My Mum died a horrific death a few weeks ago and then my long term partner split up with me...
Everyday seems like a month, I don't eat , I don't sleep and I just don't want to be here anymore but I have to be for my two kids...one of them has long term health and behavioural issues. He is looking after me at minute which isn't fair.
My dtr gave me sleeping tablets short term ( all gone now) and is trying various other tablets with me and I start counselling next week but I don't know what to do. Everything is dark and bleak and I hate it..I don't want to be here anymore...I want it to stop..
I have so much guilt about my Mums suffering...it took her nearly a month to die after dnr was discussed...she was very aware for a lot of that time what was happening to her and she asked me to finish it for her daily...
I need to be here but I don't want to be..everyday I just struggle to get through an hour at a time,keeping house tidy, feeding kids- lots of takeaways....
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Potentialmadcatlady · 05/06/2016 16:18
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