hi, just read a thread about baby Bertie who was taken just 6 hours after his birth and it has bought back all sorts of sad feelings about my dd stillborn at just 17 weeks.
It is coming up to 4 years on 15 December and although most of the time I think about my baby and smile, tonight I can't stop crying.
The blood tests at 16 weeks showed my baby had spina bifida and so I decided to terminate as I already had a young baby and didn't feel able to cope with a disabled child.
I'm not sure whether this makes it better or worse to be honest. I still feel like a lost a daughter.
Sorry to waffle on but I think it does help to get it all out - I am not with my husband at the moment and this whole subject is not something we ever talk about - he is fighting his own demons with depression as a result of alcohol and drug abuse so not sure its a good idea to burden him with my thoughts about this.
I wish I could hold her and see her now.
People say time is a healer but I'm sure I am more upset this year than I have been in past years.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Find bereavement help and support from other Mumsnetters.
Bereavement
Just need to get this out
7 replies
mumtogusnalbie · 29/11/2006 20:29
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.