My DM has been in hospital with pneumonia and various infections associated with end-stage cancer for a month. There is nothing more to be done apart from symptom control, so a move to the hospice is being planned.
We have always been close, but to my great regret, most of my time in recent years has been spent trying to keep on top of teaching full time and looking after my two young DCs. This last month, however, I was able to be with her 24/7 in a side room and since she moved to a hospital nearer home I've been with her for most of every day. If she gets to the hospice I won't leave her at all.
While I feel like I'm going to look back knowing that I've done right be her at the end, I'm really worried that in my memory she will be frail, helpless and dying. While it's important to me that her death is part of her whole, I don't want to lose sight of the vigorous, hardworking, creative, fit and inspirational woman she used to be. She's just 60 and it already feels as if she's been robbed of a third of her life; her retirement. I don't want her to be robbed of her identity too.
How have you kept the memories of the 'real' person you lost fresh? Unfortunately both she and I are camera shy so I have very few photos and no videos.
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If you spent a lot of time with someone you loved while they were dying, have you been able to remember them as they were before?
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JenniferYellowHat1980 · 28/01/2016 21:00
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