today, one year ago, my waters broke. :( this is yet another day and another first anniversary marked.
when I think back I should have listened to my instincts and stood my ground - I knew there was something up but I blindly allowed them to tell me that I had wet myself (something that apparently happens a lot with twin mums during pregnancy) and I acted sheepish and ashamed and the midwives thought it was funny to. I wish id asked for another more senior midwife (I dont mean this to sound snooty or in anyway how it sounds probably) as I was having high risk twins and id just had surgery 3 days before to save them - when i told the midwives that id had laser ablation surgery and also when they saw the wound they looked at each other like "wtf" I should have read the signs a bit better - I should have just done something so small and they could've still be here today. a friend of mine who i was pregnant alongside with told me today that her little girl has just started walking! and so I have begun to wander what they would be up to were they still here.
this sucks this suck this sucks!!! I think that the anniversary has hit me harder than it actually happening and that doesn't make sense to me at all xx im sorry if this isn't very coherent but I have been so very cross today that this morning I actually thought about sending a curt letter to my maternity hospital and then I realised that its a year later so what's the point eh?
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KateRaeganandMichael · 25/05/2013 23:47
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