jul-12 15:40:00

Expat - my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Lougle Sun 08-Jul-12 15:40:45

A poem that I heard many years ago has always stuck with me. I've changed a couple of words, Expat. I hope I you don't mind....

I AM STILL HER MOTHER

In a lofty castle, just beyond my eye
My Aillidh plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who am I to wish her back into this world of strife?
No, play on my Aillidh, you have eternal life.

At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes my eyes,
I’ll hear her tiny footsteps come running to my side.
Her little hands caress me so tenderly and sweet,
I’ll breathe a prayer and close my eyes and embrace her in my sleep.

No, I have a treasure I rate above all other,
I have known true glory ----I am still her mother.

lionheart Sun 08-Jul-12 15:42:39

I've been thinking about you and your family. So sorry.

DharmaLovesDraco Sun 08-Jul-12 15:42:55

I'm so sorry Expat, thinking of ou all x

GothAnneGeddes Sun 08-Jul-12 15:46:39

I'm so very sorry to hear this. Xxxxx

aristocat Sun 08-Jul-12 15:47:03

so sorry expat, I am lost for words sad

may your darling Aillidh rest in peace xx

Expat, I have no words, the ones I do have are meaningless...

I am so so sorry you have all had to go through this.
You and yours were in my thoughts constantly these last few weeks.

Sending you love and strength xx

smokinaces Sun 08-Jul-12 15:49:06

Expat, my heart breaks for you. I am so so sorry. I wish there were more than words I could offer. I wish I could take some of your pain for even a minute. I wish so much. X x x

LurkingAndLearningForNow Sun 08-Jul-12 15:49:08

Oh no. sad

Heavensmells Sun 08-Jul-12 15:49:47

I am so sorry for your loss expat. Your daughter was a very brave little girl and you are in my thoughts and prayers xx

rubyrubyruby Sun 08-Jul-12 15:50:58

I'm so sorry expat.

Thinking of you and your family today xxxxxx

dontcallmehon Sun 08-Jul-12 15:52:36

So sorry. I will say a prayer in school with my form tomorrow for you and your family. I have had you all in my thoughts and have followed your beautiful Aillidh's story. I am so so sorry for your loss sad

I wish you the strength to get through these darkest of days xxx

jen127 Sun 08-Jul-12 15:53:34

I am so so sorry ! Your family ar in thoughts and prayers, xx

Mindyourownbusiness Sun 08-Jul-12 15:53:49

So so sorry, been camping this weekend and just got back turned laptop on. Just couldnt believe it, she was still rallying on Friday when l last looked.
She tried so so hard to stay with you and l dont blame her - you are such an inspiring wonderful family. It may not seem like it now but you will get through this together and your little girl will l believe find a way of letting you know she is still around you.

" 'WHO DARED PLUCK THIS FLOWER?' said the gardener.

'I DID' said the Master

and the gardener fell silent."

MardyBra Sun 08-Jul-12 15:54:13

So sorry to hear of your loss. Thinking of you and your family. xx

QuickLookBusy Sun 08-Jul-12 15:54:31

I'm so very sorry Expat, my heart goes out to you and your family.

Aillidh made such an impact on many people, she is an amazing girl.xxx

snice Sun 08-Jul-12 15:54:45

I'm so sorry that you've lost your lovely girl

ggirl Sun 08-Jul-12 15:54:45

I cannot imagine what you are going through ....I am so sorry. Xxx

Rindercella Sun 08-Jul-12 15:55:08

Expat, I am so truly sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter Aillidh.

Rest in peace little Angel xxx

scrappydappydoo Sun 08-Jul-12 15:55:32

I'm so sorry expat. Your daughter has been such an inspiration over the past few weeks xx

MamaMaiasaura Sun 08-Jul-12 15:57:04

Expat - I have read your posts on mn over the years and cannot believe your beautiful daughter is gone. I'm so truly sorry and hoped for a miracle. You are in our thoughts. we all send our love. xxx

Expat - your faith has inspired us and your loving fight for your daughter has amazed us. Thank you for letting us try to offer you some support through this awful time. I know Aillidh is home safe with Our Father but we want her here with you so that hurts so very much. You will be in my prayers today and in the days to come.

moondog Sun 08-Jul-12 15:58:33

Tragic news.
Broken hearted for you dear Expat.

HokeyCokeyPigInAPokey Sun 08-Jul-12 15:58:54

expat, i am so, so, sorry for your loss.

I hope your faith and the love of your family give you the strength to get through the difficult times ahead.

I will never forget Aillidh and i am registering as a donor because of her.

You have my very deepest sympathies with much love and respect.

whistleblowerswife Sun 08-Jul-12 15:59:03

I 'know' you from many threads of old. My heart goes out to you and I wish you strength to get through this somehow. As we say in Turkish, I wish you calm to your mind.

QOD Sun 08-Jul-12 15:59:17

Devastating, I hope all the thoughts, hopes and prayers of mn and the vast Internet community she touched gave or gives you some comfort.

So much love sent to your family, and all our other mumsnet mums who sadly have had and will have reason to start a post in this section

EricNorthmansFangBanger Sun 08-Jul-12 16:03:51

I'm so very sorry for your loss ExPat sad

thelennox Sun 08-Jul-12 16:08:46

So sorry to hear that your Aillidh has slipped away.
My thoughts are with you all.

Kellamity Sun 08-Jul-12 16:09:57

Oh Expat I am so sorry sad

Mouseface Sun 08-Jul-12 16:10:42

Dearest Expat, family, friends and those who were there with darling A during her last few moments.

I am so very sorry that your beautiful daughter finally lost her fight to such a cruel and twisted illness after battling so very, very hard. No words can take away the hurt, the pain and utter despair of losing a child.

The crushing guilt, the gravity of her going is immense. You gave her everything that you could Expat, everything.

Much love to you sweetheart xx

Thank you for taking the time to post on here expat, when your heart must be breaking.

The strength of love that has emanated from Mumsnet has been palpable.

Rest in peace Aillidh.

Flossiechops Sun 08-Jul-12 16:13:44

Oh expat what a cruel cruel world. So many have held their breathes and prayed hard, I'm so sorry that she had to go. No parent should ever have to see their child suffer and experience their loss. My heart goes out to you all, I'm so very very sorry xx

Conflugenglugen Sun 08-Jul-12 16:14:31

(((((((Expat and family)))))))

dietstartstmoz Sun 08-Jul-12 16:15:24

Such tragic news. Expat my heart goes out to you and your family.

DottyDot Sun 08-Jul-12 16:18:02

So sorry Expat. Much love to you and your family xxx

TanteRose Sun 08-Jul-12 16:19:07

I am so very sorry, expat

Aillidh was such a brave girl

Thinking of you and your family x

drcrab Sun 08-Jul-12 16:19:56

I'm so sorry. It's been such a long journey for you and your family. Take time to mourn. Rest in peace A... Xxoo

MrsMcEnroe Sun 08-Jul-12 16:21:17

I am so sorry expat, you have all been so brave for so long. Nothing I can say will lessen your pain but please know that there is someone else here who is thinking of you and wishing you strength. xxx

LetUsPrey Sun 08-Jul-12 16:21:19

So sorry expat. sad You and your family are in my thoughts x

GaryTankCommander Sun 08-Jul-12 16:22:48

I am so, so sorry for your loss expat. X

She was a beautiful girl Expat, and she will never be forgotten.
May she rest in peace.x

kefybaby Sun 08-Jul-12 16:24:35

I am truly sorry. Words can be so inadequate at times like this. Thinking of you. X

tempnameswap Sun 08-Jul-12 16:25:24

I am so so sorry expat. Your story has touched many many people and I for one am going to join the bone marrow register because of Aillidh. Sending you much love and strength for the future.

LostInFabiensEyes Sun 08-Jul-12 16:25:40

So, so sorry expat. I hope she could feel the love coming to her from all around the world. A special, beautiful, little girl. x

foosty Sun 08-Jul-12 16:25:46

oh, expat. There are no adequate words. I've been quietly following Ailidh's fight and am truly devastated at this dreadful news.

Peace and love to you all. xxx

LateDeveloper Sun 08-Jul-12 16:26:24

So very sorry for your loss expat and family.

LateDeveloper Sun 08-Jul-12 16:26:25

So very sorry for your loss expat and family.

piratecat Sun 08-Jul-12 16:26:31

I am so very sorry expat. my sincere condolences to you and your family. Life's not fair, i am so sorry.xx

Twinkleinmyeye Sun 08-Jul-12 16:26:56

So, so sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers are being sent for you all.

Condolences, there are no words - I am so sorry

Livelongandprosper Sun 08-Jul-12 16:34:45

Expat I am so sorry and send you and your family and friends much love.

I went for a walk today and I held your daughter in my thoughts and in my heart amongst the meadow flowers.

OneHandFlapping Sun 08-Jul-12 16:35:59

I'm so sorry Expat. I don't know what else to say.

Annunziata Sun 08-Jul-12 16:36:03

So very sorry. You must be so proud of your lovely girl.

madhairday Sun 08-Jul-12 16:39:00

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl, expat. She touched many lives.

God bless you and keep you.

Badvoc Sun 08-Jul-12 16:41:07

Expat
I have been following Aillidhs long battle and have been, as so many others, praying thinking of you all for the last few days...
I have no words to express my deep and heartfelt sorrow at the loss of little girl I never knew...I was crying in bed last night after the terribly sad FB updates.
Your beautiful girl has touched so many, her fight has been hard and her bravery amazing.
you must be so proud.
Thank you for sharing Aillidh with us.We will never forget her
X

landofsoapandglory Sun 08-Jul-12 16:41:19

Expat, my family and I are so very, very sorry for your loss. I have never before been as affected by the death of someone I did 't know.

I followed Aillidh's story on Fb, as well as on MN. She was a beautiful little girl, with sparkly eyes and a beaming smile. She inspired so many people and because of her many, many people signed up to be bone marrow donors. Your love for Aillidh shone through in the posts you wrote on Fb. My tears are futile, but they have fallen and my heart is breaking for you and your family.

Wishing you lots of love and strength. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Rest in Peace beautiful Aillidhxxx

SwedishEdith Sun 08-Jul-12 16:42:34

I am so, so sorry to hear this. Heartbreaking. Thinking of you all.

I am so sorry to see this news.

Thinking of you.

I am so so sorrysad

Aillidh touched the hearts of many, not only on MN and Facebook but around the world. You and your family have humbled us with your brave fight for your beautiful daughter. You must all be exhausted and numb just now - take good care of yourselves and each other.

With much love and special prayers xxx

chosenone Sun 08-Jul-12 16:46:39

So so sorry for your loss, love, prayers and strength for you and your family and hope your amazing daughter is now at peace. God Bless you all x x

Expat, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I can't express as eloquently as many others have here before me, just how touched so many of us have been by Aillidh and your strength and spirit. Please let us know if there is anything we can do for your family.

IMeMine Sun 08-Jul-12 16:53:05

I am so, so sorry for your loss.

Rest in peace now beautiful Aillidh.

Love and prayers xxx

RVPisnomore Sun 08-Jul-12 17:02:50

So very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter, although she has gone she won't be forgotten.

oldqueenie Sun 08-Jul-12 17:07:23

expat, there are no words that can help, but I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Rest in peace little girl.

bradbourne Sun 08-Jul-12 17:11:24

Just wanted to add my sincerest condolences to you, your family and everyone else who knew and loved Aillidh. So sorry to hear this news.

expatinscotland Sun 08-Jul-12 17:12:10

I can't believe she is gone.

Adversecamber Sun 08-Jul-12 17:12:35

I'm very sorry expat, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
x

I don't have adequate words to comfort you, so I'll just say how very sorry I am. Thank you for sharing Aillidh with us, it was a privilege to have 'known' her. God bless x

Expat and family our love and sympathy to you all. Your brave girl was loved the world over, may she rest in everlasting peace.

Daddy, please don't look so sad, Mama, please don't cry-
cause I am in the arms of Jesus and He sings me lullabies.
Please, try not to question God, don't think he is unkind.
Don't think he sent me to you, and then He changed his mind.
You see, I am a special child and I am needed up above.
I'm the special gift you gave Him, the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you. Watch the sky at night...
find the brightest star that is gleaming, that is my halo's brillant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost that mists your window pane.
That's me in the summer showers. I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a little breeze, from the gentle wind that blows, that's me
planting a kiss on your nose.
When you see a child playing and your heart feels a little tug, that's me,
I'll be there, giving your heart a hug.
So Daddy, please don't look so sad, Mama don't you cry.
I am in the arms of Jesus and He sings me lullabies.

mrssmooth Sun 08-Jul-12 17:17:32

sad oh Expat. This i so unfair. I am sure Aillidh will do all she can to let you know she is fine. She will always be with you - but that doesn't help when you just want to gather her in your arms. Take care of yourself my lovely x

So sorry expat. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and I wish you all the strength you need for the coming weeks and months.

Rest in peace Aillidh. xx

NunTheWiser Sun 08-Jul-12 17:22:46

Expat, I'm so sorry.

Dahlen Sun 08-Jul-12 17:23:41

Nothing compares to the loss of a child. I am so, so sorry. sad My thoughts are with you. x

Madsometimes Sun 08-Jul-12 17:30:59

So sorry that your beautiful daughter was taken from you so soon. I cannot imagine your hurting. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.

RachelHRD Sun 08-Jul-12 17:40:01

Have been thinking of you all day, there are no words. You must be the proudest Mum in the world - she was so brave and strong, rest in peace sweet Aillidh.

Wishing you much strength and sending much love xxxx

lemonpuff Sun 08-Jul-12 17:40:07

Gone too soon. Rest now, little one. So sorry expat, for you and your family. God Bless.

kohl Sun 08-Jul-12 17:41:24

Oh Expat, you and Aillidh have been unfailingly in my thoughts and prayers for the last few weeks, and will continue to be. I can't imagine how you are feeling, and I don't imagine it will help at all now, but maybe later to know that you were not and are not alone, and your little girl was so brave, she inspired me and so so many on here and beyond. All the love to you.

crazynanna Sun 08-Jul-12 17:43:16

I cannot imagine what you are going through expat....I am sending you love and strength my love xxxx

foofooyeah Sun 08-Jul-12 17:46:13

I am just so sorry, what an amazing girl she was to have touched so many people.

So heartwrenchingly and devastatingly sad.

Take care of yourself expat. Thoughts are with you and your family and friends.

belgo Sun 08-Jul-12 17:46:28

So sorry and sad expat for you and your family. Hold you dd2 and ds tight sad

festiemum Sun 08-Jul-12 17:47:43

You have been in my thoughts recently. So sorry to hear she has gone. Much love to you and your family. xxx

Sorry to hear of Aillidh's passing - I was hoping that she would pull through. Thinking of you and sorry for your losssad

GhouliaYelps Sun 08-Jul-12 17:50:16

Expat you have been through hell you must be shattered.
I am so sorry sad I am praying for you all x

TandB Sun 08-Jul-12 17:50:19

So very, very sorry.

eightytwenty Sun 08-Jul-12 17:51:46

No words can convey how much one little girl, who most of us had never had the good fortune to meet, could have meant to hundreds of mnetters. I am desperately sorry that she didn't make it, and can only imagine how hard this has been and will continue to be for you and your family.

I lost my father in a tragic accident ten years ago. While I am not comparing the loss, I do remember how exhausting and all consuming grief is. Please try to rest and just "be" as much as possible. There is a huge long journey ahead and you will need even more strength to follow it.

As a non believer, I so hope your faith makes your loss easier to come to terms with. When dad died I kind of wished I had something to believe in.

suzikettles Sun 08-Jul-12 17:52:29

I am so sorry. You and your family, and your brave wee girl are in my thoughts.

expatinscotland Sun 08-Jul-12 17:52:31

Demain, dès l'aube, à l'heure où blanchit la campagne,
Je partirai. Vois-tu, je sais que tu m'attends.
J'irai par la forêt, j'irai par la montagne.
Je ne puis demeurer loin de toi plus longtemps.

Je marcherai les yeux fixés sur mes pensées,
Sans rien voir au dehors, sans entendre aucun bruit,
Seul, inconnu, le dos courbé, les mains croisées,
Triste, et le jour pour moi sera comme la nuit.

Je ne regarderai ni l'or du soir qui tombe,
Ni les voiles au loin descendant vers Harfleur,
Et quand j'arriverai, je mettrai sur ta tombe
Un bouquet de houx vert et de bruyère en fleur.

charlieandlola Sun 08-Jul-12 17:53:11

I am so sorry for your loss but in awe of you for how you fought for your daughter . She was lucky to have you Expat

Thing3 Sun 08-Jul-12 17:54:12

Expat I am so very sorry for your loss. Aillidh and the rest of your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

gaelicsheep Sun 08-Jul-12 17:54:41

I've not been on Mumsnet in months, but your story has brought me back. You're one of the people on here who have been an inspiration to me in the past, and I was horrified when I first heard what was happening. I am so so sorry for your loss. Much love. xx

bluebump Sun 08-Jul-12 17:54:52

I'm so sorry for your loss. Much love to you and your family xxx

BreastmilkDoesAFabLatte Sun 08-Jul-12 17:54:53

All my love, all my love, all my love...

Pernickety Sun 08-Jul-12 17:56:13

I am so, so sorry to hear of the loss of your beautiful Aillidh.

yankeedoodledo Sun 08-Jul-12 17:56:13

RIP your little angel. we were praying for a miracle and now praying for strength to give you comfort. So very sorry for your loss, Expat. you and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers everyday and will continue to be.

crazynanna Sun 08-Jul-12 17:56:29

That was so very beautiful,expat smile
eventhough I had to put it into google translate

ILikeToMoveItMoveIt Sun 08-Jul-12 17:57:30

Wishing you all peace x

These first few days and weeks are the strangest. You still feel their presence, yet they are not with you. You don't really know what to feel and your mood swings from one emotion to another. Yet there is one constant. You want them back, and you would have them back at pretty much any cost.

I am sorry that you are walking this path. It is a shitty path to follow but there are people along the way who can help guide you if you so wish.

The bereaved parents thread on here has helped me a lot. Come join us or lurk when you are ready. It took me a long time to be able to call myself a bereaved parent and to reconcile that that was my fate. But I am starting to come through the other side, and you will too when you are ready.

Please feel free to PM me if you would like to chat.

Hold on in there x

TunipTheVegemal Sun 08-Jul-12 17:57:53
SecretNutellaFix Sun 08-Jul-12 17:58:21

Beautiful, Expat.

MrsCarriePooter Sun 08-Jul-12 17:59:12

I'm very very sorry.

MamaG Sun 08-Jul-12 18:00:28

So very very sorry expat. You are all in my thoughts. What a brave, brave little girl.

Sending heartfelt love xxx

ColinFirthsGirth Sun 08-Jul-12 18:01:00

I am so sorry Expat. Your beautiful Aillidh has touched so many people in her life. You are all in my prayers. May she rest in peace in the light of heaven. xxx

balletmoo Sun 08-Jul-12 18:01:03

Expat, I just wanted to add my voice to the many already here...

I am so sorry for your loss. I know that there are no words to ease your pain, but know that your brave, beautiful daughter is a credit to you and will live on in the hearts and minds not only of those who knew her directly, but also of those of us here on MN and FB who have followed her story and who have been touched by her determination.

And a part of her will also live on in those who will be saved as a result of the number of new people signing up to the Anthony Nolan Bone Marrow Trust after hearing of her plight.

Rest in peace dear child... You touched so many and your spirit travels onwards on a wave of love...
Xxx

QuickLookBusy Sun 08-Jul-12 18:01:21

Oh Expat, you really won't believe she is gone for a long time, it won't seem possible or real. Please be very kind to yourself, you have been through so so much.xx

CurrySpice Sun 08-Jul-12 18:03:47

Expat I know that nothing I can say will help ease your pain but goodness me my heart goes out to you and A's dad. I cannot imagine what you are going through but I hope you know that there are hundreds of other mothers out there, feeling for you and sending out their love and condolences to you xxx

maybetoday Sun 08-Jul-12 18:04:23

Expat I'm so sorry. Aillidh and you and your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. I lit a candle for her in church this morning. Your love and care of your beautiful daughter have been inspirational. I pray that God gives you strength and comfort in this difficult time.

Levantine Sun 08-Jul-12 18:05:04

Expat, I'm so so sorry. Beautiful poem. I'm thinking of you xxx

Dprince Sun 08-Jul-12 18:07:27

I am so sorry and I am sending my love to you and your family.
I am just so, so sorry. I wish there was some words to take even the smallest bit of your pain away, but I can't think of them. I don't think the exist.
I will pray for you tonight.

Cassettetapeandpencil Sun 08-Jul-12 18:08:55

I'm so so sorry.

Holding you and your family in my prayers xx

StopTalkingAndEatYourDinner Sun 08-Jul-12 18:09:15

Wishing you love and strength Expat x

scottishmummy Sun 08-Jul-12 18:10:01

how very sad
i hope youre adequately supported and debriefed
i hope over time your family find fortitude and a way to make sense of this

ENormaSnob Sun 08-Jul-12 18:10:16

Thinking of you and your family x

Gorran Sun 08-Jul-12 18:10:53

I am so very sorry. There are no words. Much love and strength to you all x

Loshad Sun 08-Jul-12 18:12:07

Expat, so so sorry to hear of the loss of your beautiful smiley daughter.

helenthemadex Sun 08-Jul-12 18:13:17

there are simply no adequate words expat, sorry sounds so insignificant

I have followed Aillidhs fight and your posts as have so many, your courage and strength is amazing. I feel sure that your words have encouraged many to sign up as potential donors, that is Aillidhs legacy

love and prayers at this dreadful time x

ThePathanKhansWitch Sun 08-Jul-12 18:14:00

So sorry expat. x

Pinner35 Sun 08-Jul-12 18:14:08

Truly sorry Expat. Thinking of you and your family x

I'm so, so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter.

Hulababy Sun 08-Jul-12 18:15:56

Expat - I hope that your faith will help you through the difficult times ahead, and I am sure that Aillidh will remain with you forever, in your hearts and in your minds. She sounds like an amazing little girl, precious and loved by many, and she has touched so many people's hearts - people she never met and who never met her. She has made a huge difference to many people, your precious darling little girl.

sassytheFIRST Sun 08-Jul-12 18:18:12

So desperately sorry Expat x

twofingerstoGideon Sun 08-Jul-12 18:19:28

Heartbreaking news. I'm so sorry. x

PaddingtonBare Sun 08-Jul-12 18:21:03

What heartbreaking news. So very, very sorry for you. Sending you lots and lots of love.

posey Sun 08-Jul-12 18:21:22

I have no words to help ease your pain, but just want to add to the hundreds that have been sent to you. I am so terribly sorry for your loss sad

HumphreyCobbler Sun 08-Jul-12 18:22:52

I am so sorry.

geniuswater Sun 08-Jul-12 18:33:53

Expat though I never met you or your beautiful daughter, I have followed your plight for months now and have prayed so very very hard for the miracle to save lovely Aillidh. I have no words to say that can ease your pain, please just know that you, your family, and your amazing girl have touched my heart so very deeply. You have brought so many many people together in love and prayer and we will always remember your grace, dignity, faith, and bravery through what is every parents worst nightmare.

Angel Aillidh is now in Heaven with Our Almighty Father, but she will remain in all our hearts forever.

Expat - you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers xx

Aillidh - God Bless you sweet Angel xx

Floggingmolly Sun 08-Jul-12 18:34:06

God bless you all, so very sorry sad

lagartija Sun 08-Jul-12 18:34:50

I'm so very very sorry for your loss.

Expat & family - I am so deeply sorry for your loss.

I have never met you or your family yet Aillidh's story touched me in a way that I never would have thought possible of a stranger. I too have lost loved ones to cancer yet to lose a child to this wretched disease seems a crueller blow still.

I cannot even begin to imagine how you all must be feeling. I saw your update on the other thread this morning yet I could not articulate then what I wanted to say to you. I still can't to be totally honest. You have shown such strength and composure in your posts that any words from me would seem futile. There is a beautiful hymn that I have taken comfort from in the past and I hope you don't mind me posting a link here to possibly be of comfort to you too Here I am Lord Hymn

Your daughter was a wonderfully brave little girl to have fought as she did and with such courage. Rest in peace beautiful Aillidh. My thoughts and love are with you Expat & family. xx

timetoask Sun 08-Jul-12 18:40:40

She is in the arms of the angels. Rest in peace little Aillidh. Much strength to you expat, your husband and your two little ones.

Hassled Sun 08-Jul-12 18:43:18

The poem is beautiful. I'm so sorry for your enormous loss.

alibobins Sun 08-Jul-12 18:43:51

sad

JennyPiccolo Sun 08-Jul-12 18:46:13

It's just too sad. I hope your darling girl is at peace. X

Lucewheel Sun 08-Jul-12 18:47:05

So very sorry expat x

GluedToTheVideoMonitor Sun 08-Jul-12 18:51:19

So sorry for your loss Expat

Expat, we have never 'met' on MN, as I rarely venture beyond these pages. Your daughter Aillidh has touched me so. I am so, so sad that you now find yourself here. It is simply not right.

However, I will say that there are many names here which I recognise, offering you love and support, just as they have done for me. These people have given me understanding and new perspectives, and a place where I can write, knowing I will only find kindness. Overwhelming kindness. They will do the same for you, I promise. They care, and they cry, yet know that they cannot take away your pain of losing Aillidh. To me, this is the power of MN.

Following these wonderful people, I'd like to share my own meagre morsel of love, given to me when my beautiful Mia died... One breath at a time. Give yourself time. Not to get over this loss because you will always grieve, but to somehow weave her beauty, her love, your love and your terrible loss into a fabric that can be worn as a shawl of love.

eandh Sun 08-Jul-12 18:55:10

So very very sorry, I followed her brave brave fight against this cruel illness on fbook and wished and hoped for her every day. Thinking of you and your family at this time xxxxxx

EugenesAxe Sun 08-Jul-12 18:55:41

I'm really sorry; I never know what to say but I am really sorry.

lagartija Sun 08-Jul-12 18:56:26

That is beautiful MiaAlexandrasmummy

Arion Sun 08-Jul-12 19:01:52

So sorry for your loss.

edam Sun 08-Jul-12 19:01:58

Oh expat, I am so desperately sorry. I wish I could say something that would help. I don't have the right words - any words seem inadequate in the face of such tragedy. But this poem summed up a little of how I felt when my lovely, lovely Auntie Lottie died - you've probably heard it before and you may be sick of poetry but just in case it provides a morsel of comfort or fellow feeling...

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West.
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever; I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

WasWats Sun 08-Jul-12 19:04:13

Much much love to you all, we can not believe this has happened.

ilovesprouts Sun 08-Jul-12 19:04:25

i too have followed on fb/mn so very sorry from one mother to another xx

coppertop Sun 08-Jul-12 19:04:39

I'm so sorry, Expat. xx

Expat xxxxxxxxxxxx

expat, there are no words. My heart is wringing for you. I wish you and your family peace and ease in the coming months xxxx

AmINearlyThereYet Sun 08-Jul-12 19:15:54

Expat I am so, so sorry. Of course you can't believe she is gone. Many, many people around the world who have never even met her can't believe she has gone. There are no words which can begin to express the enormity of your loss.

Here is a prayer which my family have found helpful at times of great trouble. I hope that some day it might bring you some comfort, although I imagine it will be a while before the second section feels appropriate:

God of our life, help us in the days when the burdens we carry chafe our shoulders and weigh us down;
When the road seems dreary and endless and the skies grey and threatening;
When our lives have no music in them, our hearts are lonely and our souls have lost their courage.

Flood the path with light, we beseech thee;
Turn our eyes to where the skies are full of promise;
Tune our hearts to brave music;
Bind us in companionship with the heroes and saints of every age;
And so quicken our spirits that we may be able to encourage the souls who journey with us on the road of life, to thy honour and glory.

Thinking of you. x

PussinJimmyChoos Sun 08-Jul-12 19:16:14

So very very sorry Expat.

If there is anything us mnet lot can do, just say. Meanwhile we are all here for you, to hold your hand as you walk this path.

With all my love and warmest hugs,

Puss
Xxxx

icepole Sun 08-Jul-12 19:19:46

I have been touched by your daughter's life, I am so sorry for your loss. You have been in my thoughts and will continue to be so.

outtolunchagain Sun 08-Jul-12 19:22:14

I too have been thinking of the Here I am Lord hymn ,we sang it on Friday at my son's end if terms service and I thought of Aillidh ,especially the phrase "I can hear you calling in the night".It is a beautiful hymn and has haunted me all weekend.

LadyThompson Sun 08-Jul-12 19:23:49

I am so sorry to hear of your appalling loss.

wolvesdidit Sun 08-Jul-12 19:23:56

My love and best wishes are with you all. xxxxx I'm so sorry.

NotWilliamBoyd Sun 08-Jul-12 19:28:25

So, so sorry, Expat and family.

Aillidh lived for 9 short, precious years but she will live on in many hearts.

Gauchita Sun 08-Jul-12 19:30:12

Oh expat sad
Aillidh has been in our thoughts and prayers especially in the past few weeks. She was an incredible little girl, a fighter and someone who touched so many people and so many hearts. I registered with AN because of her.

My heart aches for you thinking about what you're going through right now sad

Sending you strength and thinking of you all x

PatTheHammer Sun 08-Jul-12 19:32:56

So very sorry Expat for the loss of your beautiful and brave Aillidh xx

She has been an inspiration to many and has changed the thoughts and actions of many on MN and their friends and families. I feel sure that her life will have a great impact on others for a long time to come.

So sorry to hear this terrible news. Thinking of expat and all Aillidh's family and friends x

God bless you and your family Expat. Aillidh was an inspiration x

schobe Sun 08-Jul-12 19:39:32

I'm so, so terribly sorry. I can do nothing but extend another mother's hand to you.

This week, we are starting an intensive programme to try to reach our son who has severe autism. I was faltering and wondering if I could do it, if I was really up to it. But Aillidh and you have helped me feel again the resolve, strength and determination to do what needs to be done as a mother. Sorry if this is not the right place to share that, but I want you to know how she has influenced people.

GinniferAndTonic Sun 08-Jul-12 19:39:48

I am so very sorry for your terrible loss.

debka Sun 08-Jul-12 19:54:12

Oh expat.

I'm so so sorry. She is with Jesus now.

We will light a candle to remember her tomorrow.

^May the Lord bless you and keep you.
May he make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you.
May he lift his countenance towards you and give you peace.^

FoxyRevenger Sun 08-Jul-12 20:12:38

Expat, I'm sorry that no words I can offer will ever be of any comfort.

I'm sorry that my tears are as nothing compared to what you've lost.

And I'm so, so sorry that your beautiful, wonderful daughter is gone from your life, for now.

BerryLellow Sun 08-Jul-12 20:13:30

So sorry expat, your love for Aillidh radiates from your posts. God bless your little one x

cybbo Sun 08-Jul-12 20:13:49

So sorry expat

expatinscotland Sun 08-Jul-12 20:19:40

I miss her so much.

ginhag Sun 08-Jul-12 20:19:45

I am so sorry. What a beautiful, brave girl. My heart goes out to you Expat xx

So, so sorry for your beautiful daughter. Sending you love and strength Expat.

So very sorry. Words seem pitifully inadequate.

xx

ginhag Sun 08-Jul-12 20:21:32

<holds Expat's hand>

I wish I could say something that would help. Your love has been shining out through all of this xx

scottishmummy Sun 08-Jul-12 20:22:07

so sorry.do take any help and support offered
it's so v wrong as a parent to bury your child
just breathe, and take it minute by minute

oh expat I am so very sorry. I have read your threads for your daughter and was praying for a miracle.

Thinking of your family.

SecretNutellaFix Sun 08-Jul-12 20:23:41

Of course you miss her.

XX

Popcornia Sun 08-Jul-12 20:23:58

I am so very sorry.

BoiledEggandToastSoldiers Sun 08-Jul-12 20:25:05

Beautiful poem expat, I cannot begin to imagine your loss.

Mia as always, beautifully written, and full of love.

MrsGilbertBlythe Sun 08-Jul-12 20:26:31

So very very sorry.
I lost my mum to AML last year.
I know that nothing compares to the loss of a child, but I will do all I can to fight this evil disease for the rest of my life, and when I am doing so I will think not only of my lovely mum, but also of your Ailidh and her beautiful smile.
I send you all my love and hope you find the strength to get through the times yet to come.
Your daughter will continue to shine brightly through you and her siblings.
Much much love. X x x

Birnamwood Sun 08-Jul-12 20:27:03

Oh Expat, my heart is breaking for you. I can offer no other words or sentiments as I can't find the right ones.

Thinking of you and sending you love, light and strength xx

blondieminx Sun 08-Jul-12 20:27:50

So very sorry xxxxxx

I've just seen this. Love and prayers for your family until you meet her again xxxx

Sleep well little one xxx

NoComet Sun 08-Jul-12 20:29:15

Expat I googled her picture, I shouldn't have done. She had deep auburn hair like my DD1. I just can't imagine your pain. So beautiful!

catinboots Sun 08-Jul-12 20:29:27

Oh Expat. sad

What a short life your Aillidh lived. But she touched so, so many hearts. She was a living miracle.

You were blessed, so blessed to have her in your life. But she was blessed tenfold to have a mamma like you and a family like yours.

So many children live very long lives without knowing an ounce of the love that you gave Aillidh.

May she rest in peace and may you live in peace xxx

everlong Sun 08-Jul-12 20:29:36

To lose your child is the worst pain and I wish I could make it all just right for you all. I am so so sorry.

Sleep peacefully darling Aillidh and soar with the angels.

sad

LeeCoakley Sun 08-Jul-12 20:29:41

So sorry expat. x

storytopper Sun 08-Jul-12 20:31:43

So sorry for your loss. Such a beautiful sunny child - it is so unfair. Hoping that happy memories of Aillidh when she was well will eventually bring you some comfort.

FayKnights Sun 08-Jul-12 20:31:48

Expat, there are no words, so terribly sorry for you and your family, thinking of you all. Xxx

MamaMaiasaura Sun 08-Jul-12 20:32:32

I was thinking of you expat, I can't imagine how wrong it must feel to not have her with you. I just wanted you to know how much we are thinking and feeling for you. No words are adequate and life is so unfair and cruel at times. She knew love and happiness in her short life and that her life was full of love and tenderness xxxxx

bumpybecky Sun 08-Jul-12 20:33:09

I'm so very, very sorry that she's gone. I will be thinking of you, Mr Expat and your children in the coming days and week. So many of us were praying with you for a miracle - Aillidh will not be forgotten.

Expat you have been so incredibly brave. Your courage and strength have been inspiring.

I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of Aillidh. My deepest sympathy to you and your family. Your darling girl is now at peace. Small comfort I know. Life is so terribly cruel and I just wish I could do more.

Huge love to you all. X

MyCatIsAStupidBastard Sun 08-Jul-12 20:34:52

I am so sorry to hear this news.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

sassytheFIRST Sun 08-Jul-12 20:36:11

Oh sweetheart, of course you miss her. X

wantingmore Sun 08-Jul-12 20:36:28

I am so, so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your family.xx

KirstyJC Sun 08-Jul-12 20:36:35

Oh Expat, I am so so sorry. xx

VivClicquot Sun 08-Jul-12 20:36:44

I'm so very very sorry. You should be proud of your beautiful strong girl and of how many lives she's touched - and hopefully how many lives she might save from people signing up to be bone marrow donors because of her. I wish you and your family so much love, light and strength over the coming days xx

TheOldestCat Sun 08-Jul-12 20:38:29

No-one should have to endure the death of their child; it is so very wrong and so unutterably dreadful.

So sorry, expat. You - and all dear Aillidh's family and friends - are in the thoughts of so many of us.

Oh God Expat, I'm so, so sorry. There's nothing we can say that will ease your pain but I hope that in time, the legacy that Aillidh has left behind will bring you some comfort, the amount of hearts she has touched is staggering.

Sending much love to you and your family.

scummymummy Sun 08-Jul-12 20:39:09

Oh expat, of course you must miss her terribly. You are going through something that nobody should have to face and it must be such an awful shock right now. I am utterly sure that Aillidh was a lovely little girl and she was your very own lovely little girl. What a terrible loss for you and her daddy and your other wonderful children. Please keep posting if it helps and let us know if there is anything we can do for you.

D0G Sun 08-Jul-12 20:39:22

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I keep trying to write things and then deleting it because it all seems so feeble. What I'm trying to say Expat is that our hearts are so full of sorrow for you. If there was anything we could do, you know we would but nothing on earth can put this right and that's a hard and bitter thing to know. I know Aillidh is home safe with the Lord and I know you will see her again but what about now? All I can offer is this - that we will never forget Aillidh. She will always be part of our mumsnet family. There will always be an ear to listen to you. There will always be a heart here to offer you loving support. There will always be a smile at your happy stories and tears to shed over the sad memories. We can't carry this for you but we can try and carry you. There's a lot of hands and hearts here and we lifted them up to God for Aillidh in prayer and we're going to do the same for you. You are our sister and we stood with you, from a distance, over the last few weeks and we will stand firm with you now.

BellaVita Sun 08-Jul-12 20:42:04

Oh darling girl sad x

D0G Sun 08-Jul-12 20:42:08

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IwishIwasmoreorganised Sun 08-Jul-12 20:42:16

Expat, I'm so dreadfully sorry that you've had to start this thread.

Aillidh fought her illness with such bravery and courage, and I am in no doubt that she was able to do that due to the love and support that she was surrounded by throughout.

She has touched the hearts of so many around the world, and I hope that this thread shows you how loved you all are by so many.

Xxxxxxx

PrincessOfChina Sun 08-Jul-12 20:44:27

So sorry for your loss Expat. Your strength is an inspiration, there's no wonder your lovely daughter was able to fight so hard.

I attended a charity event today for a friend who is very ill with bone cancer. There's a chance he won't survive, just like Aillidh, but the sense of community and action they inspire will be their legacy. That's something to look back on with pride in time.

seb1 Sun 08-Jul-12 20:45:01

I am so very sorry, Expat To where you are

AmINearlyThereYet Sun 08-Jul-12 20:45:28

Northern, what a beautiful post, as always. You put into words what I'm sure so many of us are trying to say.

mrssmooth Sun 08-Jul-12 20:46:10

Beautiful post Northern. You say it far better than I am able to.

We are all here for you Expat. You and your lovely family are always in my thoughts. Wishing you the strength to get through the coming days, weeks and months.

WheresMyCow Sun 08-Jul-12 20:49:03

(((((hugs expat)))))

So sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. There are no more words xx

Lilyloo Sun 08-Jul-12 20:49:26

Life sometimes shocks me in how cruel how it can be , have a lovely picnic Allidih , much love to all your family Expat xx

everlong Sun 08-Jul-12 20:49:52

Oh northern such a wonderful, warm and truthful post.

It's hard to know just what to say,
When one so young is taken away.
Far too soon she had to part,
Her memory forever engraved in our heart.

We only knew her for a short while,
But the life she led made us smile.
She was so beautiful and oh so rare,
Life as they say just isn't fair.

Those gone before her will watch her with care,
Till the day comes when we'll all join her there.

Know Aillidh is watching from heaven above,
And with each ray of sunshine, she's sending her love.

I'm so very very sorry sad. I will continue to pray for you x
(another one who has joined AN because of Aillidh)