In appreciation of mothers - the things I never said

[Wuldric]

Dear Mum

I am very sorry now, for the things I never said or did, and I wish I had been a better and more appreciative daughter. So I thought I would list out the ways in which I appreciate you, and was too ungracious to express at the time.

1. I appreciate the fact that you took care of the big things - stuff like love and books and people - not little things like stuff and materialism.
   

1. I appreciate the fact that you allowed me my independence and catered for my willful streak and never forbade, but always guided.
   

1. I appreciate your incredible bravery. The fact that you travelled the world and as a white girl married someone black when that was unthinkable. You and your kind made this the tolerant and pluralistic society that it is now.
   

1. I appreciate your erudition.
   

1. I appreciate your love and kindness to my children. Which was endless and boundless and they love you so very much.
   

There are very many more things. But as I cuddle my sobbing teenage daughter to sleep, I think of you. We are your legacy. We'll try to do you proud.

Thank you for everything. Safe journey.

[TheYoniWayIsUp]

[charitymum]

Lovely. Sorry for your loss but thank you for sharing. She sounds lovely.

[Wuldric]

Thank you

[stillbusy84]

Beautiful. My mum was an amazing person too and i miss her so much. Especially since she didn't get a chance to meet her latest grandchild.

[KellyGarcia]

This is one of the things I also regret. I totally took my lovely Mum for granted and feel so bad for the years I thought she was sooooooo embarrassing (typical teenager).

She died weeks before I found out I was pregnant. DS has just started school now and it was bittersweet as it just brought back all the memories of me starting school and I was thinking how my Mum probably cried when she got home from dropping me off on my first day. 3 time I picked up the phone and started to dial her number to tell her all about DS going into school for the first time and I just couldn't stop crying when I was already quite tearful at my baby growing up so quickly.

It is at times likes these milestone moments that I keep realising the things my Mum must have gone through in her life and I can't ask her about them now. I want to ask her how she felt and how she coped. I want to apologise for being such a horrible child at times and how much I loved her and still do. I just wish I could pick up the phone and talk to her. Everything feels so awful again with each milestone.

She went through so much in her life that I would love to know about from her rather than having to now ask relatives about everything. I am sure she would have a different perspective on things and would love to be here with me and her Grandsons. She was so maternal and I never realised it until now.

Thanks for this thread. I am missing her so much today.

[FluffyDucky]

Wuldric, often mum's are good at knowing these things. It sounds like you love her very much and I'm sure she would have known this.
Its 2 years this month since my mum suddenly died, I still think about her a lot. It doesn't necessarily get easier in some ways, you sort of learn to live without them. Just make sure you are not too strong for other people's sake.
xxx

[NoComet]

That beautiful,

[mummylin2495]

Sorry for your loss. for any of you that are struggling we do have a thread in bereavement, " support for anyone who has lost a parent " please join us if you feel it would help you in anyway