Waking up screaming // Miscarriage

[DiamondTrees1]

Hello all,

Almost 2 months ago I had a miscarriage and I was devastated. Since then partner has blamed me and he left. I feel so alone.
I don't know if it's normal to be grieving for this long, I think all I do is cry. I hold it together when I'm at work and then as soon as I'm on my own the tears come falling out.
I've been having nightmares about it and lately have been waking up at early hours of the morning screaming and in a crying fit.

I was in the process of moving out to be with partner but am currently living with 2 house mates. They have been very supportive but I don't know how much more they can handle. Several times I have been literally cradled by my male house mate until I'm calm or have fallen asleep, if the roles were reversed I wouldn't mind at all but I'm starting to feel like a burden.

I feel like I'm not ready to let go of my baby yet because it would have been so loved but the pain is physically hurting me and emotionally draining me and my house mates.

Has anyone had counselling on this matter before, does it help?

Thank you so much x

[Gigi789]

Didn't want to read and run but having no adequate words I'm suggesting u post on miscarriage thread www.mumsnet.com/Talk/miscarriage
I'm so sorry for ur loss