I need to express it this year, they killed 53 people on 7/7, not 52

(73 Posts)
HappyDoll Thu 07-Jul-11 12:56:51

I was 22 weeks pg that day. DS1 was 5 and had been born at 26 weeks. I knew I should have been taking it easy but DH was embroiled in a bitter battle for access to DSD and we had hired a top solicitor to help him. He needed to get the train into London to meet her and he needed my support.
I know now that I have an incompetent cervix and I should rest up from 20 weeks. At the time my instincts were telling me to rest.
We got the train to Liverpool Street and were stopped just outside as the first bomb went off. We were so lucky not to have been 10 minutes earlier and been on that tube. My phone was going mad with people checking I was OK.
We got off the train and got on a bus to Kings Cross. We tried to get on a tube and couldn't. So we got on another bus heading to Russell Square. The bus in front of us exploded. The bus driver got off and started screaming at everyone to get off. The was a major scrum. The phones had all gone down.
We got to the solicitors offices in Mayfair on foot. We had our appointment and then DH set about trying to hire a car. The price had shot up to £5k. We searched by phone for a taxi, no hope. We went outside to deserted streets with people crowding around televisions parked in shop doorways. It was surreal. We asked police for help they said there was nothing that could be done. We went to a hotel, they had no room but they had lines of taxis. DH offered a taxi driver £500 to drive us out of London, he said he was earning more sat in that queue - the hotels bought up all the black cabs for their own clients.
We got through to BIL who happened to be working in town that day but we had to walk to Camden to get to him as he couldn't get in.
The next day I was admitted to hospital. My cervix had begun to open, infection had got into my womb and DDs foot was visible through an internal exam. The stress, both physical and emotional and sent me into early labour.
I was in bed in the delivery suite for 2 weeks, getting stitched, unstiched, strapped down and pumped full of drugs. On 22nd July, at 23 weeks + 6 days, my daughter Freya was born. She was not 24 weeks gestation so no attempt was made to save her life.
I have never expressed how much I blame those fucking maniacs for the death of my daughter. What they did to those innocent people on the tubes and the bus was horrific. This is the year that I want it known that Freya's name should also be on that list of needless deaths for which they are responsible.

SuperiorCat Sun 07-Jul-13 20:43:23

Thinking of you and Freya x

MarthasHarbour Sun 07-Jul-13 20:46:30

Thinking of you and your beautiful Freya today.

Lots of love flowers xx

adagio Sun 07-Jul-13 20:51:04

Oh my
I am so, so sorry for your loss
RIP Freya xx

Thinking of you today. flowers I am so sorry.

SisterMatic Sun 07-Jul-13 20:59:46

Thinking of you today, and your beautiful Freya x

Norfolknway Sun 07-Jul-13 21:01:37

Poor you and your family xx

Sorry for your loss xx

StickyProblem Sun 07-Jul-13 21:01:54

So sorry for your loss. RIP Freya xx

YoungBritishPissArtist Sun 07-Jul-13 21:04:21

How awful. So sorry for your loss. Saying a prayer for Freya x

Glitterfairys Sun 07-Jul-13 21:04:42

Thinking of you and your beautiful Freya . So sorry for your loss HappyDoll x

Imabadmum Sun 07-Jul-13 21:07:02

RIP Freya, so very sorry for your loss xxx

HappyDoll Sun 07-Jul-13 21:20:00

A thousand thank yous...it means so much xxx

scarecrow22 Sun 07-Jul-13 22:25:54

another person who will be remembering your little girl.

chipmonkey Mon 15-Jul-13 02:13:05

HappyDoll, I am so sorry you lost your beautiful daughter. I lost my daughter to SIDS, she had been born prematurely too.
Horrible atrocity which ruined so many peoples lives.

moreyear Mon 15-Jul-13 02:45:08

You and Freya will be in my thoughts on that date from now on. I am so sorry for your loss.

josiejay Mon 15-Jul-13 08:37:41

How utterly heartbreaking. Of course your Freya should be remembered and after reading your beautiful post I will think of her whenever I think of that horrible day,

Freya is clearly very much loved. Even in the face of such a horrible, cruel waste of life, that love shines through.

ssd Mon 15-Jul-13 23:44:02

I'm so very sorry op xx

HappyDoll Mon 15-Jul-13 23:56:44

Thank you.

Lilimum2be Mon 22-Jul-13 00:30:09

RIP Freya, words cannot express how you must be feeling today but I wish you all the love, strength and faith in the world. Holding your hand x

puds11isNAUGHTYnotNAICE Mon 22-Jul-13 00:37:40

I'm so sorry for your loss Happy sad

whethergirl Mon 22-Jul-13 01:03:15

Fortunately, no-one I knew was affected by 7/7. Although my thoughts are with all those who were affected, I'm afraid I can't remember a single victim's name. However, having read your post, I will always remember Freya. I'm so sorry she's not with you right now xxx

HappyDoll Wed 24-Jul-13 12:03:55

Thank you.

pootlebug Wed 24-Jul-13 12:07:28

I'm so sorry. Will be thinking of you and your little girl today, and on future days

icepole Sun 28-Jul-13 10:35:03

So sorry. I too will now remember your daughter.

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