Hello, have been a regular poster since my eldest daughter was born 4 years ago. Never expected to be starting a thread in bereavement.
I was 35 weeks pregnant last week when I stopped feeling regular movements. A frantic dash to the hospital ended with an emergency c section after a scan showed she was showing signs of a viral infection. They thought we gone in time but when they took her out she was much worse than they expected. She died after about 40mins. We spent 2 precious nights with her before having to leave her there and come home for our other daughter.
I am numb. I can't stop shaking. I hate myself everytime I close my eyes I see 4 red words on a white background 'you should have known'
I just want her back - she shouldn't have even been born yet
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My baby daughter died. I want her back
Whatevertheweather · 30/08/2011 11:22
Oh how absolutely awful, I can't offer any advice but I couldn't read and not reply 
I can't even begin to imagine how you're feeling.
You really couldn't have known though, you got to the hospital as soon as you could, you did your best for her.
Wish I knew what to say to help
I feel so sorry for you all. And yet, when you feel at your most alone, you are not and never will be.
There are are lots of people that you can talk to here is just one with a telephone counselling service.
You did your best for your daughter. No one could have done any thing more. Gentle hugs.
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I am so sorry for you and your family. As above, please, please don't blame yourself.
Wow thank you. She was called Erin she was just over 5lbs and was a much longed for daughter, sister, niece, granddaughter and cousin.
It was just such a shock and so sudden. Id only had a growth scan 10 days before which showed no problem. She was moving the day before normally. I just want to know what happened to her inside me. How could I not have known she was dying we are having a post mortem done.
How quickly your like can change
Erin is a beautiful name.
If only we could predict things like this happening then no one would have to suffer such a horrible loss
You did your best for her, no one could have known how poorly she was.
Like you say, the scan a few days before showed nothing worrying, the drs did the c-section not knowing how poorly she was... how could you have possibly known?
Come and talk here when you need to, the good thing about MN is that there is always someone around to listen 
Be kind to yourself ((hugs))
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