Yesterday after school, we were standing in the queue for the Post Office and I noticed her go all quiet. Once outside, she burst into tears and began whining "Why don't I have a Dad?"
She's almost 8, and this type of behaviour has been happening more frequently over the past few years. Every few days, she'll make some remark about being the only person in her class not to have a dad (yes, there are children of separated parents in her class, but she's the only one not to have contact with hers) and how it makes her feel odd. She gets upset when she reads books with dads in them. Or watches films with dads in them. She frequently pleads with me to get married so she can have a step dad. It's turning into quite an obsession and I'm concerned about the impact on her mental health now - and as she gets older, too.
Her dad moved away with his family when she was a few weeks old (he is on her birth certificate, so has PR) and has never made contact since. I tried to trace him up until she was three, but was told by his sister via email that he doesn't want to be involved. He will pay what he has to through CSA (a whopping £25 per month) but that's all the input he wants to provide. None of his family have met my daughter so she has no links to him at all.
I have tried everything to help my daughter and I'm now feeling at the end of my tether.
*I've explained in an age appropriate manner that her dad just didn't think he could be responsible enough to be a parent, and decided it would be best to go away.
*I've answered all of her questions about him - his name, what school he went to, what movies he used to like etc
*I show her pictures of him whenever she asks (i've kept some by of him holding her when she was a baby)
*I have explained that there is no 'normal' family set up. e.g. some children don't have any parents, some have two dads, two mums, don't have a mum, live with their sister etc. So she has nothing to feel embarrassed/ashamed about.
*I have read her books/selected films that don't follow the traditional family set up.
*I've spoken to her school over the years who just say they'll keep an eye on her during the run up to family events etc.
*I've recently asked for an Ed psychologist assessment who said after a brief visit she does not need intervention as she's a bright girl and it has no impact on her school work, but gave me some tips to use at home (mostly all of the above, which I've been doing for years).
My daughter has plenty of males in her life - she has 5 uncles, a grandad, cousins, drama teacher, our priest - all of whom she has regular contact with.
I don't even think it's her own dad that she's pining for. It's just ANY dad.
I've never had a relationship since she was born (it's pretty hard to date when you're a single parent with no evening childcare, nor have I had the desire to enter another relationship).
She gets angry with me when she begs me to give her a step dad when I explain that it's not as simple as all that, and I don't want to have a relationship right now anyway. I'm perfectly happy as I am.
I really lost my temper yesterday after dinner when she started again with the step dad nonsense. I told her firmly that there are plenty of children in the world with no family whatsoever, so she should count herself lucky she has me. I told her I give her everything I can, I work extra hard to be a mum and a dad to her, and that i have no plans to get married in the near future so she better get used to and stop nagging.
Sullen silence for half an hour after that rant, then she was back to normal.
Of course that rant made me feel even more guilty, but also relieved. I'm now wondering if the nice, calm explanations I've been exercising these past few years are making her worse? Maybe she needs me to start being firm on the subject from now on? But then won't that just be encouraging her to keep her feelings inside and shut herself off from me? At least just now she is very open and wears her heart on her sleeve and tells me exactly what's on her mind.
I just don't know what else I can possibly do. Surely this is only going to get worse as she gets older and enters her teens? She came home a few days ago and begged me to find her dad on Facebook! Apparently a girl in her class told her that you can chat to anyone on Facebook. I told her that I can only chat to my own friends on there, and she doesn't need to concern herself with internet messaging while she's a child. I think that once she's older and her internet use is out of my control - she will search online for him. And my heart is already breaking for her because i am 95% sure her father will still reject her.
She has a lot of anger and sadness about not having a father. And I just don't know how to help her through it.
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Really worried my daughter is becoming emotionally damaged due to not having a father
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TheMaddestHatter · 02/09/2015 10:10
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