Sorry to hear that you need to take a break Lavandes, wishing you gentle days and weeks.
I am not sure if I am allowed to do this so apologies if not. I will understand if the link is removed. I nominated our hospital chaplain as she has been truly amazing since Ava died for an award. She has been shortlisted and the event is the day before Ava's 4th birthday next week. If anyone would be kind enough to vote that would be amazing. It's free and no need to register. Link is here
white, how wonderful! I'm really happy for you. The name thing is normal and I mean that as in I call ds1 by ds2's name and ds2 by ds3's name etc. I know all my boys are living but I don't think it would be any different if I had lost one, if you know what I mean. And it's natural that you would think of ds1. Of course you do xxxx