My Mum would have been 50 on July 18th. But she died when I was 4 and my sister was 2 (ovarian cancer) and I hardly remember her. Odd scenes of course like paddling in a stream with her and her washing my hair. My sister doesn't remember Mum at all. It must have been really hard for Dad in the early years even with a house keeper to help him. She did lots for us both, far more than she was ever paid for, but it's not the same as having a proper Mum around. Dad will remember why the 18th is special but I wonder who else will?
It's rubbish isn't it? My mum died a few weeks before my 6th birthday, of an aneurysm (no signs of anything before it happened, just totally out of the blue) and now I'm 37. My aunt (her sister) died 5 years ago, who was the last real connection to her childhood apart from the stories she told my dad. I have a very few memories, most of which are based around family holidays that we have photographs of.
I would like to say more but am at work, this is just to say I feel for you.