On Monday an old boyfriend of mine sadly died. He was 10 years older than me but still very young, he had no wife or children.
We dated for 2 years around 12 years ago. We were really close, practically lived together. Holidayed etc, the usual stuff. We split as I think he was playing away so it wasn't amicable as such but not terribly acrimonious either, it had probably run it's course and he wasn't the marrying/children type and I was getting to that age and I wanted those things.
We didn't stay in touch although had mutual friends so id hear his name over the years. I have many fond memories of him.
His death was not entirely unexpected as he had always had some Health issues but I still feel very shocked.
I know I'm rambling as I feel the need to get this out somewhere. I am irrationally upset by this, it seems so silly as I haven't seen him for 10 years but I keep bursting into tears. I feel so sad and very strange about it all.
I'm in a relationship now, I have children, I'm divorced and planning to marry dp so have a full life. I feel as if I'm being disrespectful to my dp by feeling this bad about it. Is the way I'm feeling normal? I have only really lost grandparents and an uncle before, as well as two friends when I was very young (16).
So sorry to anyone on this board who is grieving :-(
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Fuzzygel · 09/04/2014 17:00
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