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Rhian101 · 31/01/2006 22:52

I suffered a miscarriage at 13 weeks 2 and a half years ago. After falling into a deep depression and throwing myself into trying for another one I found out that I had fertility problems and might never conceive. I gave up on ever having more children (I already have a son): And then suddenly I fell pregnant last year. He is now 2 months old, and until he was born and I held him in my arms I was convinced I would never see him. My daughter would be 2 in February and I miss her more than ever. I just wanted to share the poem I wrote for her when she died, in memory of her and all the joy she brought me before she had to go.

My butterfly baby flew away;
Flew far away from me.
She fluttered with velvety gentleness
Too delicate to see.

My butterfly baby sings through clouds
With butterfly baby friends.
One day she may flutter back to me
So I'll wait for her 'til the end.

My butterfly baby didn't want to go
But for all that I clasped her tight
She slipped, fluttered from my fingers,
And disappeared into the night.

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Expectantmum · 31/01/2006 22:55

That is so beautiful [big hugs]

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Rhian101 · 01/02/2006 14:59

Thanks Expectantmum. you made me cry.

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olivo · 01/02/2006 17:50

That's a beautiful poem Rhian.
Really feel for you.x

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Cadbury · 01/02/2006 18:15

Thankyou for sharing that Rhian101, it's beautiful. Have filled up.

Hugs to you and your precious children both here and in heaven

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Whizzz · 01/02/2006 18:19

That's beautiful - eyes filled up here too

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Rhian101 · 01/02/2006 18:38

Thank you so much Olivo, Cadbury and Whizzz. It never stops hurting but after a while you get to remember those moments of happiness that your baby brought you too; the simple things.

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hermykne · 01/02/2006 18:40

rhian11 thats gorgeus as i am sure she is!

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swedishmum · 02/02/2006 00:39

Rhian101, how beautiful. I'm in tears. One of my twin babies died at 24 hours over 10 years ago now. I'm lucky enough to have 4 more gorgeous children but it still gets me sometimes.

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sparklymieow · 02/02/2006 00:42

May I add a loving memory here too.
4 years ago today my friend lost her 5 month baby boy to a heart condition.
And 7 years ago on the 28th feb. I lost our 2nd baby to a miscarriage at 8 weeks.
In loving memory of Daniel and my little one.

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izzybiz · 03/02/2006 09:38

that is a beautiful poem, my SIL amyjade, lost her 19 month old Dd 9 months ago to meningitis, she passed away in a childrens hospice.
they remember all their children with butterflies, because they are like the children,,
beautiful, fragile, and short lived.

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diddle · 03/02/2006 12:00

Rhian101 - that was beautiful, brought tears to my eyes. So sorry for your loss, your beloved baby is up there watching over you with my two butterfly babies. Don't worry she'll be fine x

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SleepyJess · 03/02/2006 12:11

Oh Rhian that's a lovely poem! It reminded me a bit of this one..

In a baby castle just beyond my eye
My baby plays with angel toys that
money cannot buy.

Who am l to wish him back into this
world of strife
no.. play on my baby
you have eternal life.

At night when all is silent
and sleep forsakes my eyes
I'll hear his tiny footsteps
come running to my side.

His little hands caress me,
so tenderly and sweet
I'll breathe a prayer and
close my eyes and
embrace him in my sleep.

Now l have a treasure that l relate
above all other,
I have known true glory
I am still his his mother

(Doris Stokes)

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Rhian101 · 03/02/2006 16:56

Thank you so much for all your kind thoughts and for sharing your own losses with me. My love and thoughts go out to everyone who has ever suffered loss. They live on in us xxx

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