I am sorry if by posting this here I have offended anyone...I didnt know where else to post or get help.
I have a chronic health condition which can make life pretty difficult at times but we wanted another baby (my dh and I have a 3.5 year old ds) and I became pregnant in feb and was over the moon. I was grinning non-stop for 2 days! I started thinking of names, looking at prams etc...all the silly things you do.
Then my illness asserted itself and I became very ill very quickly. I was to all intents and purposes bedridden. It was an awful time...my dh was working full time, looking after a sick wife and trying to take care of a demanding toddler. My son was getting very distressed too and I would hear him downstaris crying for me but I wasnt strong enough to get down the stairs. After a while of this we decided I should have a termination. This happened in my first pregnancy too 6 years ago and, like then, it seemed the sensible thing to do. I refused sedation for the proceedure as I felt I should feel the pain. There was a nice nurse who held my hand. At first I felt relieved that I was feeling better and able to function again. But 2 weeks on and I am so very sad and feel so guilty I do not think I will ever get over it. The baby was so very wanted and I feel like such a failure. All I want is to be a good wife and mother and I cant because my stupid body lets me down. I havent even cried yet.....I suppose I dont feel like I have the right to grieve. I am not sleeping and am being horrid to my poor dh who must think he is married to a madwoman. Please tell me what to do.
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I had a termination 2 weeks ago & feel such sadness and guilt. How can I ever get over this?
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becaroo · 09/04/2007 10:53
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