hi there,not so sure how to start this one as i told myself that i wouldn't come back onto mn,but as it happens here i am!!!!(doh!).....
well i was on here alot last year as i'd lost my first born son in may 2005.He was stillborn at 33weeks due to a rare liver/heart malformation.I'd then gone on to get pregnant again in the august(this was prob not the best idea,but for anyone who can empathise:you just want to be pregnant and have a baby in your arms..)..I then miscarried as the baby had stopped growing at 5 weeks...absolutly heartbreaking!!:(
Well after that i became very depressed,was put on tablets and couldn't return to work as a nursery nurse in a baby unit as it was too much for me.....so up until just recently i've been at home,getting better..mentally and physically,and as i'm in a new job just trying to get on with life....
Around the time i miscarried a woman i knew from the pub also found out she was pregnant,and due the week after i would have been due(really did my head in!!)...shes recently had the baby and bought it in the pub today to show everyone...i couldn't bring myself to even look at her!!let alone at the gorgeous bundle i could imagine she had in the pram!!!!!...it prob made me look like a real bitch!!...i'm really not honest!!....has anyone else had a similar situation!!??.........
Anyway its bought back lots of memories and made me quite emotional(having dreaded af at the mo doesn't help either!!)...plus the anniversary of my baby boys stillbirth is coming up on the 14th of may,and it seems like such a hurdle coming up that i won't be able to get over!!!....
I just wondered if anyone who i spoke to last year is around?I was writing then as shelley24,and then before i stopped coming on here had this nickname......
I'm hoping to settle into this new job and start having abit of a life again!!(have not worked for a year!!)...and then DH and i have decided to start ttc in august.....
please feel free to share your stories on here with me and we can support each other,or just to remember your little angels......i really hope some old familiars are still out there as i'd so love to hear from you!!!.....:):):):):)
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wannabump2006 · 23/04/2006 21:00
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