my baby girl died.

(176 Posts)
SupermansBigRedBottleOfSpirits Fri 15-Nov-13 16:54:48

My beautiful amazing baby dd2, Summer, died 2 weeks ago yesterday. Her heart was unable to pump blood properly. We never knew until it was too late. She was 11 weeks and 6 days old. I spent most of that day shopping, then at a Halloween party with the other dc. I missed most of my sum sums last day. Dp had to see to her himself, our poor baby not breathing, already gone, in her sleep.

I miss her. And it hurts. Ds turned 2 two days after she passed. If it wasn't for him and dd1 I'd be a screaming wreck in a padded cell. I'm sick of being strong now. I I want my sweet precious baby back.

Darling, ((((hugs)))) Summer, what a beautiful name. I`m so so sorry xx

lougle Fri 15-Nov-13 16:58:50

I'm so sorry. There is nothing that will make it better. I hope you have a good network of support to get you through the next weeks and months.

TeaAndANatter Fri 15-Nov-13 16:59:59

I'm so very, very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you right now. I have no personal experience of the loss of a child once it's born (just mc), but didn't want to read and run.

It read like you blame yourself for not being with her that day as much, or for not being the one to find her. There was nothing that you could have done that would have changed this. You didn't know, and you couldn't have changed this even if you had been there. I'm so sorry that it feels like you missed her last day.

Sending all love possible, and will hold you and your family in my thoughts. xx

MayTheOddsBeEverInYourFavour Fri 15-Nov-13 17:02:05

I'm so so sorry for your loss

Rest peacefully beautiful baby Summer xxx

kilmuir Fri 15-Nov-13 17:02:10

So sorry, x

SupermansBigRedBottleOfSpirits Fri 15-Nov-13 17:03:14

Thank you both, I wasn't expecting replies I just needed to write it down. I have more support than I ever knew, friends and family have been amazing, her funeral service and wake were amazing, the sun was out and nobody argued. <between mine and dp's families that was a miracle>

LittleTulip Fri 15-Nov-13 17:03:42

I am so sorry for your loss.

that is so sad. I am very sorry for you.

Thatsnotmychicken Fri 15-Nov-13 17:05:54

Am so sorry please take care

SupermansBigRedBottleOfSpirits Fri 15-Nov-13 17:06:22

I do blame myself, stupidly I know but every day I saw to her, took her out etc and that one day I took the older 2 and not her. Dp was spending time with her her because he usually seen to ds. We thought we were being unfair and now I just want that day back, to sit in the house with her and hold her all day long.

Straitjacket Fri 15-Nov-13 17:07:14

I am so very sorry for your loss. I know nothing will make it better, but please don't blame yourself as you wasn't to know.

Keeping you and your family in my thoughts. Remember that there is always someone here available to talk xx

Ledkr Fri 15-Nov-13 17:07:21

I am sorry too. You will get lots of support here.
Can't imagine how you feel.
Don't need to be too strong all the time, allow yourself the time you need.
Would it help to tell us all about her?

LovePotatoes Fri 15-Nov-13 17:09:49

I am so sorry for your loss. Words will never be able to overcome such a precious and beautiful loss....i just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts x

nearlyreadytopop Fri 15-Nov-13 17:16:16

I am so sorry for your loss.thanks

CrockedPot Fri 15-Nov-13 17:17:33

So, so sorry, nothing else I can say xxx

SupermansBigRedBottleOfSpirits Fri 15-Nov-13 17:17:38

She was incredible. Redish blonde hair. Big boogly blue eyed. Elf ears. Beautiful peachy skin and tound cheeks, she'd have been an smazing wee model smile.Always poking her tongue out. She had started paying attention to when I'd left the room, I'd peekaboo behind the door at her she loved it. She copied dp's silly faces when we put her to bed. She loved her seahorse which is/was ds' s. She always needed something soft in her hand - muslin, bib, blanket taggy toy. She was cutting her bottom left tooth, I only noticed that morning. I bought her a teething toothbrush that afternoon. She used to cuddle in my arms and watch everyone, I sang songs with summer in them to her. We played mungo Jerry at the funeral.

noddyholder Fri 15-Nov-13 17:19:59

I am so sorry for your loss x

ajandjjmum Fri 15-Nov-13 17:21:39

So sorry for the loss of Summer - she sounds like a real little character.

Weegiemum Fri 15-Nov-13 17:22:06

I'm so sorry to hear about your lovely Summer xxx

decaffwithcream Fri 15-Nov-13 17:22:29

She sounds beautiful. Beautiful name. So sorry for your loss.

BoreOfWhabylon Fri 15-Nov-13 17:23:43

I am so very sorry for your loss.

RIP little Summer.

Forever young.

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Viviennemary Fri 15-Nov-13 17:29:29

That is so sad. I am very sorry to hear this. flowers

I'm so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful name. x x

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