Please don't feel guilty. You were ill and having to concentrate on your little one. You may not have been able to visit your grandma much in recent months, but it sounds as if you've had a good relationship your whole life. That's what counts. Your grandma knew you loved her.
Hope you are feeling a wee bit less sad by the time you read this. Give your baby a cuddle and take care of yourself.
It was my grandmas funeral today. I feel so sad, she was a womderful, strong person. I thought she'd live forever. I gave birth in the autumn. Just at the same time she went into hospital. It was a difficult birth and I was poorly afterwards. I had.a blood transfusion etc.. I was un able to visit her and I was overwhelmed.with being a mum. I also had pnd.
Even when I was better and she was out of hospital I didn't visit her much. I was so busy.and it was something else to do.
I miss her but she had faded into the background. I feel guilty. I saw her in hospital before she died and we had a lovely chat, like old timez.