I'm 21 and 33 weeks pregnant
12 weeks ago my grandma (my dad's mum not my mums mum) unexpectedly passed away after a large bang to the head, this happened on the Monday evening. I sat with her for 6 hours holding her hand while she slowly slipped away . It was exactly a week after my 21st birthday and 4 days before my graduation.
The next day my mum committed suicide. My best friend. My rock throughout this pregnancy. I feel empty
I have spent the last 12 weeks throwing myself into anything and everything. Work is hectic , supporting my father who lost his mum and his wife within 24 hours, preparing for a baby, I organised the funerals and generally haven't stopped for 12 weeks.
Today I broke down in tears. I finally feel like I'm ready for people to look after me, I'm finally ready to talk about it and to not move from under the duvet for a few days. I miss her so much. Everyday she's missing more and more and my grandma too.
I'm worried people expect me to be strong now.. But I really don't want to be anymore
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Firstpregnancy2014 · 05/10/2014 21:39
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