My brother died on 24th April. He had been unwell for a while but wasn't expected to pass away at all. He was 54. A divorcee, he lived alone and was found dead in his home on 26th April..he'd been dead for 2 days. The thought that he died alone is torturing me..but I can't say it to anybody because I know we're all thinking the same thing and once you say something aloud it becomes "true", doesn't it. Its the "did he feel pain, did he know he was dying? why did it have to happen that way?" thats making my head hurt. Also that the autopsy is inconclusive. He is being cremated on Friday. My darling big brother has gone, the tough guy who looked out for us all. I just wanted to get it out of my brain I suppose. I feel as if I can't be myself.. 1st day back at work yesterday I felt completely detached from everybody although I hid it well, I think. No-one at work knows, I didn't fancy telling anyone. Thats it, really.
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RudyMentary ·
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