I didn't know where best to post this so apologies if it's in the wrong section.
My DD is 5 months old. I had a mc in 2012 so was pretty anxious throughout this pregnancy and I think it affected my ability to bond with my DD - it was probably a self protection thing as I was knocked sideways by the mc and didn't ever believe that my DD would be delivered safely into my arms. I also had a serious haemorrhage following her birth which meant I was away from her for the first 8 hours of her life and pretty weak for a long afterwards.
I've never experienced that rush of love that people talk about and although I do love her, I am devastated that I don't feel overwhelmed with love and emotion for her. I've been feeling pretty tired, low and guilty recently and I wondered if I have PND? I really don't know what to do next. I'm terrified of admitting to anyone that I don't have that overwhelming feeling of love in case they think I'm a bad mother. I would never do anything to harm her and do my absolute best on a day to day basis to take good care of her and help her grow and develop (we play, go to baby classes, swimming, walks, library etc) but I just can't escape this feeling of guilt. What should I do? What will happen if I go to see my GP? I couldn't stPlease share your experiences if you can. xx
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Postnatal depression - is this what I am experiencing?
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DuskyPinkRoses · 20/04/2014 20:21
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