As we go through this painful journey together we share, cry, scream and shout but we never judge, we know that there is always someone to listen. We always remember our precious children who will never be forgotten and will live on forever in our hearts.
I'm struggling just now, it will be 6 months on Sunday since Dexter died. I knew it would be bad, but for the last two days I've barely made it off the sofa apart from picking boys up from school, and haven't eaten and just been constantly crying. I want my boy here in my arms....
I have been trying to cope , but all my dates are coming up. Easter Monday was the last day I saw Richard and that is coming up. It has been 3 years but sometimes it still feels like yesterday. It is still so difficult . I am a bit of a mess at the moment x
myfive and lavandes, those dates........ They throw you, don't they? I remember Easter being a tough time when my Nana died, lavandes, she was very religious ( but nice religious, if you know what I mean, she was so kind, not like those people who go to Church all the time but aren't actually nice people) and my uncle joked to her that she would "rise up like Jesus" on Easter Sunday. He meant that she'd get up out of her bed. She actually died though and I know for her that it was "rising up". But it made Easter a sad time for me for a long time. And she was my Nana, of course it was natural and proper that she should die before me, so Easter must really rip your heart out, lavandes.
myfive, I know you miss your boy. <<<<HUGS>>>> And you will have a baby to hold before too long, not Dexter, but a lovely new little man. I know people who have not lost a child will think that it makes it all better. We know here that it will make it a bit better, maybe even a lot better. But not all better. And I know you are probably going to be very worried about this new baby but I'm sure he will be perfectly fine, and the most trouble you will ever have with him will be in eighteen years when you are waiting up, wondering where he is at 3am!
Hi everyone, dds been awful this week. After out of hours sun, ended up at gp Mon am, as she was getting worse they still said virus. She's been really poorly all week. The fri she was crying saying her ear hurt, so took her again, third time in six days, and she's not a viscous ear infection. Now on anti biotics Pissed off they didn't give them earlier. She's been off school all week
I feel dreadful sore throat so painful, can't take much because of the bean, I'm on progesterone, and I've been crying everynight when dds in bed Feel so low and rough
It was the anniversary of ds funeral one friend remembered.
Myfive huge hug
Shabs how's your dad getting on being back in the house
Mum & Dad have district nurses and Macmillan going in every day. He seems to be doing OK but he always puts on 'his face' for me. Mum is much more settled. He must be so scared. The doctor told him he could have 5 minutes left or 5 years - he has no idea when the end will come He is still having his whisky - and I dont blame him. If I was in his position I would be permenantly drunk. xx
Morning! How's everyone? White, are you feeling less sad this morning? Shabba, how are you and your parents? It's sunny here (a rarity!) but it is still far too cold. Yet I think Summer time starts on Sunday.(?!?) And who has nice Easter plans?
morning everyone, well been in tears every single day atm, i think it might be due to the progesterone i'm on, i think i only need to have it for another 3 weeks, i have a hospital appointment next week, so i will ask my consultant, when i can come off it
plus with dd being poorly, and now me and dh are feeling rough, guess i'm just v run down atm.
we are planning on going to the seaside for a couple of days tomorrow, its booked and paid for, and non refundable, and like dh says, might as well feel rough somewhere else as rough at home