As we go through this painful journey together we share, cry, scream and shout but we never judge, we know that there is always someone to listen. We always remember our precious children who will never be forgotten and will live on forever in our hearts.
I have an apology to make to all of you. Im sorry for being so bloody depressing last night. At first, I thought to myself, Im not going to put it on this thread or the multiple births thread. Then I did!!! Thank you all for your kind words and support. Today is another day....onwards and upwards and all that crap.
Oh dont worry - have been with our thread from the first message on the first day and wont go anywhere. I may flounce out from time to time but I always come back!!! I just felt a bit odd about spreading my sadness about last night.
Hello again, not been on here in a while but thought I'd poke my head in. I've taken down my profile for the time being just in case there are people from irl nosing, I feel more comfortable that way for now. I have some of you on fb and have been talking on there but I've missed it here!
Hello all, I saw this on the USA Compassionate Friends site today, and it struck a chord. In response to those people who tell us that we should stop crying about our beautiful children, and as we worry about the health of all those we love :-
Tears have a wisdom all of their own. They come when a person has relaxed enough to let go and to work through the sorrow. They are the natural bleeding of an emotional wound, carrying the poison out of the system.
Especially for shabba, cafe, my five and white's little DD... but well, it's for everyone here really.
I think this hurt is the price we pay for loving our children so much. I think that if it didn't hurt so much we wouldn't be 'normal' - whatever the hell normal is. Dont think I have been 'normal' for a long time
I thank God every day for the gift of motherhood, but the love it brings hurts my heart beyond words on days like today. I promised myself that the loss of DS3 would not define us as a family, especially with DS2's health issues, but today I feel so isolated, so sad again; so different I will light a candle for all our angel children and remember the joy. All will be well. Love to all xx